All us teens live for
Is crazy Friday nights
Filled with drunken confessions
And flashing lights
Swingin records
And fights with our ex
Dancin, liquor
And mind boggling ***
-CsR

And after you told me I wasn't as beautiful
I was terrified
All I saw in the mirror was a monster
A horribly ugly monster
I couldn't let anyone love me
I couldn't let myself feel beautiful
Because you,
The one I was ready to give everything to,
Didn't want me anymore.
So I hid
And old habits came back with vengeance.
-CsR

I live in this Town
This ******* Town
I walk at night making these street lights my northern star
You see, the lights are point to the gas station near the high school
Because this is where my friends are

My friends welcome me with open arms
Because the see what I see
They hear what I hear
They think what I think

They see this town turning
They see that this town is no longer filled with opportunity
The tire swing is no longer there
It melted away like the rest of our dreams
The blue skies have gone away
All my friends see are the street lights loitering the gloomy roads.

My friends hear useless rumors
Rumbling in their rusty gears called boredom
School has imprisoned our creativity
And forced us to become a number in the standardization of this world
School told us that we can't all be astronauts.

I want to leave
This town is slowly putting chains on me.
I can see it in my older friends
They smoke cigarettes at the park were they used to swing their lives away.
Thank god I have college to swoop me up
and put me under her wings

But now before I fly away,
I see that girl who was kicking my shins in Elementary
School covered in the slums called darkness,
You see the Town took her spirit away
And now I can the monsters crawling out of the closets and roaming the streets

I live in this town
This town that holds my childhood memories
Like you holding my clueless hand at the City Hopkins dance.
You seemed to never let go
Like the grass that stains my Blue, Sky Jeans.

I live in this town
This town that hosted many little league baseball games,
Hosted many right fielders prancing around the blue skies
Picking dandelions off of the ground.
These right fielders are looking at the jet streams in the clear skies
Imagining the streams are people are launching into space.

That’s funny
Its crazier than their dreams
Which are sealed up in their own imaginations
Like the fairytales they read about.
Yet their dreams hold opportunities
Holding like my mom dragging me to the bus on the first day of school.

Heh School
A place where reality slowly kicks in
Notes are passed around with pencils being thrown at the ceiling like darts
The girl I've known since pre K gave me a note today
We used to swing on that tire swing near the golf course
But now she kicks my skins and accuses me of “cootieness”

Meanwhile she is sitting on the front porch
Picking petals off of a sunflower
Does he like me?
Does he like me not?
Does he like me?

I live in this Town
This town that holds many monsters in the closet
Although on the outside of the story shows tinker bell shedding her pixie dust
If you flip through the pages
You will fall down the rabbit hole.

You came into the bathroom
And took the blade from my hands
You left me in shock
And returned with the
Mickey Mouse band aids
And a box of tissues.
You turned on the faucet
And as the water turned red
You just stared at me
You bandaged me up
And you stared again
Until I started telling you
The whole story
And when I was done
You just stared
And then you did something extraordinary.
You started to cry.
-CsR