Girl I just wanna kiss you and get lost in it
You're my home away from home and I feel like we fit
Like two puzzle pieces destined to be together
I just wanna be with you no matter the weather
And you know the pain has been real for a while
Been feeling like giving up even though I still smile
But with you by my side I feel like maybe I can win
Being alive is too precious and I can't just give in

You're not like the other girls I've loved
Your laugh is like the embodiment of summer
Warm weather and flowers blooming
Two girls with sun kissed skin and strawberry lips, that's us
Please don't ever go away my love
I don't think I could stand it if you did

Do not call me by your nicknames
I can see the poison dripping off your tongue
Do not touch me without consent
This body is mine and mine alone
Do not tell me to stay quiet
My words could spark a revolution
Do not try to control me
My power is unbridled and vicious
Do not mistake me for weak
I am a force to be reckoned with

I enjoy editing my history
Taking away the pain and replacing it with something better
Forget the broken hearts and ****** knuckles
She loved you she loved you she loved you
Tell them that she loved you
Forget the lavender bruises and the ache in your brain
She kissed you she kissed you she kissed you
Tell them that she kissed you
Forget the endless tears and the way your body burns
She stayed she stayed she stayed
Tell them that she stayed

She whispers to me, "I promise I'll stay"
I take her hand in mine
I trust her
I believe her
"Okay" I breathe out
Two weeks of pure bliss
Making out on couches
Holding hands in school
Two girls in love
"I've never felt so alive," runs through my mind
All good things must come to an end however
"I need time," she says
"I'm not better," she explains
I fight back tears and the lump in my throat
A simple, "okay" escapes my mouth
No arguing or tears
Just a simple, "okay"
I should've seen it coming
Well good ******* riddance
I know I'm better off
I hope she chokes on all the ******* she spews

Farewell to heart palpitations and sweaty palms
Goodbye to quick breathing and butterflies
Hello to a numb heart, cold and unfeeling
Lost in a daze of what ifs and maybes
Do I want her
Do I want this
A never ending cycle of toxicity
I warned you to stay away
And yet you keep on pushing
Stay away from my friends and stay away from me
I don't need your vile presence soaking up my inner peace

My demons cannot be found under my bed
They are not hiding in my closet
Or dwelling in my basement
They used to be there when I was young
I was thirteen years old when that changed
They slithered up my neck and gnawed through to my brain
Curling around it and sinking their claws in
Their eyes resting behind my eyelids
Their forked tongues controlling my words
They became a part of me
A disgusting ugly part
I gave them different names
Anxiety
Depression
Borderline
Anxiety is the smallest of the bunch
Crimson like blood
Always jumpy
Always ready to ruin my day
Depression is a real ******
Pitch black from head to toe
Beady eyes always filled with tears
He tells me daily that I’m not good enough
I believe him
Borderline is by far the ugliest
She is scaly and green with long sharp talons that are always covered in blood
Milky white eyes
She makes me blind to all of the love that I receive
Ugly mood swings and whispers of, “They’re going to leave,”
I wish she would just go away
I’m sixteen now and they’re still there
My brain being ripped to shreds by their talons
They are dark and they are evil but I will not let them **** me
I am a fighter
I can slay these demons
Even if it takes years
I know I have what it takes