What happened that night,
I don't know what to say
Did I give my consent?
Was my silence my okay?
I wish I could take it back,
Or forget and move on
But it stays in the back of my mind,
Waiting to taunt and haunt
I feel like it was my fault
That I didn't fight it enough,
I could've said no one more time
But instead I gave up
I remember the words he said
Right before I blacked out
My girlfriend.... Don't worry
I use to hate him but now,
Now I think I hate only myself
And all I lost that night
And I hate how I can't seem to remember
How everything I was back then, died
four years later, I still feel *****.