It kinda feels unreal
Confusing; I don’t know what to feel
I can’t believe it; it’s so strange
It’s different; everything’s changed
I never imagined this summer could be like this
I never imagined I would feel my first real kiss

A lot of things were difficult
I had to act in ways that weren’t my typical
That made me find a new me
But at the time, it didn’t make me any free
A felt locked; I felt scared
People wanted me to speak but I never dared

You see... the only person I wanted to talk with
The only person I wanted to share with
The only one I felt I could trust most
The only one I ever felt as close...
‘s you... but you’re gone
So I had to go on alone

An’ somehow... I made a step ahead
You know what happened?... I don’t feel dead
Actually, I feel more alive now
Good things happened and I don’t even know how
But I don’t care ‘cause I’mma take the risk and smile
‘ll do anything to keep it, and not only for a while
‘cause I want to taste more
‘cause I like the feeling to love... and be loved back (; not like before)
I like to be hold tight throughout the night
An’ hoping no one would turn on the light

Having someone defending me...
How can I not feel happy?

It’s amazing to have what I’ve got
‘n’ I like it; I like it a lot

I want to communicate something
but all I have is this
emptiness
where there should be emotion, I
wish for so many things
and yet can't find
the devotion.

Why am I so scared of my empathy?

whispers wrapped with good intentions
are delivered so easily. the silver specs
of the paper to distract what’s underneath.

I will take your words cause they’re all
you will ever give. but I have to move on
from your grasp to learn how to live.

.

Dear Patient,

Here’s the prescription
I promised to write
Just like any doctor might do

An extended leave
A southern location
A room with a beautiful view

A candlelit dinner
Moonlight and roses
A bottle of chilled chardonnay

Romantic music
Soft summer kisses
Sending your worries away

The one of your dreams
An evening together
Love on a warm summer night

A sunrise good morning
Breakfast in bed
Satin sheets woven in white

A day in the sun
Drinks on the river
Affectionate moments for two

Take all you need
There’s no expiration
Unlimited refills for you

Signed,
Your Poetic Physician

"I love the calm of the sea.
it calms me.
The pitter- patter rain drops against
my window pane, gives me  sleep.
Crashing waves against the seascape walls
sets my body in awe.
A baby cry in the middle of the night, makes
me feel alive.
Thunder and it's lighting brightening the
late evening sky's, enriches my hearing and
my sight.
This is Mother's Earth's Entertainment, and
she gives it to you day and night."

I am the hermit who lives in my head.
I gather...
I analyse...
I stow away all that I've learnt.

Because when the wind would blow
and the earth wouldn't understand.
When the world would tremble,
shaken by man's ruthless hand.

I am the hermit who lives in my head.
I listen...
I keep...
I stockpile in the shadows.

Because in my blood exists grudge...
And my bones, weary from despair.
My skin screams exhaustion
and my body feigns to care.

I am the hermit who lives in my head.
I overthink...
I hide...
I hoard all my thoughts.*

Because the walls have ears
and these pages bear eyes.
What my heart truly knows...
Is that your mouth tells only lies.