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Nov 2018 · 163
Seeking remission
Ammar Nov 2018
Love is view as an intangible diamond
Once found, it is rarely released
Those who has yet to grasp it
Made haste with fervour.

Natheless
For the broken souls that once delivered woe
Self-redemption, the vindication from past mistakes
Would be greater than absolute.
Still looking
Nov 2018 · 116
Dysphoria
Ammar Nov 2018
Dark, gloomy, quiet
Loud ringing piercing the ears
But only a dream.
My first attempt on Haiku.
Nov 2018 · 262
Disorders
Ammar Nov 2018
Mental instability
Is like being strapped to a chair
On a sinking ship.
And I've managed to cut myself loose.
Nov 2018 · 165
Rummage
Ammar Nov 2018
The flame,
it was meant to guard
Yet it raged
Leaving ruins.

With only the void as company
Redemption is all I seek, hastily.
Guilt is one tough son of a gun.
Oct 2018 · 405
Thriving
Ammar Oct 2018
Fiends,
Striving to drag you down,
And of their frustration,
You found it hilarious.
Keep on fighting.
Oct 2018 · 382
Adhd is..
Ammar Oct 2018
Like living with a monkey,
monkey see monkey do,
Being distracted with everything,
Even when there's nothing.

Like having a hidden malicious hand,
Loves playing hide and seek,
Items seem to dissappear,
As if they were warped to another world,
By a magical hand in your head.

Like having thousands of voices pleading for your attention,
Yet you hear none,
Just unintelligible sentences.

Like you're always on a pill of joy,
Yet feel so hollow,
It can be a double edged sword,
As your awareness of others' emotions,
Is comparable to an infant's knowledge of the Lorem Ipsum.

Like having your psyche torn apart,
A battlefield,
When you're fighting for control,
You lay waste to your own mind,
Even if you won,
The exhaustion and lack of motivation,
is a sign of a pyrrhic victory.
Adhd is ******* exhausting, especially with a comorbid.
Oct 2018 · 371
Last time
Ammar Oct 2018
Your scream overwhelms the soothing ambience,
Echoing throughout the room,
Tears dropping on the floor,
Yet is it mine or yours?

I promised you paradise,
Yet I showered you with wrath,
I promised you solace,
Yet I placed upon you an unimaginable burden.

Hilarious,
How a single pill could have prevented the calamity,
Regardless,
The Hour of reckoning has begun,
All the chances I've had perishes at the line,
The line that was drawn eons ago.
I swear this is the last time.
Sep 2018 · 216
Stars
Ammar Sep 2018
Seeking refuge from the deafening salvoes,
Apathy, anger, anxiety overran the haven created,
The haven constructed for the remnants,
The remnants of joy, excitement, and gratitude.

As the last bit of hope begins to diminish,
A sudden silence looms in the air,
When that anxiety, that anger, that apathy is clear within view,
The obsoleted notion of their danger becomes clear as day,
Destructive they are not; but desperate,
Desperate to be acknowledged and accepted.

The danger that once besets the haven,
Was an extreme measure of desperation,
Only when silence is imposed,
Only when they have gained the attention they seek so direly,
Only then will the feud for the psyche ends,
And a common ground can be found.

All it took was silence and understanding;
That spectacular quiet.
Happy Thursday.
Sep 2018 · 111
Help
Ammar Sep 2018
Expressions,
Words of a broken soul,
Uttered in a trivial manner,
Yet it is not a trivial matter,
Pleading that the echoes of a destroyed mind,
Reaches the hearts of those that are kind.
That time will come :)
Sep 2018 · 95
Fuck
Ammar Sep 2018
Reminiscing,
Those times when pain was just a boogeyman,
A tale of a child's story,
And happiness was the true reality,
But now, pain is as real as the sky,
And happiness is nothing but an empty promise.

Letting go,
of the times when I felt like a ghost,
trying to stay alive with this hole,
doing my best not to play foul,
doing my best to do things right,
wishing that some form of release can be found.

Understanding,
all these people with stupid choices,
how could they have made proper choices,
when they weren't told of the choices they had?
How could they have known there are diamonds,
when no one taught them how to dig?
****
Sep 2018 · 81
Depleted.
Ammar Sep 2018
Some days I just want to put a bullet in my head,
Some days I just want to hang 5ft above ground,
Some days I just want to travel at - 9.8m/s^2,
And everyday, I just want the pain to end.
Sep 2018 · 81
Gone
Ammar Sep 2018
Reapers knocking down the door,
The death warrant has been signed,
The noose, tightened and secured,
Yet, fear is absent, but happiness lingers in the air.

Finally, the sweet release is within grasp,
The only thing left was to fall.
This is for those who sought peace from suicide.

There's still hope.
Sep 2018 · 131
Light
Ammar Sep 2018
Ashes,
The remains of a lost past,
The ghost of lost moments,
The temporal concept of life that never lasts;
haunting the daunted soul of the ******.

Embers,
The last seed of hope,
Flickering as if solace is dawning,
Guiding the soul through woe,
Pleading for catharsis;
a new beginning.

Beliefs,
Torn minds are transmorgrified into absolute paradise,
Where time extends beyond the horizon,
Where the non-tangible beings linger,
Where lost love can be found,
Where old memories can be relived,
Where time remains at twilight.

Messiah,
Waiting for the time of deliverance,
Dispelling the fabrications constructed by men,
Where false notions are spread throughout the land,
Only then, will those who are true emerge,
Only then, will the true form of peace can be found.
#Orisitjustanotherfantasy?
Sep 2018 · 93
Illusion
Ammar Sep 2018
Dark clouds approaches the horizon,
An omen it is not; but a sweet release it is,
When the blinding light begins to burn the skin to the point that it results in agonising pain,
Even the darkness could bring about catharsis.
#Emptiness
Sep 2018 · 75
Ordeal
Ammar Sep 2018
The cold touch of fear brushes on the skin,
Hopes and dreams wither away;
dethroned by pain,
The agonising reality of a debacled future;
a downfall, a fiasco,
And so sunk the ship, drowning the spirit of hope.
#Burnitall

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