Hello Daisies

Hello Daisies May 2020

Peeled

If you've never been molested
If you think it's no big deal
If you think it's the victims fault
If you think we're just attention seekers

Just know this
I've been dead since I was a child
I can't recall who I was
Or who I ever will be
I can't feel anything
I'm completely empty

I see shadows
Of monsters and demons
I pray to a god I may not believe in
I can't trust anyone
Not even my own family

I block out my memories
Only to bleed through my dreams
I can't breathe if someone touches me
I'm shaking endlessly
I'm unable to love

I can't be loved
It was taken from me
When their hand went into me
I was broken
By a man who got sympathy

Where's my sympathy?
Where's my healing
Where's my it's not your fault
They gave it to him
Let him sin
With a grin
While I'm here
Sinking
Into darkness

I only let monsters hold me
I'm afraid of the light
I'm disgusting and it's always my fault
How everything went wrong

I'm so sorry
That you're disgusting disgrace
Touched my innocent face
Forced me into a shadow
Peeled my skin from me
Shed me into insanity
I looked so cute in my bathing suit huh

And noone ever came
They never stopped it
Always ignored
Always devoured
So please understand
I will never heal
I will never deal
And I will continue to peal
Until my body dies
Along with my soul

Quarentine has my trauma raised up and I have been denying it this entire time but I guess it's really hitting me tonight

#**** #hurt #depression #trauma #ptsd #graphic

May 2020

JaxSpade

Slow Ride

It's a slow
Slide
Down
The arrow s
Heart

Where your soul pumps blood
Near the knife
she left inside

There's no need for you to cry
For no pain
Can ever take away

Her eyes

And there's no way
To change the blue
To sky

When your world has said goodbye

It's a slow
Slide
Down
The hurt

Sometimes the pain
Is so much

You can't feel at all

You suffer
Yourself

Down the slide
Of the lonely
lost

Deep inside your
Clusterf#!$k

You find..
your thoughts

Hello Daisies May 2020

Magic

I was born a witch
Magic runs inside me
You called me a heathen
Cursed me to a doomed life
I see magic in everything
But unable to open it inside myself

I search endlessly for a cure
You were cruel and unkind
Told me I'd never find one
Everytime I give up to your whim
My tears fall and magic hits the floor
Losing another part of me
What was my destiny?

Still I hope
Still I believe
Only so slightly
But when I see
The stars on a clear night
The moon shining under a cloud
I can feel it surround
Every part of me
The stars shine for me

I haven't looked up in so long
I think I was
        so
                   close
To breaking this horrid curse
It became stronger
I am falling
harder
I hold on to her smile
I hold on to his warmth
To the music that beats
with me
To the laughter that
escapes me
To the peace in their eyes
the misty autumn skies
I hold onto that magic
I know I'll find it within me
I know I can break free

You won't rule over me
I was born a witch
And nothing can change me
Magic is coursing
   forever
       ~through me~

#magic #depression #abuse #pain #hope #love

May 2020

the black rose

the girl that can’t be loved

she’s too strong,
she’s too much,
she’s too tough to love.

she’s too hard,
she’s too broken,
she’s not enough.

she’s imperfect,
she’s wild,
she’s lost in the wind.
she’s insane,
sending signs of chaos from within.
-

hi.

#poetsfromtheislands #bahamas #bahamianwriter #bahamianpoet #spilledink

May 2020

Loveless

Bleed

And over time,
My pen stopped bleeding
But my heart didn't

#bleed

May 2020

The Wonderess

It comes as a shock

They say that I’m
Too much to
Handle

Yet they never seem
To handle me with
Care

They say that I’m
Unable to
Trust

Yet they break it the
Moment I’m not
There

They say that I’m
Far too
Insecure

Yet they won’t
Help me
Heal

They say I’m
Cold and
Uncaring

Yet they ignore
What I
Feel

They say that I‘m
unable to
Listen

Yet they are the
Ones who can’t
Hear

They say I’m
Afraid of
Love

Yet there is
so much to
Fear...

Sometimes people make as though we are unable or unwilling to love yet they and others have treated us in a way that has made us so apprehensive to lend our hearts out. Love is a two way street...

#fear #reality

May 2020

Samantha Cunha

embers

Falling embers burning bright
and dying slowly, as am I

The days melt into the
nights like candle wax

Dark iris lit up beneath
the radiant moon

Your eyes are voltaic
and lead me nowhere

The trees are barren and
the sky ominous

We may get it right in the next
lifetime

#poem #poetry