I have everything, honey
*Except a **** to give about you

the moon and L
by
Jude Kyrie

*I am so alone this night.
I hold a conversation
with my old friend the moon.
I whisper to him.
I feet so incomplete.
How  can all these years pass by
and leave me such a partial being.

My supportive friend answered me
I am seldom complete
sometimes waxing sometimes waning.
Sometimes hardly a flicker of a smile
Sometimes a ghost of a sad mouth.
Remember my human friend
You don't have to be
complete or full to shine.

He always makes sense
I guess he is wiser than humans
after all how many
millions of years old is he.

Then he gave me
the answer I needed
he mused softly.
His voice so magical.
So philosophical
I love him in this mood.

But when you are
feeling full or whole.
That is the time to shine the brightest.
To light up the world in the power
of your reflected completeness.
That is when you
will have the power.
The power to effect
every person on earth.
And even  move the oceans

we clock in, out
every one of us--that has ALWAYS
been the contract

the Tyrant has us all working
at minimum wage; some complain
others don't think about it

though at one time
or another, we are all grateful,
and terrified, we have a job

beggars, billionaires both
servants to the hours, His strange
circular command

but I will be dead ******
if I'll give Him a minute more than necessary
watching the hands spin on a timepiece,
eternally there to remind us, we are
temporal slaves, every minion
under His reign

Too long I've rested upon my throne.
Ordained as ruler,
I wield a sceptre
imbued with old indoctrinated notions.
Bound in aged, tired traditions.
Obstinacy clasped tight within my fingers.

Living by the
foundations laid,
imposed by predecessors before.
I realise that I am but caged
within my self enforced confines.

I want what lays beyond...
But I am afraid...
And more...

I must embrace the unknown.
Be fearless...
And take to the darkness.

Because...

One can only fly free into greatness
if one is unafraid to take the leap
into changing winds.

Blue circle pills
Piling up on my counter
Little and numbing
I'm depressed
When did that happen?
1 white pill
2 yellow pills
I take these in the morning
In the evening I take more
3 more white pills
1 tiny blue pill
I let the blue pill melt on my tongue
In half an hour I'm numb and exhausted
Day in and Day out
More pills
Pills
P
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Oh its been 31 days
I need a refill