Walking past you used to melt me, but it's been a while since you REALLY first met me. You're beautiful, and smart I can see, but this Lion King won't be ******* frozen by Elsa, the Ice Queen. I used to wonder what it was about me; why I was so disappointing; why when I spoke lightning, you didn't yell thunder. You got over it, while I kept going under. I'm past the past, but walking past you asks why I disappeared so fast. I was an easy recover, but I was in a walking cast. Although, I'm glad it never got to last; Count the number of times that I kept going back, sure I wrote you my favorite collection of words, but the spoken version will never be heard.

For a community we don't have a lot in common.  I like black and you like white, now that's a common problem. And so, we're here today to see if we can solve 'em. Now, say I like black, and he likes white(and I hear you like, "What's the problem", right?). But let me portray it in a different light. With regards to gay rights, what's the problem with thinking the bible was right? Who cares what you think, as long as you don't shove it upon people. Of course I believe freedom of all people, that means everybody, including gays, are equal. But what if I didn't?  Would you resent me for my way of living, for the way I grew up, for the way I was risen? Would you hate me, would you call me ignorant? White and black, two ends of a spectrum, but ultimately the same thing.

What a metaphorical conundrum of ethics.

It’s all about the lessons
We’re never taught to be strong
Because we never think we’ll ever need to be
So we get hurt
and we only ever blame ourselves
But if ever, just know, it’s not your fault you see

Don’t you think that I’ve gone too far
And don’t you think I can’t fall apart.
Now I tell myself, I won’t be the victim I
Grin as I break to pieces
Everyone around me watches as I bleed
Revelations from the parish of me
Our world begins to crumble
Finally we get to drink this
Filthy poison we're forced to swallow
Each and every time this follows
All we need is some sanity, something to
Reveal to me why it’s wrong to be afraid

I’ve never felt this nervous.
I swear it’s never happened like this before.
I just wanted it to be perfect.
I can’t even think straight anymore.
I can’t help but be angry.
It’s just who I have grown to be.
And I hope you don’t blame me.
For holding in the things that I never say.

This is the only time that I won’t have the strength
But tomorrow I know that I’ll be able to have faith
I know that if I can’t then I will never get away

Tonight I will give way
It’s who I am today

It’s just another night.
And I’ll live through it I swear.
But this isn’t your burden.
And I’d never give it to you to bare.
Maybe I’ll hold it all in.
But maybe this a little too much.
I know I’ll let it out without thinking.
It’s just another reason that I am afraid

This won’t be the last time that I won’t get to sleep.
Never again will I be the only one that nobody needs.
I’m breaking out of this shell where I’ll finally be free.

Tonight I can not say
That I am okay

I can’t help but be who I am
And I can’t stand these facts
but I will accept them
I know I’ll never get those nights back

I won’t fight these words you whisper
I know that they are true.
But why are you telling me
When I’d never do this to you.
I won’t argue my opinion
I won’t swim in shallow seas
You’ll never know the secrets I have hidden
If we never speak.
I’ll let these pictures on my walls
And these plastic heart
Stain my memories on my arms
A little blood never hurt no one.

I’m not the only one to have self-inflicted scars
But at least I know that they don’t make us who we are
I can’t let my demons go, but smiling is a start

You’ll never find a heart like me
It’s who I am today

Sometimes when I'm alone
I dream that I'm at home
And maybe one day I'll find where I belong
If my thoughts start to scream
I'll show you just what they mean
With scars amongst me, I know where I went wrong

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

I'll show you just who I am
What truly makes a man
Not just another pathetic human being
You make me think I'm broken
But you make me think that I'm useless
So how can you claim you cared at all for me

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

You don't deserve to live another day.
You don't deserve to see me again.
Never.

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

You've written these words without any promise
But at least I never lied claiming to be honest
I've never spewed hate sincerely with a smile
So don't just claim that I ever acted as a child

You sang the same song a million different times
You yelled them from the mountains while you were mine
So now as you whisper them to try to get back at me
You don't know the monster you've grown to be

This is probably an overreaction
to my fatal attraction
to the one that I'm lacking
And I swear I'm retracting
from this distraction
that couldn't stop acting
not even for small interaction
Although I'm a little impulsive
so I understand why you're repulsed and
I know that I'm a little aggressive
but you don't need to make me compulsive
to make sure I don't sound obsessive
It's just when you mess with
the direction
I'm heading
and you try to steer me out of my headwinds
I get a little upset and
I start to take it out on my writings

You sang the same beautiful song a million different ways
At this point I can't wait to hear what it'll sound like today

It's like
as we grow
older
we lose the
unicity and uniqueness
that made us
who we claim to
be
Like drowning
in water
we die from the
thing that keeps us
*Alive.

A human only means as much as their monetary value.

I don’t think I can explain my thoughts in this little amount of time. I’m so sick of giving my time to give a piece of my mind to these people who don’t even read between the lines. I mean, I’m not a boy who writes the same old ****. Every single day I write about a new topic, and now my candles lit and I’m about to light this wick on my brain like a dynamite stick. Today, you’ll be another outlet for me to vent *******. This’ll be as straight forward as it gets. *******. That’s it.

You can survive. You don't have to die. You just gotta believe in yourself to avoid your timely demise. Because what you're feeling can't be helped. I know you wouldn't wish it upon anybody else, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

You know that I'm right. You can pretend all like. Even if it isn't happening to you, doesn't mean I'm out of sight, and out of mind. When it finally comes around, I will be the only one to make a sound, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

"I'm the only one who gives a **** about you."
LIAR

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

Even if tonight I can't sleep.
I know you're a wreck without me.
You pushed me away.
It's your fault.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

I don't think you'll ever get the reasons that I stayed
I don't think you'll comprehend the decisions I have made
Sure I have taken hits, but as you see I've survived
So I refuse to fall down now and say that I have died
I'm so one sided when it really counts
And it's just a habit that I can't break now
I'd say it all, if I only knew how
And if I spoke, you wouldn't hear a sound
So if I decided this'd be my last?
How fast would you get here to make today last?

Sometimes I fear these thoughts, because I am alone. And it makes it even worse, to know that they're my own. I still sit in this empty room, my phone open to your name. Maybe I should call, or maybe you'll just say

"Please just go away. I'm finally at peace. You've sent me through this hell, now get away from me. Maybe it'll be again. But tonight is not your night. We would be the best of friends." It gets better, just when.. It falls apart again.

I only fear my death, because I am alone. And I just want you home, where you'll be my own. My mind is filled with thoughts of you, I can't sort them out. I just want to think clearly now.. But tonight you'll say.

"Please just go away. I'm finally at peace. You've sent me through this hell, get away from me. Maybe it'll be again. But tonight is not your night. We would be the best of friends." It gets better, just when.. It falls apart again.

"I know you sit in that empty room of yours. You wait for me to crawl in bed. I don't know what I was thinking. What got into my head? Please baby let me enjoy your taste. Let me one last time see your handsome face."
And I'll say.

Please just go away. I'm finally at peace. You've sent me through this hell, get the **** away from me. We'll never be again. I tried for all those nights. You don't make the love of your life cry. I just kept trying to convince myself, that I had survived hell. But nothing hurts more than hitting the bottom of the rocks I fell. It gets better, just when.. It falls apart again.

You're right, I'm not a person. My mama always said, "Don't show your emotions. Don't disrupt their commotion. This corrupt world'll show 'em that a little explosion can cause a big fire, and a little liar can bring the flames higher." I'm not as dumb as I look. I refuse to conform even when my world shook I refuse to be the norm, so am I Captain Hook and you're my Peter Pan? But's the difference between a bandit and a crook? Oh yeah, it's my hand I'll be what you made me to be. I'll be what I used to be, but trust me that you will not be the hero of this story. Now, if you didn't read carefully, turn right back around, because if you didn't figure it out by now, there'll be a hint of doubt. Trust me, even if I've got my head in the clouds, I can promise you right now that I have both of my feet on the ground, and if you get me to speak up it'll be the last sound you'll ever hear.

A complete and total misconception. Misconceived with another misdirection. You may misunderstand of who he is, but on the other hand, you never really knew him as a man. He was the brain behind the voice. The thought of every choice. The sound of every noise. Just because he wasn't the face of every lie, doesn't mean he wasn't there every time.

What if the world around you was ending? How many hands would you be lending? How would you save yourself and others? How would you stop yourself from breaking before bending?

What if there were things that you couldn't stop? Would you just sit there and watch? Would your pride get in the way? Or would you look away because you don't have the heart?

What if you controlled time and space? Would you put a smile across every face? What if not everyone could be happy? How would you decide which smile should fade?

Life is a game you play and not one you can win. You can't just lose your life and start all over again. You'll be gone, yes away from all the pain. But imagine a world where we all feel the same. It's not that hard to picture when that's reality. The truth is most of us know how you feel, even me. Yes we get that you hurt, and I know you seem hopeless. But if you just hold on it will get better, I know this. I've seen it happen, and even if it won't come for me. I'll hold on 'till all my bones break, cause that's who I am. That's me.

I don't want you to be another pretty face, that's stuck, in time. You told me it was such of waste; Your hand, in mine. You told me of your past, and all, your lies. You told me all the times, that you, had tried.

I'll tell you right now, that I don't care what you're gonna go through. You'll never be alone. I'll tell you right now, I'll go through it all with you. My arms, are home.
Either I die for you, or together we fall.

I don't want you to be another untold story. I'll tell, you mine. You told me that you were such a waste, of, my time. You told me how no one had ever tried, to be, your friend. I'm here to tell you that I'll be here, until, the end.

I'll tell you right now, that I don't care what you're gonna go through. You'll never be alone. I'll tell you right now, I'll go through it all with you. My arms, are home.
Either I die for you, or together we fall.

Suddenly a smile washes over your face. I can't help but think. I think your beautiful. Even the scars on your skin.

I'll tell you right now, that I don't care what you're gonna go through. You'll never be alone. I'll tell you right now, I'll go through it all with you. My arms, are home.
Either I die for you, or together we fall.
Together tonight.
Together tomorrow.
You'll never have to be alone in this sorrow.
Together we fall.

You wanted it so bad? The truth? How deserving are you as a liar?

I love these people beside me. They don't look past me. They care about me and don't hate me for laughing. They ask me why I'm crying and they know when I'm lying and they'll laugh with me even though they see my smile is dying. Even though I'm alone at these tables, all of no one.  I'll spin another fable just to remain numb. You see, I watch, I learn and I listen. I hated seeing all these cut wrists and so I stopped everything, and quit *******. I was alone for a while. I guess I wasn't fit for the dog-pile. I wasn't smart enough for the nerd **** and I wasn't cute enough for the cool kids. I learned to fight for your life. It was do or die. I was living outside and dying inside. A constant fight for myself. Now I'm back there; stuck in my hell. Everyone's got it worse than me. So why do I get to complain?  Because everyone is impacted differently, in different ways. I shouldn't at all really, but no one could punish me more than me. So just hug me tight and tell me it'll be alright. At least for tonight.

Honestly, I was happy we danced
But since you gave me that chance
You've barely given me a glance
Always looking down like somethings on your pants
In fact you don't even look at me
You may not know it
but it's shaken me
****, we've changed a lot haven't we?
You were so innocent
Those butterflies were flying
Now your flowers are wilting and dying
Or so I've heard from them; they're lying
They must be
Right?
What I wrote is wrong
Right?
It's an over-reaction
Right?

Thinking back to Jealousy
I'm sorry
I was upset about all you said to me
You said you loved me still
Then you said it couldn't be
You loved me still
Still couldn't be
It's emotionally
devastating
I opened up and got shut down
Almost three years and I still frown
Now when I see you I must look around
But I'm just doing as you asked
You tell me to let go of the past
And I have
You just gave me a great reason to look back
and even better reason to look forward

Seriously stop spreading rumors
Even though the truth hurts
Lies hurt more
Couldn't you come up with something better than
*****?
We know you call her that
Behind her back
So you can stop this little kids act
You call her names even though she's a ******
Causing her misery won't stop you from hurting
I'm preaching this lesson, because you refuse to learn it

I wrote you the other day, but you didn't write back.
After all that, you can't even pen a paragraph?
But I get it
You're not like that
Be tough, grow up, and fight back
I was taught that, you needed to defend yourself
You need to act now
I took this the wrong way
Began to act out
I thought I was being cool
I loved the attention
Which brought me to my very first detention
I wrote you the other day, but you never write back
I figured, "Hey, it's okay. Your busy, I get that"
But I won't be forgotten
I won't be a mishap
I won't let your knives pierce my back
I'm a different now
I won’t lie down
I’m gonna stand up and be loud
Hurt me all you like; I won’t be quiet
I made a promise to stop being violent
I intend to keep it; No hiding
From someone as cold and pale as December
I guess what I'm trying to say
I never sent your letter
I know I made a mistake
But we both know that it's a little too late for change
I don't know how to make this hurt less without losing purpose
So
The message here is
I am not saying I don't care
And
I am not saying you're worthless
Simply, that you're worth less.

It's hard to think of those eyes
covered by tears when you cry
It's hard to imagine these stories
of losing a loved piece of family

Big country brown or emerald green, you walk into a room with a smile shining. So happy, and you deserve to be. I can't imagine what would happen if you would show how you're feeling. Your family has a missing piece. It can never be filled and for that I'm sorry, but I'll be your shoulder to cry on when you need.

No matter what it's about. I've known you all my life and I'd love to help you now.

Who do these boys think they are? They're just little kids playing with bigger cars. I don't know what it is about girls with jocks. It's like they go after jerks, and are surprised that all they want is for you to jump on their.. Well... I know you aren't like them, but your track record with boys shows that they're bad boys. But look, it's not your fault. You trusted them and they used it to gain control of your walls. Once they were in they broke your heart. Then they open and close them like floodgates. When they leave, they leave them stronger. Now it's a little to late for you to trust anyone any longer.

The woman you "love" should be on a pedestal. She should be treated like a princess; Celestial. I haven't read your story, and that's true. But if you gave me the book to read, I would love to. Don't let my words sound offensive, when in fact they're meant to be candy. Sweater than a glass of green tea. Just like your personality.

I know the feeling of numbness. But a blade to the wrist or the waste is waste of paint when you could bleed red on a canvas. Now you don't have to a painter. My canvas is empty white notepad with paper. I know you can get through this depression, if not now then later. It's okay to fall down and see the grass on the other side be greener. Please don't quit now when your fall is just a fumble. You can recover. It's okay to feel like you're drowning in a little brown puddle. Even if you feel like you're further under. You just need a little help, that's all. Not some pills just a nice person to say, "Hello." Well, here's my hand, and I'll turn your sad blue to a nice bright yellow. Don't you see it? I've just wrote you a rainbow in one verse. Your canvas can be anything or anyone. Show your emotions while you're young. You can draw pictures, you can write songs. You can make music, or play it loud until dawn. Punk all day and country all night is what I do. You can join me if you want, but no matter what I support you.

I care about you, I truly do. Please don't let my fowl language, my bad humor and words distract you. So get your hair all soft and frizzy, be your own style. And I'll be here for you, with or without that wonderful smile.

A bunch of pawns in a huge game of chess. I'm a king while you're just like the rest. You got the best of me-that's cool. Won't happen again when my rook takes castle. Look, ******* you may not understand. I've finally had enough man, this is my plan. I've finally stopped my whining, It got out of hand. This king is finally ready to give his commands. And I demand that you release you grip, before **** hits the fan.

So fragile we are as humans
We're consumed in
a big pool of mass pollution
of demons who know what they're doing
You smile but
who you fooling?
They've chewed up your skin;
Your body's drooling
The solution is substitution
Clear skin instead of bruises
Smiles that come easy
Not that fake one that you're used to using
I won't let these demons get out of me
I'll drown them inside my joyful sea
No cut's or slits to let them seep through and leak

There is so much more to this happy life
So much that's beyond our line of sight
But behind it is so much weight
People couldn't carry it with all our might
But maybe if we just wait
Maybe if we all smiled for just a day
The weight might be a little less
Maybe we could carry it if we tried our very best
To treat everyone equal and just be nice
*Nothing less.

I walked upon broken glass to prove myself to thee, cause if I can’t then who the **** would wanna believe? Someone as young as me. Someone as dumb as me. You tried to show me who to be. I shattered the mirror and told him he’s what I didn’t need. I got you down on both knees, you're begging me please. I shouted out I’m hungry. Lets feast. Let go of the beast and I let him eat. I’ll separate your bones from the meat. The hearts from the weak. Now you’ve planted a seed in me, and it exceeds all I thought I could handle of misery. It just keeps growing as it consumes me. And if you didn’t see it takes a keen eye to see, and I'll get hurt again as long as I continue to breathe. But my eyes as bright as the stars I see. But who else but me could see the emptiness between. I still got some fight left, but I’ll go down eventually. Softly I'll say as I fall asleep, “I’d do it all again, just you wait and see."

You've forgotten me now haven't you? You've lost my taste haven't you?

Alright forget it. I'm winning this battle of what's written. I could care less for how careless you've been with my love and abuse the way I'm smitten by the way our hands are fitting. I'm at wits end and it seems like it worsens when I see you; it's a curse and I can't help but be hurt, but wouldn't you too if you knew that every chance you took to make a glance and look my way would make me who I'd like to be? Me without you is a totally different thing from you without me, because one's alright and ones okay; Ones fine and the other won't say; one is her and the other is me.
But really, it's truly okay to exclaim these fluorescent thoughts that can be said as dark as night or bright as the day.

It's hard to forget those eyes so big and bright.
It's hard to forget the hair so soft and glowing in moon light.
It's hard to forget.
Or maybe it's because you already have that I can't.
Because it was too easy for you.
Easier than it should've been.

My words may be a hard pill to swallow
But I swear to god it's medicine
My dear, you're just a little sick
And I am all but innocent
I'll take responsibility for it
It's ironic though, isn't it?
You're reading this story
But all you're hearing is sorry
The voices scream that I'm a traitor
But I'm softly saying I forgive you
Maybe one day, "I'll see you later"

Those eyes haven't gone blind
Nor your ears gone deaf
But oddly enough, I keep writing words.
So maybe
Beyond the mirror that hurts us
Beyond the veil that protects us
Beyond the strength of our souls
Beyond the frailty of our hearts
Beyond the test of time
Maybe we never wrote these words to remember
Maybe we wrote them to remind us of a pain we wish so sincerely we'll forget.

All I see is your name, every single day. You know I miss you, so why do you show your face? You act like you don't care, but you seem to be the only trace. The one who is more interested in my fading grace, than me is your ugly face. Don't lie to me anymore, I can see through what you said. You broke a promise, and for that I hope it breaks your head. A mental break down, while I break down this lead. Hit the breaks on the cart. Drill these sentences into your head. You know I'll break your mind because you broke my heart. You know that they'll always come back for you. You made these lights get a bit too dark to hide what's true. But how does it feel to have the lights turn out on you.

Could this hurt get any worse? Could I find the worst way to get away with words that are too harsh to say, but mean the most to me in every way? Could I sway a nation with my writings? Could I come out of hiding and stop the lying and end the constant fighting? Speak my mind with a peace of mind knowing I can sleep at night without constant fright of my fear of heights, or would I die knowing that I tried and I went out defending what was right?
Well, let me speak and I'll show you each that with power comes responsibility and that words from anyone mean more than you think.

You’re the reason that I daydream
Because you’re the reason that I can’t sleep
And I just can’t help myself
When this old comfy bed becomes a cell

When I lay awake at night
With both of my eyes open wide

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in shadows

They wonder what it’s like
To see shadows where there should be light
Like crystals to the mid-day sun
I could shine bright and I’d still be dull

As I lay awake tonight
With both of my eyes open wide

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in the shadows

Tomorrow I hope I’ll be fine
I’m still searching for my peace of mind
Maybe if I get some rest tonight
I’ll see it was right in front of my eyes

Don’t think about it for too long
This might start to look like a love song

Sorry, but I’m too lost for you to find
Pal, I’m sorry for being so blind

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in the shadows

I know now, I do miss you when you’re gone.

Killers can be spotted by how many hearts they broke. Thought it but never should've spoke. I'm a writer with his words stick in his throat. Speak with the pencil. Pencil that writes pain and the pencil stuck in my spoke. Bite your tongue since I can't speak with mine. I don't want to again say goodbye. I've had to say it one too many times. But what happens when I lose what I covet so much. Give you all I got, and still it ain't enough. I can't find the words to say to you. But you'll know when I do.

People are like flowers
                  We wilt.
                            And then we die.

I'm watching all these people disappear. The people who are left, know their time is near. No matter how much they scream, the music is all I hear. Some yell as they leave, but it's all a whisper to me. Some just quietly exit as they accept defeat. Why is it a defeat you ask? Well, when they walk in they will have to do the homework that's on their backs.

It's up to us to make the first step
To be the change we wish to see
So please forgive me
If I choose to yell when I speak
Because I believe that only with force
Can we teach each other
The world is not as scary as you think

So how long has it been since it's stopped? Since I've been disgusted by rain drops? It's almost as if we all stopped breathing, and for a second teenagers stopped breading. It's almost as if we all stopped screaming and for a while we all stopped cheating. So how long will this go on before we start needing this ever lasting feeling of real things? No, the world isn't perfect, but you need to give it a chance, so don't stop caring or it'll be out of your hands.

So how long has it been since I've stopped fighting? Since I've been distraught from my writings? It's almost as if the world stopped turning, and for a second we all stopped hurting. It's almost as if adults were finally taught the lessons we've been learning, and for a minute our hearts stopped yearning. But is it plausible? That maybe the world isn't as colossal as the fossils and we just turned the impossible to possible?

*Only if you put your mind to it

Your parents don't get why you blare the music so loud. They don't understand that you're trying to block out their sounds. Their useless words from their mouths won't help them now. Let's walk through the day in your shoes. Wake up and wish you didn't. You look around and feel the skin you barely fit in. Your step-mother calls you down but you already know what you're getting. She'll talk to you like you were less then throw a fit when you tell her you're not listening. But why should you when it's not even her house you live in. Now you're in the bus waiting for your hell to get in. It's hard to survive the ride. You barely get by, when you get to your school and waste another six hours of life. In class and all you can think is "stop the tapping!" or these ******* lights shine to **** bright. Detention after school, but you don't care tonight. These bus ride parasites don't care and are only seeing through their blind *** eyes. They can't even read your heart with their ******* crippled eyesight. You get home and all you can hear is the sound of your parents fight. Not again when mom's wrong and dad's right. Seems backwards until mom leaves again that night. You go upstairs with the same frown you wore all day, with only one thought in your head. "How selfish of me, to want to be dead." Because you are sick of these constant repeats and the daily life circle. You just want to escape the cage of it all, but if you can't then you will continue to hurt 'till.....