I wrote all of these little words for you but without them I don't know what I'd do. I refuse to again lose you, because now I'm losing these too and I'm so afraid of what's next.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

What if we traded places? Keep the same feelings and kept the same faces. If I'm the sky, be my perfect blue. Because even with all my clouds they'll still think of you. At night be my shining stars. People around the world will find beauty in you miles apart.

Babe if I'm the sky please be my ocean blue; an infinite amount of perfection, an arrow in the right direction; I just wouldn't be me without you.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

I hid my misery in apathy when actually you would never understand what it truly meant to me. This agony is atrophy and it's atrocious how anxiously you wait to push me off the balcony. I'll call that anxiety. You'll wait till I'm feeling better and laugh at me then rapidly and happily you calumny push me off the mountain peek, but my vitality has helped me survive this fatality. Then you have the audacity to think that I will accept an apology from the very first person I trusted with every part of me when you were the first person to question my loyalty? **** that, that's insanity if you think you can walk away from me and come back so casually and the way you broke my heart is a catastrophe, and when they see the damage they'll call it brutality. I'll tell you so even you will see. In all honesty, I couldn't see a better reality than one without you and me.

Potentially we could exponentially expand the boundaries of our maps without destroying our surroundings just because someone doesn't know what our sounds mean, and what if she found me? Does it make a difference? Would you turn back time in an instant to make a different decision or would she make the same wicked choice you did? What if, for instance, no one met anyone and we just let ourselves be? Like if apathy got the best of me, would their lust turn to their agony? Would our trust turn to our suffering? No, our stability is crumbling and now I'm mumbling, stuttering 'cause it's ow you made me, but baby, I'm not complaining. Yes, what you did to me is horrid and probably a red-herring, and you're still here just to see how I'm fairing. I guess it was  inevitable really. It's destiny; No escaping, and as enraging as it is, there is all sorts of ways of delaying. So where would we be, if we kept delaying destiny? Would I be happier, sadder, or just the same me?

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

Suddenly I don't feel quite myself; I'm feeling down. I need some help, please don't let me drown. But I'm thirsty enough to drink this whole sea. I might just to see what would happen to me. I'm beyond it, but won't say I'm past it. So when I die, do not cry, strike up a match and light up my casket.
Watch it burn.

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

I will not accept what I do not deserve. I wish to meet you in heaven, but my seat in hell is reserved. So I'll ride this train past my death. You bought my ticket, and eventually you'll bare the consequence. I'm beyond it, but I won't say I'm past it. So when I die, do not cry, strike up a match and light up my casket.
Watch it burn
Now I'm gone

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

I come home and I load up Call of Duty
The title screen is so welcoming
It's the only place I feel at peace
Even with all the bullets shooting at me
My Xbox is my only stress relief
It helps me stay awake and think
Because I would give anything
To not fall again and just get some sleep
And I keep thinking constantly
That maybe tonight I won't be so week
But that's all I am, yeah that's me
I'll fight these well known enemies
Maybe if I can't beat my demons I'll beat the game
And get my final killcam with a 2.77 K/D

I'm so sick of honesty
I just want to lie here and be me
Cause the only thing I want to be
Is the thing that makes me happy
And I know that I can't be that thing
But, hell I'll keep trying
This isn't my last scene
I've got another act to go
But you're saying cut and I listen
As I’m about to, you yell no
Like which one is it?
Am I doing what’s right or what isn’t?
What I want or what you’ve written?
Well too late, what’s done is done
But you’re yelling at me for things I’ve not done
I'm a dead-shot with my words
But yours shot me dead you see
Cause I'm not missing you
And you're not missing me

So let's pretend that my personality wasn't crap
That maybe I wasn't so attracted to poems and rap
Pretend I wasn't forced to vent my feelings to a paper and pen
That maybe I could speak to others without caving in
I'm like a house of cards, and you see the grin on my face
You let out your last breath and watch it all fade
Into the darkness, my soul floats away
And I'm so sick of these creatures and that I even have to say
"These words are my own on all these letters I've made"
So let's pretend that I could help who I am
Let's pretend I even knew who I was
But it all really disgusts me because
These people aren't who they claim to be
I don't say who what I am, because I don't even know me
I don't know what they hell I'm made of
They say it's water and blood, but which one do I trust?
With water I survive, but I'll need it like an addiction
But with blood, I'll survive, but I'll create another victim
And I'm so sick of this constant circle of doubt
I don't want to be another lost soul, how do I get out?

I wrote all of these little words for you
but without them I don't know what I'd do
because now that I've lost you
I'm losing these too.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

I could walk through these school hallways and not see a single thing I like. Not the people, not the posters; It's a horrid ******* sight. I truly hate every word I write and every word I speak. But what's worse, being to **** strong or too **** weak. Because if you're strong you never let anything in. But if your weak you will let them destroy you from within

Give me some adderal
Would it be worth it?
For once to pay attention
To start observing
When you never gave a dime to me
Ignoring
The shrine I built in the likeness of you
Unnoticed glory
I built it with glass and held it together with glue
Your amazing on the outside
But you're so transparent
As soon someone throws a stone
You lose your whole foundation
Won't let someone too close
Afraid the ground will start shaking
When you tremble; and knees get weak
I look at you, and I see a piece of me
Walking away

No one gets by without a scratch. No one survives a backstab. They leave scars that last. Kiss away my pain. That’s enough to drive a man mad, and tonight as you scream my name, our problems’ll fade away. For now.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay smiling. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

I write stories and forget them instantly. Erase them please; “memories” I say peacefully and painfully they’re washed away, but never completely. It’s beyond me how I keep making the same mistake.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay crying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

If I start to believe, that it’d ever change. It’ll be the death of me, a little too late.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay dying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

Let’s pick up where we left off. With one intact and one broken heart. Where he picked you up, and then dropped you off. But I don’t think you understand, just what I have lost. Don’t expect to get helping hand if you guess wrong. I just wanted somewhere where we would all get along, and you just wanted somewhere where you belonged. I must have made you strong. Because now you expected something a little more. I trusted you so much, I ripped the door of my mind from it’s hinges. And I left it open so you could get in it. But it’s none of your business to worry about how much time I got, who I spend it with. But if you wanna start a civil war over something stupid, good luck with that. I just wish you’d see what I stand. I’m only human, but once I start yelling get the **** back. I’m sorry. I couldn’t say it anymore sincere. Just give me space. Back the **** up and get out of my face. I warned you not to get close to me-I’m a walking ****** case. You don’t wanna be friends? Fine, it’s about time I cut my loose ends. But what ***** is that since then, for months on end, you’re all I could think about. But just when I thought you were gone, you came back and I wrote you this song.

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I could think of any better day, then when we just slept and didn’t have a single word to say. The smile I wrote on your face was just the beginning. And every time you saw your beautiful face, it was just the best thing. And even at six in the morning I can’t help think of words I never got to say. I’m sorry for everything that I said. I’m just a little messed up in my head. I can’t stand these empty lies anymore. I’ve got to tell the truth before I walk out the door. I’ve had it with doing what we must. Because we all know that it causes us to combust. You say it’s for the best, of the rest. But what about me? We’ve come too far, dealt with to much, fell too far in love, to let you just, self destruct. That night, I had enough. I couldn’t understand why you loved-, someone you never met. I wanted to be the reason you were alive, not someone who’s music you listen to when you were upset. I I understand now, how he kept you alive. But I regret it all now I know better than to talk to you now though, because what good would it get? But every day that passes by, I’m losing myself bit-by-bit. I wish that I could rewind just a little while, to change my past ways and erase this sorrow. Because I love you more than than these last days and less than I will tomorrow. Don’t worry, I’m not blaming you. I know it was my fault. I just don’t know what to do about the abuse I give myself. Well, I guess this is the last thing I can do, because…

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I was just a lucky boy I guess, I finally found the one. I was just another guest in this house that she made for one.

I know you don’t want to speak. But that’s what’s killing me. I miss the soft tone of your voice. I refuse to move on from you and I don’t know why. Because I just want to talk to you forever and ever. And never hear again, the words, Good-…..

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws

Don't sleep, these thoughts will only keep racing
Don't sleep, you're a legend in the making
These opportunities among us
Don't sleep, you’re too old to dream
Don't sleep, you're way too young to be
Please, I want you to stay among us
Don't sleep, you're way too young to

Close your eyes
but please talk to me
Don't you walk toward that light
you mean so much more to me

Will you be my shooting star?
An angel in the sky?
I never thought you’d fall this hard
Please fall into my arms tonight
My shooting star

Don’t sleep, come watch two stars collide
Don’t sleep and I swear you’ll be just fine
There is so much metal among us
Don’t sleep and I swear you’ll make it out alive
Don’t sleep, I know there is some fight in you
Look at all these tubes among us
Don’t sleep, there is so much left to do

Close your eyes
but please talk to me
Don't you walk toward that light
you mean so much more to me

Will you be my shooting star?
An angel in the sky?
I never thought you’d fall this hard
Please fall into my arms tonight
My shooting star

Close you’re eyes
you don’t have to speak
Go ahead and rest
You’’ve earned that at least
You tried your best
All of your cards on the table
How will heaven feel
With two more angels.

You're a shooting star so
We’ll watch the earth from the sky
I never thought you’d fall so hard
Please fall into my arms tonight
My shooting star

One of these days, this disease will take you over. You'll finally go from a drunken stupor to secluded sober. I don't know what I fear more, your elegant words of wisdom, or the lies I see between them. "I can stop anytime I like, but that is not today. Now how about you get on your bike and go the **** away." I hoped that you'd listen and I'd hoped you'd see exactly what your doing to this family. I wanted you to change you, not this disease. "Why won't you listen to me? Open up your eyes! Please!" You'll never catch on with your eyes closed. I know that these choices are your own, and I have seen the holes, so let me be a filler. I’m sorry, but if by now you haven't found a cure, open up your heart, I'll be your painkiller.

Why do you still resent me? Why judge me on my past deeds? I know it's all about who remembers, but no one remembers me. Why do I still have feelings? Why do I still write these? Not like anyone will notice, the way that my smile bleeds.

As you know, I come from an emotional, dysfunctional delusion
A sort of internal, infernal, disowning confusion
This pain is sempiternal, but I'm a dynamite with the fuse lit
I’m not gonna complain again, cause that’d be useless
I mean it’s not like she’d ever hear the words that I say it's
As if I never spoke them, oh god I'm nuisance

I'm so pessimistic
It's really pathetic
To watch me **** myself over a few sad sentences
I'm so narcissistic
It's really poetic
To tie the knots on my noose with my own words

Before I die though
I'll go on the aggressive
With some passive resistance
Because I'm honestly quite sick of all this constant *******
Call me Ghandi and I'll be quick to dismiss it
Unlike him, I know when I'm through being messed with
And I don't let people step on me like I'm a rug on their doorstep
Unlike me, he's not over possessive
And people didn't call him out for being over obsessive
But we both fight for what we think is right
Except he teaches on the lesson
While I'm kind of offensive
And the amount of times I swear is a little over excessive
But It helps get the point across to these ******* thick headed dimwits
So I can see how I'm not one they'd be impressed with
You know who you are when I'm this far on the defensive
I'm just a little over protective
There's no limit to how much I can stress it
You'd be my way too if you were looking from my perspective.
Because what if all of the sudden
Like a flame in the kitchen
Something you thought was normal grew into something that isn't
Because they only listen
When there is no way of saving
And only when you die do they even look what you've written
Poem after song and song after poem
I'm so sick of all these words unspoken
But I'll let out all my thoughts and that is a promise
So look me in the eyes and I'll be honest

we should write some sad
songs together
maybe cry until
it feels all better
I know it hurts now
but I'll kiss your wounds
sure your scars will stay
that you always knew
You will be okay
if you let my words
show you the kindness
that your lips deserve

Like a body in water I float and I drown. Like worms to the earth I keep going down. Like a deer in my headlights I stop and I freeze, but just like that, you snap, and I'm back and I fall to my knees.
Falling like snow we melt on the ground. Crying and dying without a sound. I'll disappear and you'll never know. I'm a king and I'll be fine on my own.

Forever frozen in this space in time. What god given right let's you take away mine? You're not my creator, nor are you my savior. So what the hell do you think causes all my anger?

You're no better than me, and I know that you'll remember. My name will be as cold as mid-December. You'll get frost bite on your breath, you'll see the beauty in your death, you'll fear the sunlight like I do, and see horror in finesse.

Let's cut down a weeping willow
Plant it's roots beneath your pillow
Sleep over sadness
Too much leads to sickness
In turn introduces anger
And broken dishes
I won't stand by and be a witness
I am not worthless
I'm more than the words I'm hit with
And no less than my definition of perfect
I won't be bullied
You've hurt me
Shards of glass lay scattered
I guess peace of mind doesn't matter.
Because bronze beats brains
Even if it's mind over matter

Okay, you started this. I'll open up. I guess I'll get first move.

I'll move my pawn to G-4 and you'll counter with a horse. Face to face they'll battle until what's mine is finally yours. Pawn from F-2 to F-3, now there's no way your knight is getting past me. Next you take my queen, and I go from a king to a man. It's like comparing *Kings to Castles. Which has a better move span? Not like movement, but in strategy. Now see, you're like a white knight and I'm a black castle. I'm a pawn who got strong so he wouldn't have to take **** from *******. The world doesn't revolve around, this is a life that can work without you and I can make it all happen if you put me in the wrong mood. I'm more powerful than you could fully comprehend. You can threaten me and show off all you want, we know how this'll end. Try not to copy me, and do or say the exact same thing. I'll get my queen back, before my pawn takes your king.

They said time flies,
that a moment will fall through your palms like sand
If it's so fast we can't see it with our eyes,
how do I react to a pill this size and
move my hands to guard against
my throat opening;
my hands are closing in.
Reality won't be the death of me,
I'll die awake but dreaming
in a fantasy

If I'm sick please be my remedy
If it's music please be my harmony
And baby please if you see my on the street
Don't smile near me
Because I'll fall in love again

Poison runs through our veins
A mirror shows you the way
Into a light
that burns until ashes remain
and
Our perspective has shifted
You've gone from living a memory
To some *******
Where absolutely nothing has changed
We gave it our all, but it's just not enough
I'm so tired of these stories of love

And from a broken mirror a Phoenix shall rise
Dust to dust it's all the same
Day by day; whether it's him or me

The darkest night
The dullest glow
It's all inside
It's all for love

Repeat

No, I'm not the way I used to be, and I never will be again. So **** it all when I have is some friends, and I never understood why I wanted them then, but now that I have them I'll do what I can to never be lonely again. I'm afraid. You know what I'm thinking. Destroy these thoughts with a bullet through the brain like Lincoln and maybe then people would look at what I've written, these hard hitting second meanings. You think all I write about is my heart breaking, aching and writhing pain. Rage is only a second to a deeper thought.

Let’s start something new
Something hidden
A splash in the water
Or a wave in the sea
Just another day
It’s just a memory
a little more than that
it’s a day at the beach
Throwing sand in our eyes
We were blind to see
The magic of what happened right underneath
Our noses
They told us
We were Adam and Eve
But even here in the Garden of Peace
We’re subject to our fathers
Regardless of religion or belief
Who are we to say what don’t exist?
Just because we haven’t seen?
Maybe they’re as daft as we
Maybe it’s right in front of me
The answer to our history
Wherefore art thou Juliet?
Wherefore art thou Capulet?
But what if thou wasn’t?
What if He created you different?
As much as it kills me
It would make a difference
That’s why I’m glad you love me in this life
Because you’re not assured mine in the next
So tonight, I’ll ask for His pen
Because while he tried his best I think that I’d better write the rest
Because we all deserve happiness
The end.

Take my breath from me
Take it all and then leave me
I'll let you do all that you want to me
But don't pretend that It's happy
It's not okay, thanks for asking though
It's hard to say you sir are an *******
But it's just me, and I'm nothing special

So I'm sorry your betrayal isn't enough
I'm sorry your fairy tale was
But mostly I'm sorry that I let you

It's okay, I don't even look anymore
It's okay, I won't even speak again
Since I can't replace what you took
Well, I shouldn't even be writing this then
Should I?
No, even you can't control me
But since you know me, you know I'll let you

So I'm sorry I wasn't perfect growing up
I'm sorry that you got everything you want
But mostly I'm sorry I let you

Now, I know it's nothing I could help
But deep down I told myself
that when you finally break down
I will be the only one who isn't around
It's kind of sad to think about
Do you deserve it?
Of course you do for all the people that you've been hurting
me included
But it wouldn't make me any better than you
would it?
No, I would be worse than
I would be cursed then
when I finally found something good I would lose them
because then I would deserve it
So right here, I'm ending this endless cycle
I'll tell you what I'll do
I'll forget you as soon as I forgive you
Because I know that you love him
And I'm only sorry I let you

Oooooh

Don't be sorry, I did it to me
Blades could only reach my skin deep
But only some can get through
And I'm sorry I let you

The lights always seem dimest when the moon shines the brightest
And the sun seems the coldest when your friends are the warmest
But refuse to share
And
I'll refuse to care
So
Sinister blue
Deceiving blonde
Unseeing red
I know you'll all betray me
It's a habit
That one of you already does.

I swear this world is an illusion
So mundane; it feels diluted
I know that I’m delusional
But I'd rather feel more than just the usual
I’d rather fall down the rabbit hole with you
I used to think that I was a boat, and you were the sea
I’m only good for you while
You’re still beautiful without me

I swear I'll change it
I’ll weave a different fate
This isn’t just another reiteration

We’re running out of time
Our clock begins to tick by
Scream all you want
You won't fix this flawed design
We’re running out of time
You can't stop this clock
Scream all you want
It's flaws will never be a fault of mine

Interesting the life you made me
And oh, the confidence you gave me
But the sea is rising
And I think I’m drowning
Our worlds are changing
And for some reason
The walls are caving
Neither of us can breathe

I swear I will change it
I’ll weave a different fate
This isn’t just another reiteration

I’m running out of time
I’m going insane
Scream all you want
You can't fix this flawed design
I'm out of patience
I'll leave you my name
Scream all you want
You'll never find out where those perfect days went

This will never be a better place
Shadows fall on those who shine brightest
So I’ll look you in your face
“I won’t miss you in the slightest”

You’re running out of time
This world isn’t the same
Scream ‘till your lungs give
You won’t fix this flawed design
You’re all out of time
It’s better of this way
Scream all you want
Your flaws will never be a fault of mine

A beautiful sorrow inside a beautiful girl who never wanted tomorrow. A beautiful night to take such a beautiful life. With the slice of a knife, she turned out the lights. A story you've heard about a million times. With better punchlines, and with better rhymes. But take it from a boy, who has wanted to inch closer death. That nothing is more comforting to us, then our lovers breath. I remember thinking about my life that night, and not wanting to see the rest. But that same night I had her here, and we laid down, her head on my chest. As she left, I turned off my light. I put my head down, I owe you my life. But how can I give it to you when I don't even want to see the rest of it through?