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May 2016 · 327
Never in my life.
Triiniity May 2016
It’s all about the lessons
We’re never taught to be strong
Because we never think we’ll ever need to be
So we get hurt
and we only ever blame ourselves
But if ever, just know, it’s not your fault you see

Don’t you think that I’ve gone too far
And don’t you think I can’t fall apart.
Now I tell myself, I won’t be the victim I
Grin as I break to pieces
Everyone around me watches as I bleed
Revelations from the parish of me
Our world begins to crumble
Finally we get to drink this
Filthy poison we're forced to swallow
Each and every time this follows
All we need is some sanity, something to
Reveal to me why it’s wrong to be afraid
Oct 2015 · 302
Wh(woes)Idwk (10w)
Triiniity Oct 2015
What happens
when our eyes
shut?
I
don't
wanna
know.
Sep 2015 · 339
The Same Thing.
Triiniity Sep 2015
For a community we don't have a lot in common.  I like black and you like white, now that's a common problem. And so, we're here today to see if we can solve 'em. Now, say I like black, and he likes white(and I hear you like, "What's the problem", right?). But let me portray it in a different light. With regards to gay rights, what's the problem with thinking the bible was right? Who cares what you think, as long as you don't shove it upon people. Of course I believe freedom of all people, that means everybody, including gays, are equal. But what if I didn't?  Would you resent me for my way of living, for the way I grew up, for the way I was risen? Would you hate me, would you call me ignorant? White and black, two ends of a spectrum, but ultimately the same thing.

What a metaphorical conundrum of ethics.
Aug 2015 · 516
Hero
Triiniity Aug 2015
Clouds over your head, with lightning from the sky. You saw fear, they saw courage in your eyes. You fought all their demons, you keep them at bay. You've kept them all safe, you've saved the day. Your friends gave you the will, and you know that's pretense. Everything that you've built, was it all just pretend?
This city in the clouds can only hold so much. Burn your palace to the ground; why does it hurt so much?
(Stop the bleeding!)
A symbol of triumph, be your own hero. Take all your mistakes, make them your own. This world isn't lost, it can still be saved. All we need is a hero to save the day.
You make a difference by snuffing out flames. You smile for all of these people, day after day. As the light in you burns, it takes it's toll; this double sided candlestick will ***** on it's own. You can't take it, ignorance isn't bliss; signed up for the long ride, but you didn't think this'd be it. The darkness you fought creeps up again. Fighting it this time will be harder than then.
Why would you tell them? What do they even care? Who is gonna save you from your own despair?
(Didn't think so)
A symbol of triumph, be your own hero. Take all your mistakes, make them your own. This world isn't lost, it can still be saved. All we need is a hero to save the day.
From all that you were, to all that you are, I've never seen anything like a fallen star. No one shines as bright as you, so many hopeful eyes wishing upon you. Like a shooting star, you shine so bright, clear up the darkness in midnight skies.
But you know what they say, about a falling star? No one appreciates it, until the star is too far.
(Better start running)
A symbol of triumph, be our hero. You took all our problems and made them your own.Maybe this world isn't lost, it can still be saved. All we need is a hero to save the day.
Maybe this world isn't lost, it can still be saved. All we need is a hero to save the day. (What I wouldn't give to be young again.)
Maybe this world isn't lost, it can still be saved. All we need is a hero to save the day. (To go back and change all this.)
Maybe this world isn't lost, it can still be saved. All we need is a hero to save the day.
Maybe, waiting was okay for me. Waiting has given me a new perspective
Triiniity Jun 2015
Don't sleep, these thoughts will only keep racing
Don't sleep, you're a legend in the making
These opportunities among us
Don't sleep, you’re too old to dream
Don't sleep, you're way too young to be
Please, I want you to stay among us
Don't sleep, you're way too young to

Close your eyes
but please talk to me
Don't you walk toward that light
you mean so much more to me

Will you be my shooting star?
An angel in the sky?
I never thought you’d fall this hard
Please fall into my arms tonight
My shooting star

Don’t sleep, come watch two stars collide
Don’t sleep and I swear you’ll be just fine
There is so much metal among us
Don’t sleep and I swear you’ll make it out alive
Don’t sleep, I know there is some fight in you
Look at all these tubes among us
Don’t sleep, there is so much left to do

Close your eyes
but please talk to me
Don't you walk toward that light
you mean so much more to me

Will you be my shooting star?
An angel in the sky?
I never thought you’d fall this hard
Please fall into my arms tonight
My shooting star

Close you’re eyes
you don’t have to speak
Go ahead and rest
You’’ve earned that at least
You tried your best
All of your cards on the table
How will heaven feel
With two more angels.

You're a shooting star so
We’ll watch the earth from the sky
I never thought you’d fall so hard
Please fall into my arms tonight
My shooting star
May 2015 · 377
Golden
Triiniity May 2015
Golden waves
it’s a sign from the gods
******* Athena has fallen so far from home
Angels come in pairs
isn’t that odd?
Even if we add or subtract, they’d still be whole
Who needs another half to feel what they know?
Those who smile know all about defeat.
Those who frown have only known victory.

Forever the optimist; you saw the best in me
Forever the pessimist you turned out to be
It’s okay if you don’t like what I write
It’s not okay to read it and call me the next night
The moon can only handle so much from the stars
The sun can only handle so much of a freezing heart
A flower can grow, and it may even bud
But ultimately roses wilt, and people die
May 2015 · 412
Untitled 10
Triiniity May 2015
They said time flies,
that a moment will fall through your palms like sand
If it's so fast we can't see it with our eyes,
how do I react to a pill this size and
move my hands to guard against
my throat opening;
my hands are closing in.
Reality won't be the death of me,
I'll die awake but dreaming
in a fantasy
Mar 2015 · 362
Flxws
Triiniity Mar 2015
I swear this world is an illusion
So mundane; it feels diluted
I know that I’m delusional
But I'd rather feel more than just the usual
I’d rather fall down the rabbit hole with you
I used to think that I was a boat, and you were the sea
I’m only good for you while
You’re still beautiful without me

I swear I'll change it
I’ll weave a different fate
This isn’t just another reiteration

We’re running out of time
Our clock begins to tick by
Scream all you want
You won't fix this flawed design
We’re running out of time
You can't stop this clock
Scream all you want
It's flaws will never be a fault of mine

Interesting the life you made me
And oh, the confidence you gave me
But the sea is rising
And I think I’m drowning
Our worlds are changing
And for some reason
The walls are caving
Neither of us can breathe

I swear I will change it
I’ll weave a different fate
This isn’t just another reiteration

I’m running out of time
I’m going insane
Scream all you want
You can't fix this flawed design
I'm out of patience
I'll leave you my name
Scream all you want
You'll never find out where those perfect days went

This will never be a better place
Shadows fall on those who shine brightest
So I’ll look you in your face
“I won’t miss you in the slightest”

You’re running out of time
This world isn’t the same
Scream ‘till your lungs give
You won’t fix this flawed design
You’re all out of time
It’s better of this way
Scream all you want
Your flaws will never be a fault of mine
Mar 2015 · 579
Tyred
Triiniity Mar 2015
Give me some adderal
Would it be worth it?
For once to pay attention
To start observing
When you never gave a dime to me
Ignoring
The shrine I built in the likeness of you
Unnoticed glory
I built it with glass and held it together with glue
Your amazing on the outside
But you're so transparent
As soon someone throws a stone
You lose your whole foundation
Won't let someone too close
Afraid the ground will start shaking
When you tremble; and knees get weak
I look at you, and I see a piece of me
Walking away
Feb 2015 · 307
Untitled 9
Triiniity Feb 2015
A horror of my own device
My voice faults for my demise
My inability to speak
Has costed me my life
Sometimes
Before I sleep
I like to think I'll leave
Sometimes
I pack my bag
Just to see what could be
That is when
I remember
That I'm just out of reach
I’ll be moving out eventually
I’ll be leaving the past behind me
..Although..
If I could rewrite the past
I don’t think I would
If I could rewrite the past
I don't think I would
Dec 2014 · 398
Untitled 8
Triiniity Dec 2014
Show me your wounds
I'll tear it open at the seams
And as it seems
I'm a good person
I just behave violently
Dec 2014 · 264
My Letter
Triiniity Dec 2014
I wrote you the other day, but you didn't write back.
After all that, you can't even pen a paragraph?
But I get it
You're not like that
Be tough, grow up, and fight back
I was taught that, you needed to defend yourself
You need to act now
I took this the wrong way
Began to act out
I thought I was being cool
I loved the attention
Which brought me to my very first detention
I wrote you the other day, but you never write back
I figured, "Hey, it's okay. Your busy, I get that"
But I won't be forgotten
I won't be a mishap
I won't let your knives pierce my back
I'm a different now
I won’t lie down
I’m gonna stand up and be loud
Hurt me all you like; I won’t be quiet
I made a promise to stop being violent
I intend to keep it; No hiding
From someone as cold and pale as December
I guess what I'm trying to say
I never sent your letter
I know I made a mistake
But we both know that it's a little too late for change
I don't know how to make this hurt less without losing purpose
So
The message here is
I am not saying I don't care
And
I am not saying you're worthless
Simply, that you're worth less.
Oct 2014 · 432
Dad
Triiniity Oct 2014
Dad
Let's cut down a weeping willow
Plant it's roots beneath your pillow
Sleep over sadness
Too much leads to sickness
In turn introduces anger
And broken dishes
I won't stand by and be a witness
I am not worthless
I'm more than the words I'm hit with
And no less than my definition of perfect
I won't be bullied
You've hurt me
Shards of glass lay scattered
I guess peace of mind doesn't matter.
Because bronze beats brains
Even if it's mind over matter
Oct 2014 · 404
Untitled 7
Triiniity Oct 2014
Poison runs through our veins
A mirror shows you the way
Into a light
that burns until ashes remain
and
Our perspective has shifted
You've gone from living a memory
To some *******
Where absolutely nothing has changed
We gave it our all, but it's just not enough
I'm so tired of these stories of love

And from a broken mirror a Phoenix shall rise
Dust to dust it's all the same
Day by day; whether it's him or me

The darkest night
The dullest glow
It's all inside
It's all for love

Repeat
Oct 2014 · 236
Untitled 6
Triiniity Oct 2014
When all we can do is
accept the things
we were once so compelled to fight,
a darkness awakens inside us that
only grows
as we do.
Oct 2014 · 349
I Won't Say It
Triiniity Oct 2014
Walking past you used to melt me, but it's been a while since you REALLY first met me. You're beautiful, and smart I can see, but this Lion King won't be ******* frozen by Elsa, the Ice Queen. I used to wonder what it was about me; why I was so disappointing; why when I spoke lightning, you didn't yell thunder. You got over it, while I kept going under. I'm past the past, but walking past you asks why I disappeared so fast. I was an easy recover, but I was in a walking cast. Although, I'm glad it never got to last; Count the number of times that I kept going back, sure I wrote you my favorite collection of words, but the spoken version will never be heard.
Oct 2014 · 194
You Matter (10w)
Triiniity Oct 2014
If we forget
that it exists
did it even matter?
Sep 2014 · 369
Untitled 5
Triiniity Sep 2014
Let’s start something new
Something hidden
A splash in the water
Or a wave in the sea
Just another day
It’s just a memory
a little more than that
it’s a day at the beach
Throwing sand in our eyes
We were blind to see
The magic of what happened right underneath
Our noses
They told us
We were Adam and Eve
But even here in the Garden of Peace
We’re subject to our fathers
Regardless of religion or belief
Who are we to say what don’t exist?
Just because we haven’t seen?
Maybe they’re as daft as we
Maybe it’s right in front of me
The answer to our history
Wherefore art thou Juliet?
Wherefore art thou Capulet?
But what if thou wasn’t?
What if He created you different?
As much as it kills me
It would make a difference
That’s why I’m glad you love me in this life
Because you’re not assured mine in the next
So tonight, I’ll ask for His pen
Because while he tried his best I think that I’d better write the rest
Because we all deserve happiness
The end.
Forgot to post this. Whoops.
Sep 2014 · 709
Remembrance (10w)
Triiniity Sep 2014
We all die
it's just a matter                    
of who remembers
Sep 2014 · 255
Fight It
Triiniity Sep 2014
You know it's ridiculous when you don't even know who the victim is. I'm tired of being victimized as the bad guy by judging eyes. All my thoughts are randomized I never planned ****, I'm tired of going with the flow, so now I'll go against it.
Sep 2014 · 217
Fear Of Loss (10w)
Triiniity Sep 2014
My anger turned to happiness out of fear of loss.
Sep 2014 · 233
Flowers (10w)
Triiniity Sep 2014
People are like flowers
                  We wilt.
                            And then we die.
Triiniity Aug 2014
My words may be a hard pill to swallow
But I swear to god it's medicine
My dear, you're just a little sick
And I am all but innocent
I'll take responsibility for it
It's ironic though, isn't it?
You're reading this story
But all you're hearing is sorry
The voices scream that I'm a traitor
But I'm softly saying I forgive you
Maybe one day, "I'll see you later"

Those eyes haven't gone blind
Nor your ears gone deaf
But oddly enough, I keep writing words.
So maybe
Beyond the mirror that hurts us
Beyond the veil that protects us
Beyond the strength of our souls
Beyond the frailty of our hearts
Beyond the test of time
Maybe we never wrote these words to remember
Maybe we wrote them to remind us of a pain we wish so sincerely we'll forget.
Aug 2014 · 285
Soldier
Triiniity Aug 2014
You're so confident of the common consequence that you completely forgot the constant process of making progress
But so what?
Who cares about the dirt beneath your feet when they'd rather use the metal in the name peace
Praise those who have died in the name of such a beautiful thing, and my best of wishes to the families who lost their loved ones.
~Frank
Jul 2014 · 251
Words Hurt
Triiniity Jul 2014
Carved in stone are these words we speak
And we'll be alone if we let their wounds bleed
But be my guest
Use your words and they'll use their knives
Watch these beautiful creatures lose their lives
Jul 2014 · 212
Confessions Of A Boy 2/?
Triiniity Jul 2014
And upon both sides of a burning page
he wrote the words:
Trust
Love
Forgiveness
as his smile turned around
he finally figured it out
he truly was all alone
Jul 2014 · 601
Confessions of a Boy 1/?
Triiniity Jul 2014
I watch you through windows
and even though I can't speak
you know
that I die slowly
for every kiss upon his cheek
His lips
touch the ones that I did
They smile and laugh
Just as we did

So now I'm breaking glass, and I'm stabbing back with each of these pieces that you broke apart
Cutting deep on each of these to show you what happens when you mistreat the ones that loved you

I've written two hundred verses over in my head
showing what happened and what I did
I still can't find an answer, in a single thing I've read
That shows me how to fix the things I did
Triiniity Jun 2014
This place for poems and acceptance.
We strive to find the entrance to someone's heart so we jot these sentences,  looking for the courage to let someone feel our presence, so we give away our only presents in the form of depression, dependence, negligence and perception. Lots of times the lost works of mine gather dust except the ones of broken trust and resentment.
So what exactly does that tell you?
We write the words in beauty, so the beauty can cover up our words.
Jun 2014 · 360
Untitled 4
Triiniity Jun 2014
The lights always seem dimest when the moon shines the brightest
And the sun seems the coldest when your friends are the warmest
But refuse to share
And
I'll refuse to care
So
Sinister blue
Deceiving blonde
Unseeing red
I know you'll all betray me
It's a habit
That one of you already does.
Jun 2014 · 261
They Can't Be True 4/3/14
Triiniity Jun 2014
Honestly, I was happy we danced
But since you gave me that chance
You've barely given me a glance
Always looking down like somethings on your pants
In fact you don't even look at me
You may not know it
but it's shaken me
****, we've changed a lot haven't we?
You were so innocent
Those butterflies were flying
Now your flowers are wilting and dying
Or so I've heard from them; they're lying
They must be
Right?
What I wrote is wrong
Right?
It's an over-reaction
Right?

Thinking back to Jealousy
I'm sorry
I was upset about all you said to me
You said you loved me still
Then you said it couldn't be
You loved me still
Still couldn't be
It's emotionally
devastating
I opened up and got shut down
Almost three years and I still frown
Now when I see you I must look around
But I'm just doing as you asked
You tell me to let go of the past
And I have
You just gave me a great reason to look back
and even better reason to look forward

Seriously stop spreading rumors
Even though the truth hurts
Lies hurt more
Couldn't you come up with something better than
*****?
We know you call her that
Behind her back
So you can stop this little kids act
You call her names even though she's a ******
Causing her misery won't stop you from hurting
I'm preaching this lesson, because you refuse to learn it
Jun 2014 · 381
Sinking
Triiniity Jun 2014
I'm a boat
and you're the sea
while my only use is for you
you're still beautiful
without me
Triiniity Jun 2014
Potentially we could exponentially expand the boundaries of our maps without destroying our surroundings just because someone doesn't know what our sounds mean, and what if she found me? Does it make a difference? Would you turn back time in an instant to make a different decision or would she make the same wicked choice you did? What if, for instance, no one met anyone and we just let ourselves be? Like if apathy got the best of me, would their lust turn to their agony? Would our trust turn to our suffering? No, our stability is crumbling and now I'm mumbling, stuttering 'cause it's ow you made me, but baby, I'm not complaining. Yes, what you did to me is horrid and probably a red-herring, and you're still here just to see how I'm fairing. I guess it was  inevitable really. It's destiny; No escaping, and as enraging as it is, there is all sorts of ways of delaying. So where would we be, if we kept delaying destiny? Would I be happier, sadder, or just the same me?
This, beyond what you may think, is actually a love poem directed towards my girlfriend. I guess you have to think about it to understand that it is actually like that.
Triiniity Jun 2014
So fragile we are as humans
We're consumed in
a big pool of mass pollution
of demons who know what they're doing
You smile but
who you fooling?
They've chewed up your skin;
Your body's drooling
The solution is substitution
Clear skin instead of bruises
Smiles that come easy
Not that fake one that you're used to using
I won't let these demons get out of me
I'll drown them inside my joyful sea
No cut's or slits to let them seep through and leak

There is so much more to this happy life
So much that's beyond our line of sight
But behind it is so much weight
People couldn't carry it with all our might
But maybe if we just wait
Maybe if we all smiled for just a day
The weight might be a little less
Maybe we could carry it if we tried our very best
To treat everyone equal and just be nice
*Nothing less.
We can all live a good life. We don't need to hurt ourselves or overthink in our minds. Maybe if we were all a little better as people, we wouldn't have these problems.
May 2014 · 323
Same Song
Triiniity May 2014
You've written these words without any promise
But at least I never lied claiming to be honest
I've never spewed hate sincerely with a smile
So don't just claim that I ever acted as a child

You sang the same song a million different times
You yelled them from the mountains while you were mine
So now as you whisper them to try to get back at me
You don't know the monster you've grown to be

This is probably an overreaction
to my fatal attraction
to the one that I'm lacking
And I swear I'm retracting
from this distraction
that couldn't stop acting
not even for small interaction
Although I'm a little impulsive
so I understand why you're repulsed and
I know that I'm a little aggressive
but you don't need to make me compulsive
to make sure I don't sound obsessive
It's just when you mess with
the direction
I'm heading
and you try to steer me out of my headwinds
I get a little upset and
I start to take it out on my writings

You sang the same beautiful song a million different ways
At this point I can't wait to hear what it'll sound like today
You sang the same song to me:
"It'll last more than "A Thousand Years""
"I want to be with him forever"
But, I've heard it all before and I know you're more intelligent than that.
So it doesn't bother me like it used to
or
This'd be a lot more angry, a lot longer, and would attack you.
But this isn't meant to be mean.
It's meant to make you think about what you've said
What you've done
And how I'm a human just like you
I feel just like you do.
I just don't feel towards you like you do me
In fact, I don't feel at all towards you anymore
It's just what I said it was
An attraction
That's it.
~Frank
May 2014 · 537
Water
Triiniity May 2014
I'm barely breathing
under all this water
I don't think you can keep me
alive for much longer

I can't drown myself
there isn't enough here
There isn't much else
that I can fear

besides dying without a goodbye
May 2014 · 776
Honesty
Triiniity May 2014
I'm so sick of honesty
I just want to lie here and be me
Cause the only thing I want to be
Is the thing that makes me happy
And I know that I can't be that thing
But, hell I'll keep trying
This isn't my last scene
I've got another act to go
But you're saying cut and I listen
As I’m about to, you yell no
Like which one is it?
Am I doing what’s right or what isn’t?
What I want or what you’ve written?
Well too late, what’s done is done
But you’re yelling at me for things I’ve not done
I'm a dead-shot with my words
But yours shot me dead you see
Cause I'm not missing you
And you're not missing me
May 2014 · 2.7k
Blue
Triiniity May 2014
I wrote all of these little words for you but without them I don't know what I'd do. I refuse to again lose you, because now I'm losing these too and I'm so afraid of what's next.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

What if we traded places? Keep the same feelings and kept the same faces. If I'm the sky, be my perfect blue. Because even with all my clouds they'll still think of you. At night be my shining stars. People around the world will find beauty in you miles apart.

Babe if I'm the sky please be my ocean blue; an infinite amount of perfection, an arrow in the right direction; I just wouldn't be me without you.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.
May 2014 · 443
I'm Fine
Triiniity May 2014
Like a body in water I float and I drown. Like worms to the earth I keep going down. Like a deer in my headlights I stop and I freeze, but just like that, you snap, and I'm back and I fall to my knees.
Falling like snow we melt on the ground. Crying and dying without a sound. I'll disappear and you'll never know. I'm a king and I'll be fine on my own.
May 2014 · 227
Untitled 3
Triiniity May 2014
You know I'd wait here forever
You'll use it and then come never
And I could be doing so much better
But I'll follow your words to the letter
May 2014 · 544
Every Topic(15w)
Triiniity May 2014
I'm so sick
of the topic of teenagers
being words they
misuse and mistreat:
*"Love"
May 2014 · 269
What if?
Triiniity May 2014
What if the world around you was ending? How many hands would you be lending? How would you save yourself and others? How would you stop yourself from breaking before bending?

What if there were things that you couldn't stop? Would you just sit there and watch? Would your pride get in the way? Or would you look away because you don't have the heart?

What if you controlled time and space? Would you put a smile across every face? What if not everyone could be happy? How would you decide which smile should fade?
Answer me:
What if?
May 2014 · 745
How Heartache Feels (10w)
Triiniity May 2014
If this
Doesn't **** me
I'll make sure
I succeed
May 2014 · 988
I Thought We Were Family
Triiniity May 2014
It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

Suddenly I don't feel quite myself; I'm feeling down. I need some help, please don't let me drown. But I'm thirsty enough to drink this whole sea. I might just to see what would happen to me. I'm beyond it, but won't say I'm past it. So when I die, do not cry, strike up a match and light up my casket.
Watch it burn.

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.

I will not accept what I do not deserve. I wish to meet you in heaven, but my seat in hell is reserved. So I'll ride this train past my death. You bought my ticket, and eventually you'll bare the consequence. I'm beyond it, but I won't say I'm past it. So when I die, do not cry, strike up a match and light up my casket.
Watch it burn
Now I'm gone

It's okay, I forgive you. My heart will heal in time. I'll say, "I'll forget you; I'll be alright." And only time will tell, if I can forgive myself. And only time will tell, if I can forget myself. If we live and let live, none of these words'll pass my lips.
Only time will tell.
May 2014 · 254
Don't (10w)
Triiniity May 2014
Don't act like you care
I see through your ruse
May 2014 · 376
Infinite
Triiniity May 2014
My stomach sways like the seas
and for a second
time stops just for me
In this second we freeze
and I swear that my knees are weak
and I'm trembling at your feet
stuttering every word that passes through my teeth
Around you I forget how to speak
but I’d listen for hours, days or even weeks
I know it's hard to believe
"How could anyone care for me?"
But around you I forget how to breathe
Please don't let me drown in the sea that surrounds us
Please don't let me get lost in the memories all around us
Please don't let me get lost in the infinity
May 2014 · 563
I'd Rather Not
Triiniity May 2014
No one gets by without a scratch. No one survives a backstab. They leave scars that last. Kiss away my pain. That’s enough to drive a man mad, and tonight as you scream my name, our problems’ll fade away. For now.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay smiling. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

I write stories and forget them instantly. Erase them please; “memories” I say peacefully and painfully they’re washed away, but never completely. It’s beyond me how I keep making the same mistake.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay crying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

If I start to believe, that it’d ever change. It’ll be the death of me, a little too late.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay dying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”
You shouldn't come back to what hurts you. Like a pencil and an eraser, it'll only **** you eventually.
May 2014 · 271
Early Me(The Truth)
Triiniity May 2014
You wanted it so bad? The truth? How deserving are you as a liar?

I love these people beside me. They don't look past me. They care about me and don't hate me for laughing. They ask me why I'm crying and they know when I'm lying and they'll laugh with me even though they see my smile is dying. Even though I'm alone at these tables, all of no one.  I'll spin another fable just to remain numb. You see, I watch, I learn and I listen. I hated seeing all these cut wrists and so I stopped everything, and quit *******. I was alone for a while. I guess I wasn't fit for the dog-pile. I wasn't smart enough for the nerd **** and I wasn't cute enough for the cool kids. I learned to fight for your life. It was do or die. I was living outside and dying inside. A constant fight for myself. Now I'm back there; stuck in my hell. Everyone's got it worse than me. So why do I get to complain?  Because everyone is impacted differently, in different ways. I shouldn't at all really, but no one could punish me more than me. So just hug me tight and tell me it'll be alright. At least for tonight.
Just a side note. I mean. I feel myself slipping back into old habits. Might as well let out a few thoughts. You know, tell my story.
May 2014 · 200
Warning Signs
Triiniity May 2014
I want to write you a song, but I shouldn't. I want sing these words, but I couldn't. I want to make you smile, but I wouldn't. I want to write you a letter, but how would I put it? I can't even help myself, so how can I help you? I can't stop lying to me, so how do I remain true to you? I'd give anything not to be useless, but my efforts are fruitless to be nothing but ruthless. I think now's a good time. I'll just leave everyone behind and for a while I'll just be mine and I can finally be safe in my mind without these demons inside screaming, "JUST DIE!" Just let me be me, and please, leave me be. For now at least. I'll be back, but don't expect to walk on me. Not again.
Apr 2014 · 231
Mean As Much
Triiniity Apr 2014
You
will never mean
as much
as you think
to those around
You
Apr 2014 · 277
Sad Songs Don't Bleed (2/2)
Triiniity Apr 2014
Yeah, a couple sad songs have hurt me
As strange as the pain is, it is working
It keeps happening and I'm not learning
The blood is so cold, so why is it burning?
How could I do this to myself?
How could I **** up this bad without any help?
How do I stop a relapse?
What will stop my collapse?

Yeah, a couple sad songs hurt me before
It did hurt, but my scars show worse
But I won't sit around and whine anymore
I loved you first, stopped last and always more
What if I decided that I was done?
What would be your reaction?
Would you still harass me like I was wrong?
What if you woke up one day and suddenly I was gone?

You see, sad songs don't bleed
They just make you want to
But I can't remember the last time I felt the need
The razors are gone, and so is the pain of you
I used to hurt at the thought, and now it's gone
I'm a better man than back then, and I'm movin' on
Still miss you, but I no longer need
And I've survived your nasty words, and I'm who I wanna be

Hell no, sad songs don't bleed
And I don't blame you
I hope you're happy without me
Because I'm never turning back to you

*And even if my favorite girl leaves me
I'd rather be alone than be trashed by words
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