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InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
When he left he said he would be back
but, it was too familiar for her father had said that.

Same voice, same empty look in the eyes.

He was leaving and was never coming back.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
He tried to fill his void with her,
but, nothing she did was ever enough.

He told her he loved her,
but, that was just to string her along.

He used her and, she let him
because, she hoped he would change.

For she had felt that void before and,
understood how it felt.

In the end she gave him her all and, was left with not even herself.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
Isn't it funny how after everything is gone you can see it in a different light?

We use to argue and fight over things that now seem irrelevant.
If I would have known I would lose you to that, I would have let you win every fight.

I use to feel sick because, you wanted me with you all the time.
If I would have known you would be gone, I would have held you longer and more tight.

If I would have known all things come to an end, I would have cherished every moment in time.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
A pile of SECRETS and LIES and you call it love.
Your life is passing you by.
You're frozen in time.
You're holding your breath.
You're a statue waiting for something that's NEVER going to happen.
Yet you call it love.
It's NOT love.
A little script from "Scandal".
InTheWorldOf Cyn Dec 2014
"I could see what a mess we were. Our insecurities, our flaws became more exaggerated when we were together. We truly brought out the worst in each other. "

"I apologized, for not knowing myself better, and thereby not realizing how wrong we were for eachother"

-TinyBuddha
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
I want to move on.
But how can I move on when I owe you so much?
Pain
Tears.
Sleepless nights.
Heartaches.
Time.
Wouldnt it be selfish of me to not give it back?
I owe you that, payback.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
Addicted.

Every month.

This month it's been every week.

I can feel myself learning.

I've learned to rebuild.

Rebuild. Relapse. Rebuild. Relapse.

But when will I stop going back.

Relapse.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
My stomach turns as I awake, I try to catch my breath. My chest heavy as some part inside me shouts your name.

My mind understands your gone but my soul looks for you. It feels detached to you. It wants you, it needs you, it's confused in search of you.

Some part of me thinks you belong with me, you belong to me, how can I make it understand you're gone and, not coming back when this part of me is missing you.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
I woke up today,
my stomach tossing and turning.

Its just one of those days,
I feel antsy, and uneasy.

I can't concentrate,
I don't feel like myself.

I feel restless and tired.

When will it go away?

I know what we had was not love so, why do I still want you to stay?

-InTheWorldOfCyn
I need an answer.
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
Today I'll make myself happy.

1.) I'll wake up and curl my hair the way France's "baby" wore it, like its nobodies business.

2.) I'll wear a loose top to feel free, I'll be sure to wear a cute bra as a reminder that I can be **** too.

3.) I'll wear my big glasses and go to a coffee shop because, if I want to be a hipster I can do that too.

4.) I'll sing in my car and not care whose looking, windows down so I can smell the seasons change.

5.) and all day I'll think positive, I'll be who I want to be and do what I want, because that will make me happy.


-InTheWorldOfCyn
What list makes you happy?
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
"Some words are better left unsaid"

Like how much I miss, even though you hurt me.

Wish I could be there through these tough times, even though you're the reason I'm gone.

Love me because, I love you.

Or, when I'm telling you to leave me alone I really mean "stay forever"

Like "I'm fine" when that's not true.

So in the mean time, I'll just type it here.

Cause the truth is, it's not even a poem.

It's just all about you.

-InTheWorldOfCyn
InTheWorldOf Cyn Nov 2014
When you speak I no longer feel anything.

I feel numb.
I feel empty to what you say.
It all just feels like lies.
I stare off into space.
Your words just seem irelevant.
I don't even feel pain.

But, why do I stay?
When I'm happier when you're away.

-InTheWorldOfCyn

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