We came together
like we already knew one another
Never to be without the other
The air somehow feels calmer
living so deep inside my heart, you keep me safe and warm
Infatuated by your charms
falling into your arms
I keep writing about you
about how much I love the things you do
I fell in love with you slowly
I fell in love with you gently
then quickly
Because nothing makes more sense
Than the thought of you and me
We are now the perfect symbol of sanity
It's just empty without you, absolutely empty
So somehow, you just got into my brain
And it has become a place away from stress and pain
Then i forget to worry about everything
Cause those softly kisses are worth repeating
And when i look in your eyes i get butterflies
As if we were angels romancing in the skies
Two pairs of lips and two hearts combined
This love was clearly destined

The days are sometimes
More than I can handle
Desires fill my brain
I can't seem to make an adjustment
It feels like I'm going insane
Pleasures are all around me
What the **** do I do
It's really hard to see
What is the ******* truth
I clamor for this and that
It feels like I'm never satisfied
Does anyone give a crap
About what's on the inside
No, they look at appearances
And how much money one makes
They don't care what a person is like
It feels like I'm in the way
I try to follow what is right
But life gets the best of me
And brings out the worse in me
And I fall down to my knees
Praying all will be well
But more than likely I'm going to hell
Cause more than often I can't stop myself
The enemy attacks and I give in
Wishing I was somewhere else
Maybe my days won't be so bad
And I will surrender
And finally feel glad
That I can make it through one more day
Without putting a gun to my ******* brains

the world is grey
and dark
I don't like the grey
its boring
and plain
and then
you come in to it
and the world is
full of color
and light
and its...
beautiful
and bright
but then you leave
and it goes grey
I see friends
and there
is a bit of color
but its faded
and dull
but then
the rain comes
and washes
the grey away
and color returns
but then
the puddles dry
and its grey again
I'm
alone
help
me
no sorry
I'm fine
really I am
I'm good
its grey
so grey
I hate grey
and thats why I draw
and paint
so i can put
artificial color
in the world
when i go
to museums
i see the color
in the art
but outside
its grey
i love books,
stores
its warm
and filled with stores
and stores have color
thats why I read
thats why i dance
because the
movement
fills me with
color
thats what
this world  
has come to
people looking
for color
for light
all there life
sometimes
we don't find it
and so the world
is **grey

drowning in caffeine
breathing the nicotine
my blood cant circulate - your love will stimulate.
the ****** of death in **** will simulate
your touch , my need
as we spiral in to sin

separation , depression , paranoia
anxiety - the absence of my sleep
aggression , desperation
toxicity - of a drama we are in
discoloration - i can't control the spin

screams - muted by bitter pills
our dreams - induced by the  acid
capsuled lives - longing self destruction
your embrace - disconnection
release me from what is real

obsession - for what we cannot fix
frustration - for what we can't control
memories - of what we used to be
delusions - of what we could have been
isolation - thoughts of being free
now voices dictate what i should feel
digging through my skin - opening the wounds
put your fingers in

remembering the days when we held
an illusion no drugs could replicate
i can't forget.
exchanging promises of never letting go
was it all in my head?
i can't escape the hole.
i walk the road alone.