I see you and I see a mix of thousands of emotions trying to get out, but all that you can manage to show me is your depression. You are an amazing woman, you put on a smile all day and come home trying to resist the urge to cut. And I'm not much help, I can only text you every so often and I can't talk to you face to face and show you what I feel for you. I'm just one of the small emotions swirling in the mass of them in you head and heart.

I Don't know where i'm going
But i'm gonna go,
With a smile on my face
and my head held high.

On words,
To the future!

I'm so lost in my mind,
Some are normal, some? Not so kind.

I think of friends and family and school.

But I also think of self harm and stealing and people being used like a tool

I think of anxiety and depression
I think of my insecurities  and aggression

And I guess this is my confession
I hope this will make the burden lessen

But for now I need to smile for my families sake

And my advice I hope you'll
Take

Don't make my mistake.

When i am with you
Even depression feels beautiful