i was wondering your eyes,
and then i realised;
most eyes are full of lies.
the lies where you insist you're fine,
and pretend you don't wish to die.
the kind where your lips form a smile,
when your heart and eyes shout and cry.

i was wondering your eyes,
and then i realised;
in the back of our minds,
no one's really fine.

I woke up heavy
a thousand blank pages on my mind
a million words buried in stunted overgrowth

I woke up heavy
with all the voices in my ear
driving daggers through my heart

My eyelids were steel traps
and between dream and reality
my nightmares were in the shadows

I woke up heavy
My lungs filled with smoke
My stomach was full of red fire

I woke up heavy
and for another day
I wish I hadn't