"911 what's your emergency?"

"I can't breath"

"We are sending help right away mam."

"No...I just can't breath"

"Can you explain why mam?"

"Because he left me...here...alone..."

beep, beep, beep, beep

"Mam?"

Stay real, stay loyal, or stay away from me.
It's that simple.

You don't like me because of it oh well, Let me tell you how many ***** I give.....Oh that's right I have none to give you!!

In a world like mine you have to understand my logic on:
Darkness and Demons
Hate and Love
Blood and Death
Being a ***** and just Protecting
Not giving a crap and Giving up

And most of all you have to understand ME so if you don't understand me and refuse to get to know me....Well you have no right to question my logic and you certainly have no right to question a world like mine.

Babe, I love you and you know that.
But what I don't know or really understand is why you think yourself dead inside?
When I'm with you I can see the pain your eyes but your smile says otherwise.
When you smile it brings to joy to me and when your sad it actually hurts me.
I once told you before and I'll tell you again.
I Promise I won't hurt you like the others have.
I'll keep your heart safe and keep your smile alive
Even if that means forgetting I have a life.
I want you to be happy,
I want to make you happy.

But I guess it just takes time.
Your not dead to me, inside or out.
Your my sunshine with a little bit of cloud.

I promise you though when I get to see you again I will make feel more alive then you have ever been. ;)

Mom yells your name

you: Yes?!.....silence

You: Yeeaaah!?!!! *silence

You: UGH!! Gets up to go see what she wants
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"GO TO YOUR ROOM!"
you: you mean the place where my comfortable bed, my T.V, and my Laptop are? Okay! I'm going!
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Let's watch a scary movie!
After the movie....
Dude walk me to the bathroom!
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When I accidentally step on my, I'm like "***, I'm so sorry",
and they run away from me and I'm like LET ME LOVE YOU!!
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Friend: your parents are so nice

You: that's because your here.
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Some people in my school need a hug.......
With my hands

When I hear a guy say "I love you" it's become a habit to yell at them and say "Don't you ever utter those words to me again!!" then get up and leave....

When a guy comes up to me and says "****, you look good today"
it's become a habit to look at them and say "Oh, so I look like **** every other day?" then get up and leave...

When a guy comes up to me and puts his arm around my waist it's become a habit to remove his arm and say "Don't touch me" then walk away....

When a guy tries to make the move and kiss me it's become a habit to put my hand in front of his lips and say "Don't even go there" then walk away....

Ever since you left it's become my new habits to get up and leave....kinda like you did....just not giving them the chance to actually *hurt me like you did...

***, you are not repulsive
You seem very embracisive.

If I was a guy and saw you all the time
I would honestly die.

Just from the words that spill onto your paper
I think I will just have to meet you later.

Most guys are stupid
okay that was more of a understatement.

A lot of guys are very stupid, letting the one thing go that think are just toys, to be used, abused and hurt.
Thinking we won't retort.

I may have only read one or two of your poems
But *** you have a long way a head, let it show'em
how much you don't care anymore about him and his

TORTURE

because that's all it is.

Boy's only want love if it's torture.

You are an amazing poetess and you have to make it shine
for all those girls who are so upset they dial nine,nine,nine
instead of 910-go-****-yourself, I'm moving on.

Your talent is hiding, please let the world see your amazing writes.

Caitlyn your my best friend, and I'm tired of seeing you hurt!
For the last time ***, it's not your fault and you need to re-tort!

Cody was an *******, who deserves nothing but Pain, and
Believe me when I say it, HE WILL GET THE PAIN

I'm done seeing you cry, and hearing about how he hurt you...
It's just not fair for you to be so emotional over some stupid high school
FRESHMAN drunk at that, Your a sophomore and he should have been grateful that you even gave him the time of day!

I care about you and I'm glad you cut him off, But be warned BOYS like him always come wanting more, and *** don't give him any more chances then you already have.

I'm Pedro the Pirhana
And I don't think I'll see Maniana
'Cos some of me mates
Want me on their Plates!
Washed down with a Pina collada

I know by their glances so fleetin
That there's evil intent in their greetins!
So I'm watchin them
Watchin me, watchin them
While I swallow the one that I'm eating.

I'm sorry........
Breaks down and cries
I'm sorry........
cries even more and pleads for forgiveness
I'm sor-
He stops me and kisses my tears away
"Don't be sorry babe, you have nothing to be sorry for."
*stops crying and walks hand in hand into the bedroom

Hushabye baby you're almost dead.
You have no pulse and your pillow is red.
You're family hates you & you're friends let you bleed.
Sleep tight with a knife because that's all you need.

Rockabye baby broken & scarred,
You didn't know life would be this hard.
Time to end the pain that you hid so well,
& Down will come baby,
Straight back to Hell

After this incident

I understand if you don't find me worthy and don't want to be with me anymore....

Yeah it will hurt but I'm  used to the heart break, and sadness so in the end you will just be causing a ripple in my ocean of tears and pain.

Does anyone else get so ****** that you start laughing manically?
Example:  
Cheerleader: Oh look, it's Geekella.
Hey, nice outfit where did you get it the goodwill? hahahaha!

Victim: in head she's thinking "I'm going to **** her"
Outside "ha...ha..hahahahahhahahahahahahahaha"

Cheerleader: What's so funny? I just insulted you?

Does anyone else get so paranoid that you push everyone away?

Does anyone else get tired of your parents saying you can't date?

Does anyone else wish school was like china, year round just so you could spend time with your secret boyfriend?

In the beginning you gave me a white
Teddy Bear to symbolize our Pure
Honest Love for each other
And it felt so right.
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Ever­y night I snuggled close
Wishing soon I would be snuggling
Close to you.
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One day we started fighting over
Something stupid. You got ******
And called me a *****. I cried so
Much that night, I need relief
So I cut once, twice, thrice times.
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Later that night I took my blood and
Stained the bear under the eyes and
Trailed it all the way down the face
Like you made my tears trail down
My face.
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The next day I saw you with another
And my heart broke a little. I had
Confronted you and you said it was a
Friend nothing to worry about. But
I knew better so my heart broke a little
More.
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I went home and cut, cut, cut took the
Blood and stained a giant red splotch
Over where my heart would be....
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Saw you again and watched you kiss
Another I saw red and walked away.
You came to find me and acted like an
Angel, you said Babe, I love you with
all my heart I knew you were lying but
Said Okay Babe
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Went home and cut, cut, cut and finally
I cut and restitched the bear staining it
With my blood everywhere I cut.
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I came to you the next day Teddy Bear
In hand I gave it to you and said Here's
A piece of me, it's name is The not so Wight
Teddy Bear Hope you enjoyed toying
and abusing cause I had fun cutting and renewing.
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Merry christmas...
Merry christmas...
Merry christams...

That's all you hear and you know what's it's not a Merry Christmas.
Cause no matter what there is always someone being hurt,

So yeah *MERRY ******* CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink.
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.

You know you have a good friend when:
They don't let you do stupid things...........Alone

You know you have a Best Friend when:
They let you insult them, laugh about it, and then call you something more offensive.

You know you have a BFF when:
They help you commit a ****** and hide the body.

You know you have a sister/brother when:
No matter what you do or say they always have your back, keep your secrets, beat the **** out of your ex's (minus the dudes unless you want jail) listen to your repeated drama, let you cry on their shoulder, and most of all They try and stay strong for you and never let a guy/girl come in between your friendship.

We all have our demons,
Hateful, vindictive demons
Yearning for just a little sunlight.

Most are worth keeping,
Exciting at that. But are they really worth it
?

I think they are best things to have ever happened to me.

Lula-buying my anger to sleep at night,
Over exaggerating my imagination
Verifying my deepest desires.
Exploiting everyone else's darkest thoughts.
Destroying any emotion coming my way.
Young I may seem but
Old is my mind and
U are my demon.

I looked up and said What do you want from me?
Can't you see I just want my baby back with me?

He looked at me with fire
Hot enough to burn down an empire.

How much do you love him
He seemed so slim.

I would die for him, try for him, cry for him
I would even give up my soul for him, didn't I just tell you this?

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Would you?
Would you be willing to give me your soul, let me eat it, keep you alive enough to see the torture I put your corpse through,
see me ****** innocent people everyday?

Do not make promises with the devil,
we never keep our promise,
dear,
you are literally playing with the devil right now.

I own him.
Simple as that.
I get to do whatever I would like with his soul, and soon,
with yours too it seems.

I will keep his soul, toy with it,
toy with you,
my plaything.

His is mine.

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I don't believe you
Even demons have the chance of telling the truth.

I would sell my soul for him
Give my life to you

If you bring him back to me
Let me see him one last time

Let me tell him I'm sorry
I was wrong to mistrust

I...I love him with all my heart.

Boyfriend comes out

I love you too
Don't worry about me

I need you to be happy
Move on without me.

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Hah! You think you can deal with the devil?
Play devil's advocate?

You are nothing but an angel
trying to be tough.

He is mine,
and this, this exchange?
Pitiful. ****.

He's a liar. He doesn't want you to move on,
He loves himself too much to think about you,
he wants you to be stuck on him,
always worship him like he's your world,
and he'd like to take all that worship and give none back.

Part of why I like him, really.
He has some very nice points,
like the fact that he is so full of himself,
and he has a certain taste for breaking people,
just to name two of his fine points.

This is quite entertaining to watch,
him spilling lies out of his mouth like blood drips from a wound,
you slurping it up as if it was water and you dehydrated.

Hmm.
I'm letting you to give me a show for 5 minutes.
And, darling, dear?
He gets some of my demonic powers.

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Your filthy ******* liar!
I hate you!

He would never sell himself to you to make me
Come back to him.

I came back because I love him.
Runs to the house

Babe, please tell me he's lying?
I love you to much

To much to let you go
I was wrong to mistrust you

Please tell me this whole thing whole
Was just a setup?

Kisses him on the lips

Please don't let him take control!
I need you,

I need you like air to breathe.
The whole time we were apart

My blade became best friend.
Your name is carved into me.

Literally and metaphorically.
Please just tell me you love me?

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This is interesting to watch.

I told you,
watch him.

Watch how he will
kiss you,
slip his hand down your pants...
I told you, you are nothing to him.
You are just another girl to be ******,
another innocent girl.

Watch as he will enchant you
with that devil smile
that makes me so proud,
watch how he will use you,
make you another one of his slaves.

But who am I to say anything?

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Babe?
What are you doing?

Stop! This isn't you!

Stop, struggling and look at me
Don't you remember the first time we kissed?
Right there under that tree?

Don't focus on anything else but me.

No!
Struggles to get free
This isn't you,
This isn't me.

Now I know I was right
To set myself myself free.

You did sell yourself!
Like a ***** *****!

You never wanted me
Only my virginity!

So you know what
I'm done!

I hate you and I hate you
May you both rot in hell for all eternity!

Pulls out cross and throws it at devil

I thought you loved me
And I guess I was wrong
But don't be fooled I will always still Love you
For the man I knew
Wasn't this cruel.

The love.                                                                                 The Blood.
The cherishing.                                                                      The bruising.
The lust.                                                                                  The must.
The sun.                                                                                  The rain.
The fake.                                                                                 The make.
                                     I love you too much to let go.
                                    But is the sun worth the rain
                                                             or
                                    The rain worth the sun. I cover m face with
                                    Shades, just so my friends don't see what
                                    Happened last night.

The love.                                                                                   The Blood.
                                            I want the love not the blood.
The Cherishing.                                                                       The bruising.
                                           I want to be cherished
                                           Not a bruised fruit.
The lust.                                                                                     The Must.
                                           You say the lust is a must
                                           But I say it's more like a bust.
The sun.                                                                                      The rain.
                                            I love the sun
                                            I love the Rain but,
                                            I hate your sun and
                                            I hate your rain.
The fake.                                                                                      The make.
                                            I will not fake it until I
                                            Make it, just for the fear
                                            Of not making it, I'm in a
                                            Vicious cycle of torture and
                                             Elegance. That has absolutely
                                             Damed my soul. Every day
                                             On and off, on and off.
                                             No more. I'm done.
I just want to know when will I have my sunshine.

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It's times like this where you wish you could take everything back

Dear Crush,
Don't be scared if a fat guy in a red suit
Snatches you away on Christmas eve.
Sincerely, you were on my wish list!

Times like this make me wonder
How I don't go around and tell people about themselves?
In all honesty, You can talk all the garbage and
**** you want but *** I'm telling you now your gonna be upset because

I don't give a crap what you have to say or think your just
Self centered and will try and bring anyone down

Well *** your just going to have to look somewhere else because
Here with me is not your answer....
Or is it because secretly you enjoy me twisted, dark, and

Insidious personality?

As I look at the situation you have always been around, watching
Me as if I was entertaining to you...so do you? Or do you need to just get used to it like every one else has?

With every passing minute.............
*I'm falling more and more in love with you.

Please don't worry I shall be fine
Please don't worry your far to kind

I shall be fine so don't worry about me, I'm just torn up and finding all the pieces again....

As long as I'm breathing please don't worry, For I am to much of a burden.

As long as I answer your text or message within 24 hours please don't worry, for I am becoming to much of a burden.

As long as you see me here, there, or around from there please don't worry, for I am tired of being the burden.

I care about everyone more then I probably should because people take it as an opening to walk on me like dirt.

Maybe it's the fact that I'm telling you Don't worry....That should make you worry....

A Mother's Love is Forever

This is the last straw
I just don't think it's fair that I get treated like a shawl.

You can't just wear me down and then pick me up
Making me hope, for... what your love and brotherly affection?

At this point I just don't care anymore.
I know your only 11 and a half but you know what...

Your a ****.
And I just don't care anymore what you think, feel or have to say.

I'm done.

Sooooo I have a crush on this one boy.....
                                                       But have no Courage to tell him
I have Fear instead.
    
                                    If only he knew why I'm always Looking at him
Why I'm always so Shy around him
                                                           But not around my Closer friends
I Like him a lot...
                                                              Since the First time I saw him...
I've Thought about him
                                                 I just wish he would pay attention
Pay attention to the Clues
                                                         That I don't mean to Give
But Still do.......

When you see you didn't lose him and when he tells you I want nobody else, but you*

That is the best feeling in the world!!

Christmas just isn't going to be as Merry this year...

Here's the deal I do me and you stay the hell away form me unless you want your esophagus broken because darling don't under estimate me...

I can go from Lady to ghetto 2.5 seconds.

Okay so I've seen a lot of Melodrama about Summer.
I've seen her work and I admit it makes me angry that she stole peoples work and put someone else's picture on a place she had no permission doing.

But honestly? DO WE REALLY HAVE TO STOOP DOWN TO THIS KINDA LEVEL?

I mean come on guys.
Telling people to **** themselves
Calling people dogs
and just being plain out rude to each other!

I'm not siding with anyone on this because you know what

YOU ALL SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELVES!
Fighting like Melodramatic teenagers.
Some of you are but I know some you aren't.

This was not suppose to be mean or side taking but it was more of a

Reality Check
Everyone is out of place on this.

Mommy I fell and it hurts.
Go away can't you see I'm busy!

Mommy I'm hungry!
Then go get something, just shut up.

waahh! sniffle Mommy!
SMACK Shut up you little brat!

Mom, I want to go see dad.
Well, he doesn't want to see you.

Mom, are you okay?
No, your still alive.

Mom, your hurting me!
Well, you hurt me the day you were born! you little home wrecker!

Baby girl please come home...
Mom, I will not.

Baby girl I'm sorry...
Mom, no your not.

Baby girl, your a good girl...
Mom, your a bad mom.

Baby girl I love you..
Mom, I hate you.

Baby girl I mean it...
Mom, so do I.

I would say I'm sorry for my out burst but...

Would you rather me honest or lie?
7 people raise hand for lie
3 people raise hand for truth

Okay well I'm just gonna say this

I'm not as sorry I should be...NO
I'm not sorry at all.

This year was suppose to be a great Christmas but how is it suppose to great if you got girls down the street being gang ***** and you can't do a thing about it.

Or better yet how is it suppose to be a "MERRY CHRISTMAS" if your just a 15 year old girl trying to please her parents and being threatened with "If you don't do all theses chores you get no Christmas"

Yea, that's the spirit!

You know what I should be sorry but I'm not so this is my Christmas wish to all those people who see nothing wrong in this world,
to all those people who are so positive and look down on all of us who are negative because we know what the world is like and have known since a the age of ******* 4!

Here's my wish to you:
I wish you would open your ******* eyes!!!!
Or better yet for judging me just last week

*GO **** YOURSELF!!!

I sit in the park where I dwell,
For this boy I love so well
He took my heart away from me
and now he wants to set me free.
                                                               *I see a ******* his lap
                                                                   He says things he never said                    
                                                                   to me.
                                                                   I ran home to cry on my bed.
                                                                   Not a word to mother was said
Father came home late that night
He looked at me from left to right
He saw me hanging from a rope
He took his knife to cut me down]
And on my dress a note was found.
                                                                  *Dig my grave, Dig it deep
                                                                       Dig my grave from head to feet
                                                                       And on the top place a dove
                                                                      And know ,I died for Love