just lay back and i will trace
the constellations on your golden skin,
as you are made up of the stars

I begged you - please don't let me go.

My love lies elsewhere, you spoke.
Into the snowy night you drove.
So i sat, stripped down, barriers broken,
Saturated in sadness.

Yet here i am, stronger than before.
Our love a dying ember held closely to my heart.
Until one day i may see you again.

he watches me with those warm brown eyes, lust even with love.
each day i feel him deeper within my heart,
sweeping up the pieces to make me whole again.
anticipation fills my lungs as his fingers weave within my hair,
kissing a line of fire down my neck.
i question how it's possible to love with a broken heart,
  but here i am.
     falling again.

i drink down another night of loneliness,
spit up all my guilt and regrets.

the bed is cold beside me,
sheets stretched a little to far to the left, just the way she liked it.

sadness writhes inside me,
an entity all on its own.

if she's with him...
   where does that leave me...?

hold me close, hold me tighter, before this land we created falls apart.
i chased you to the mountaintops - where the Sun kisses the snow-covered peaks so delicately.
i chased you to the oceans - where the sand dances precariously with that frothy smile.
every single thing i do, i feel i have something to prove to you.
i gave you my hand - when you asked for a friend.
i gave you my soul - when you asked for a lover.

hold me close, hold me tighter, before these stitches break apart within my heart.
i chased you down the valley - where the rain water lies atop the lush green in a still pool.
i chased you far into the forests - where the trees reach their arms up to the sky, praising that blushing Sun.
every single thing i do, i'm able to because of you.
you gave me a light - when all i saw was darkness.
you gave me a purpose - when all i saw was defeat.

hold me close, hold me tighter, before i wake up.

there is a place i dream.
in a dream, indigo skies and blue butterflies.
the river runs red and the fish swim black.
trees turn yellow and change as i do.
in a dream, the world pumps to the beat of a guitar.
it sways ever so slowly to the green light of a new day.
there is a place i dream.
in a dream, i am finally at peace.

Instead of losing my mind, I opted to tear out pieces of my heart,
I placed each piece in separate jars and sealed them with my soul,
Illuminated in varying colors, they found a home amidst parts of my past and my future.
Over time, the jars slowly disappeared and I was left with nothing as the dirt buried my abandoned body,
For I knew I could never experience life and love it for what it was without giving my all.
So my dear, do not collect my jars.
Leave my heart amidst the cities with lights so bright, the oceans with the waves so pure, and the lovers with their arms held wide.
You will feel me everywhere.