This upcoming February darkness,
I fear is going to take its final toll.
Not equipped to comprehend fate's
sick intellectual twisted game.
Memories from our past life,
rushed through my veins.
For it has only been one earth year,
but this time warp we got ****** into,
seems like a lifetime ago when I first inhaled your radiant chemicals.
You threw them into my path of airwaves.
Lost,
knowingly aware there is no going back to what was or what could be.
What source of love is this?
Much more than just
the chemical dopamine.
No.
More complex.
Yet my foe reality,
is always waiting around the corner.
Can't seem to get it on my side.
But determined
to stop and wake my pathetic urge of hope I
shamefully still hold on to.
Blood stains my scenery and memory pod.
No these are no trophy's.
Your curse is my beautiful divine punishment.
Reminded
of the genuine ways
of what humans use to call a real "man".
That i never shown effortlessly
due to my selfish actions.
How insecurity brought out
the wrong demon inside me.
And vacuumed, and blacked out the fire
we both in lighted together , nothing but catastrophic intentions.
Our souls entwined as one.
Our hell we planned to decimate as one.
Side by side.
Our own oblivion.
The beginning of our lovely journey seemed too flawless.
Your false pretentious of how I was everything
that you thought I'd be or not, left you blind to my tool of manipulation. .
Oh *** I knew the potential of your sorcery.
An amazing charm.
from the Genesis.
Still I did not object.
Your eyes glazed and burned like 100 suns into mine.
Brighter than the suns destroyed
and countless planets obliviated.
For my own beautiful art
of genocide done by my own hand.
Inspire of how we came into each others existence,
you seemed to still acknowledge the common moral
Ways of the human race.
You came With fair warning of the curse you were capable of casting,
one that had no ending.
An amazing disease. A plague of never forgetting your beauty.
A face of all goddesses.
Perfection.
A Masterpiece.
Fully aware of the costs of this suicidal journey.
blessed to even fill your breeze
on my face from your
predisposed aroma feeling my cold lungs.
Shutting them down slowly.
savoring the thirst of this process.
Ironically feeling more alive with your fire still burning inside me.
Ablator synced to support my youth lungs that are now blackened by your hex.
Vitals balanced.
But for how long?
My sweetheart can I get your forgiveness?.
Selfish acts corrupted what was once my soul,
And put yours at stake.
Betrayal got the best of you.
Years of agony and torture I suffered without your embrace.
Our binding contract of loyalty I broke .
Smile of grace from ear to ear,
racing thoughts of how I dreamed of
dying and to see those eyes one final time.
Look of Satisfaction fills your resplendent green eyes.
Patience ;
you have mastered build for this particular day.
my sins,
my evil deeds have caught up so you could finally witness this
moment.
Vitals slipping.
As my ablator slowly loses its power source.
Drifting away,
yet lifted in levels above to be
holding your hand a final time.
While I take my last breath.
Rest easy
with a peace of mind when you hear my flatline.
Baby thank you for this disease.
The cleansing I always thrived for.
My love forgive me.
Slipping higher.
Gone from existence.
From your shattered soul.
This piece is very unique. I'm honestly so in love with this.
So complex and deep. So much meaning into this