he gave me $5000
and said
Don't worry about whether I talk to you enough or not
I care about you
It's all in my heart

But I felt nothing

don't tell me my favourite song
is your favourite song
because then
every time I listen to it
I won't think of how much I like the song
I'll think of you
and it won't be my favourite song anymore

how many times can I write about the same thing?
how many ******* times can I keep writing about you?

I wake up in the morning
Eating my favourite cereal and watching my favourite TV show
You're still in the back of my mind

I get in the shower
The warm water on my cold body feels so good
I close my eyes and let the water drizzle on my face
You're still in the back of my mind

Need to write my essay
Need to write my essay
Need to write my essay
I am stressing over school work
And thinking about a captivating way to start my essay
But you're still in the back of my mind

I'm with friends at a party
Finally a break from school and stress
Having a great time
Eating food, taking a couple of shots of *****
Laughing my little *** off
You're still in the back of my mind

Where ever I am
Whatever I do
No matter how busy I am
I'm always ******* thinking about you
And truthfully
I hate it
I don't want to think about you
Thoughts of you make me so sad
I miss you
But you're no good for me
And we cannot be

Early last night I took sleeping pills
Not because I couldn't sleep
But I didn't want to be up all night thinking about you
It was Christmas Eve and I wanted to be okay if I couldn't be happy
Thoughts of you make me sad

Even with the dizziness that sleeping pills brought,
my drowsy body, and my mental delay
I woke up in the middle of the night
because I thought I heard my phone vibrate
I thought you texted me
But I was wrong

Early last night I took sleeping pills
Not because I couldn't sleep
But because I didn't want to be up all night thinking about you