I can't find the words to write
To make this pain sound beautiful
It just ******* *****
I haven't moved from my bed
I'm already half dead
Crying until I'm shaking
I'm sweating and sick
And I just want to touch you
But then I'll puke
From my hurting heart

You ******* ****
How could you hurt
Such a sweet little heart
I just wanted to give you my all
And you broke me to the ground
But you're sorry
You're my friend right
Why does my chest feel so tight
I can't make any sense right

Lost all my friends
*** you're all I can say
You're my whole day
Burning inside my brain
Tearing open every wound
I've stopped crying today
Not because it doesn't hurt
But because I needed a break

I told you we were okay
We would go back to normal
What else could I ******* say
Being without you was unbearable
Being with you is just as terrible
Your words circle through me
Constantly they jab me
Every spasm I endure
Is just another reason
To beg for more

I lay here awake
Not much more to say
I'm gonna brake
And accept you're not for me
I can't escape this
The loneliness
It's with me
It never leaves
You on the other hand
Surely will always leave
It's what's meant to be

I think
Oh I know
I'm going to cry again
  I wish you could feel my pain
And melt the **** away

You are a rose
Sweet yet sharp
You are a boulder
Strong yet unappreciated

Like a bird learning to fly
Pushed down without help
You arise Everytime

A mother saving her kids
From the hungry beasts
Preying upon your cave
You fight and always win

You are a warrior
Lovely, pure, and brave

You give more joy then
Saint Nick himself
For you are more kind
More caring and strong
Then any human can hope to be

You're my sister
And I thank God for making you so
❤️

I used to cry alone
I used to beg on the floor
Desperately trying
Desperately seeking
For love
For comfort
Everyone walked away

But for Christmas
You gave me a shirt
But for new years
You gave me a kiss
On Valentine's day
You gave me a gift

You said it's nothing
You said I deserve more

You don't understand
How much it means to me
When you show me you care

When I cried on your couch
When I needed help
When I felt so alone

You gave me a hug
You gave me a kiss
You told me you cared
You stayed right there

I never had to beg
I never had to plead
I never had to sink so low
Or fall on my knees

Maybe you think you're not enough
But to me every little kiss
Every little hug
Means the entire world
And I never want to give you  up

Like a tear drop in my eye
Or a rain drop in a puddle
You fill me with emotion
If I sit in them too long
I'll become an ocean

The world is crumbling around
People are panicking
Some are dying
It's tragic
And terrfying

The stars glow seems off
The moons calm is shattered
The wind screams like a howl
So many hearts into a growl

Falling to my knees
Shaking with every beat
What do I do
Where do I go

Then I remember
I found you
You heard me cry
You let me stay
All I can say

I never thought I'd fall in love
Slowly over months passed
Your warmth is all I crave
Holding you calms my breath
I forgot the world was crumbling

That may sound dumb
As I'm not sure you feel the same
But I know you care
Probably more then you can bare
Please don't let me go
As the world may soon blow
I've finally fallen in love
And my heart feels like it's above

So let me stay
I swear I'll pray
You may not believe
But it's the deepest I can feel
To thank God for making you real