Did i prevail to land well
My femininity beneath my shell
Into glassy true words
Who accept and not repel?
Do these letters ever meet
The concept beyond this sheet?
Or the magic hand of rhythm 
Tangles them on its spell?
Will they be the worthy heirs
To lend them my deepest fears?
Or they refuse and betray
The story they must tell?
Ring the bell ring the bell
Doom has broken to my cell
Of all unspoken tales
Listen to "my little hell" .

Wandering in a land

Of darkness and sand

Sinking any moment

With a broken watch in my hand

At the middle of this circle

My circle of despair

Far away from home

From which i was banned

There which is no angle

To find some comfort 

You shall not stand, as this world is ******

Walls always expose you

To the darkness so mute

That steals your sanity

And leaves you all scammed

This never ending maze

What tricks has it planned

For this wandering child

Lost in wonderland?

I can't wait till the end of the day
When daddy's home and we get to play!

Nothing managed to warm me
~before burning my skin
You too tried to harm me..
~In these circles I spin

But the rabbit has warned me
~"you are running out of time"
There is not much in this land
~dreamland is too long gone

They chopped the poor rabbit's head
~his broken watch in my hand
Which only clocks the true hours
~of me in my wonderland.

Enjoying the very moment of peace
Suddenly something shatters inside you
Blood splashes to the glassy walls of your comfort.
Nothing looks peaceful anymore, huh?

I need to be there
Where I lose me
When I see myself die
And yet I'm happy

The murderer of my conscious
my passions, my unconscious
You see, my last victim is me
For years i tortured her for thee
And now i am finally there
For the empty flesh that i bear
To be her remedy after pain
To choose insanity over sane
We aint playing Russian roulette
I filled the gun with all the bullets
Now i can show my true care
Upon her, while you wouldn't dare
Im gonna tuck her into bed
Put the pillow over her head
Sing her the song of the woods
Forgetting abt "should"s or "could"s
The last scream you'll ever hear
Then your mind would feel no fear
Is the bullet i seed in ur head
"Peace of mind" comes with blood shed

My wrist was red
And my neck was blue
You were my favorite killer
And i would die for you
Now the wrists have healed
As new scars grew
And the time never heals
What i've been through.

Wandering circles
Circular wanders

The circle of despair has begun to spin.
And I'm a tiny fragil thing
Placed above it
As its perimeter gets full of shiny little pins.
It spins
It spins
It spins
And the circle turns red.

Anytime im unexpectedly happy or depressed, i ask myself this
What am i missing here?

"All the rabbits are dead"
The little boy one day said
Time passed and things changed
But little girl will never forget

Save me
Save me from this loneliness
It's burning me alive
Stop me
Extend your hands
And release me from the chains of my mind
It's a very dark and horrible place
In the dark
In the darkness of my mind
Where you are silent
You are mute as a dead man
Cold and frozen at the time
That coldness is contagious
My heart is dying too
It skipped a beat just now
When I was thinking of you
In front of your eyes
My words are poor and cheap
They break in my voice
As I let you life to slip
It slipped from my hands
i couldn't save you
So why should you now?
The fate of a child
Just fell from you eyes
Save me
Save me
Save me

One chose to live
One chose to die
And he had to deal with the third choice
Not choosing at all.

He breaks you to the point that you wont even be able to ask for help
He seeds this idea in your mind that you are far beyond repair
And far too unlovable to be helped.

When i talk to you
Its like a warm and nice dream
After a cold never ending  horrible nightmare.

I hope I was born in the future
And the future was too far
Like never.

I love a girl
And i killed her last summer.

I'll hide my tears along your sight
As you're never gonna look this way

It was like a series of performances
That I was the only performer
No one else to set fire to the show, just me
Alone
Sitting at the middle of the stage
With all the lights on me.
I found him
Maybe he found me I dont know
We just found our way to eachother..
And something strange started beating in my chest
He woke it or he brought it to existence?
...
I just feel my darkness
Now has enough space for someone else to come and join me on the stage of performance.

Everyone has their own triggers
The triggers own me

Lets gather bunch of animal masks and play pretend

The road seems never ending
My feet start to feel sore
The bag I had on my shoulders
Seemed to weight more by hour
I knew there was something
"Something" horrible and sad
Inside this heavy bag
I was carrying on my back
Would I dare to look into it?
Would I dare to push back?
I just needed to go forward
Forward and never go back

Stay and i will leave you for good
Leave and i will love you for a long time
Die and i will remember you forever

The world was fluid
And I was solid as ice
It passed me slowly as I was rigidly stuck to the ceiling
A very old cresset
I was water, I was current
But now Im not.
Time has passed through me and left me dead.