Out loud cries
Apart they take me
At the Lowest degree
being hit by reality
Aching pains sent down my spine
Mentally killing me softly
I'm dying of deadly grief inside
locked and chained in this dark world of pain
Trying to connect the dots
For Every day is a battle that I fought

I'm Fine
I'm riding on cloud nine She says,
As Shes about to fall off the edge
Sunshine in her beautiful brown eyes,
but darkness in her head

Im fine she says,
As Shes on her death bed
******* it!
I said I'm fine,
as She calls the suicide hotline
Trying to chain her bad thoughts
For they will overtake the things in life She got's

Once again,
She says I'm fine,
10 stories high hoping to die
Once more "I'm fine"
Depression in her eyes
she says her last goodbye
"I'm fine."

Tears splatter onto marble floor
As her eyelashes Flickr
Bitter heartbreak at the core
Lifelines grow thinner

Yellow teeth,
brutally beaten self-befriender  
Heart pounding disbelief
Every sight that's seen in the mirror,
life feels like a trial and error

She leaves her Deathly remains,
of heart breaking grief
She's Close to the touch,
But to far to reach
She whispers to herself,
Rest in peace

Peeking up from underneath,
Good grief for what I have become,
I have become nothing
with the qualities of no one
The crisp darkness peers into my inner being
So skin clinching,
Unfit to focus on what I am Becoming to be

My sins forget me not
But God has already forgot me
Clinched to the darkness he lets me rot

Eyes of devastation shatter like winter winds
Bending and breaking as darkness takes me as his friend
I can begin running,
But he's always one step ahead,
Looking behind his shoulder I'm chasing him*...

A cry from this aching pain,
Unable to retain my voice,
only a screech for help
In this world of hell,
I only mock myself

Can only comprehend,
what this world has been,
Can only fight my own,
A cry for help,
I can't do it on my own

Masking the pain,
Against my will I am chained
To the satanic music,
I am drained
From the screams inside,
A life that is hard to retain
But my only thought is
This aching pain

These feelings & emotions
Feel as if they are Infused inside,
A depressed state of mind  
Discovering myself is the hardest rhyme,
I drown in every hide tide
Never able to win
Restraining the pain within
My blood drys thin
Noise mutters from the hells next door
Waves crashing at the shore
Of my brittle skin
Crying on the edges of hell  
A heart that can't mend
Handling what I can't hold in
I swallow down my sins

Down my skin tight neck,
And past my *******,
Comes his heavy breath,
Peeking in my ****** ear,
Challenging me with the slightest sounds,
Of him being here

A nightmare that reappears,
Something skin clutching,
Ones inner self would disappear
He grips me across my chest,
And apart he tears

Braking ribs to make it there,
I do nothing but stare into a blank silence
As he tells my broken heart to come here...

My ribs on the ground,
there's no repair
Aware that my heart is taken
But the smell of him
is no longer in the atmosphere