Yesterday:
Curious.
Awkward.
Happy, but confused.
Jealous.
Cried in class.

Today:
Happy.
Glad.
Smiled often.
Hugs.
Laughter.

Back and forth. The same thing repeats.
So confusing.
Happiness,
depression.
Happiness,
depression.
Happines­s,
depression.

This is so hard. I can't figure out the real point.


**Do I love her or not?

Satin ribbons
streaming thighs
seedless apple womb.

Fire of womanhood
birthing passion
burning lust.

Cherry stained lips
making love
to velvet glasses.

***** eyes
siren for Mars
tumid ***.

Blooming roses
slippery as silk
sigh in red.

They say love conquers all,
Even the most broken of men.
They say love fills your soul,
Even the most soulless of all.
They say love makes you whole,
But what of the broken?
What of the ones who fell in too deep?
The ones who gave their all,
Every day of the week?
What of the ones who feel so deep?
What of the ones who had been betrayed?
They never tell you what love does after it's gone.

Today I saw three people consume
something that once was alive
that once had thoughts and wanted to live
that wanted to grow
Chickens, Cows, Ducks, Rabbits, Deer, & e.t.c.
What is next?
Why do we grow these animals in barns and warehouses for them to be slaughtered?
To make money you say?!
Make money another way.
don't **** these poor innocent animals that just want to survive like us.
Instead of stealing their milk
make almond milk
it is really not that different
instead of taking young cows and throwing them in a tiny cell
till it is time to consume
LET THEM FREE
When you look at a cow and see it cooked
that it a problem
when we feed fifty percent of our veggies to the animals
so they can survive when they could be free and fed

Is ignorance truly the path to bliss?*

Walk the avenue of emptiness
& discover the strange meaning of peace.
When life fades into a soft monochrome,
A translucent, angelic mist of white
Descends like tinsels of lucid satin
Gliding from an opened window…

Blinding the soul?

Here the docile mind flutters like a snowflake
Guided by the gentle push of tepid winds,
Perfectly content to wallow in this
Incandescent void of thoughtlessness;
A realm that’s absent of philosophy;
A realm that’s absent of a direction.*

But at what cost?

Repudiate your dreams & beliefs;
Empty them from your mind & let them plummet
Out your ears as if they were violent
Rivulets cascading from a mountain
Crevice & lathering on jagged rocks
Below... do this and you will walk this road.

Is ignorance truly the path to bliss?
An existence without the joys of life?
Without the power of choice & thought?
Without clear individuality?

*It is a shame if so.

Do you remember...

The touch of supple fingers
Against cheeks of pastel vermilion,
Rendering vertigo and scuttling breathing...

Voracious glances luring bodies closer...
Anxious eyes &
Trembling lips coalescing?

...how could I forget?

she held my heart within cupped hands,
caressing its leathered, crimson skin.
with fingers soft & swift
she peeled it layer by layer
littering the ground with rose petals.  

she loved me,
no
she loved me not.