"spritzed" poems
Today I put on that perfume
And it hit me
With a memory forgotten;
Sunken at the bottom of the almost empty bottle.
“Mhm, wow you smell so good. What perfume is that?” You had asked.
I’d been over the moon waxing outside. You had tickled my insides.
So when I’d spritzed that on my neck and inhaled that scent and that memory…
I was glad.
Glad that the bottle was finished.
Glad that there was nothing left to remind me of that moment,
Glad that as I tossed the bottle into the trash, I had, in turn, trashed the memory.
The memory sunken at the bottom of that perfume bottle.
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 6:09 PM UTC
In a Bluebird toffee tin
Are a hundred letters –
Most of them doodle-stamped and
Delivered by hand.
Unlike the letters I sent to you
They do not smell of spritzed cologne,
(A trick that I learned from Grease)
They are not messy
Or tea stained,
But perfect powder blue
And allowing for small extravagances –
The Cursive of the Obsessive,
Cursed by neatness and perfect hearts.
I pick one out at random,
A casually cruel one sent from Rome –
I imagine you blinking on a balcony
With dazzles on your collarbone,
A teeny tiny sugarless coffee
At your side,
And a pen tapping your knee.
*“I’m not a **** at all –“* you wrote,
*"It’s only that you are gregarious
In the most DISGUSTING way.
That’s your problem not mine -
Your optimism won’t catch you.
(Cynicism won’t catch you either,
But it has the courtesy not to throw you.)
I’m stopping now,
By the time you get this
I’ll be back home.
What pointlessness we endure for one other.
I miss you, as you say,
‘ever so’ –
Bedtime here is a source of misery.”*
And then you signed your name,
Tiny,
Small,
Impossibly graceful,
Just like yourself.
You were always nasty
When you missed me.
Apr 13, 2015
Apr 13, 2015 at 7:19 PM UTC
i cant read
so i just write
i quickly become tired
with your work
i would much rather pace
wear down the blades of grass
in the familiar place
i cant read
because while the graces of poets
philosophers
and scholars
make pretty the page
syllables dancing
atop meticulously pressed parchment
while this happens
through their beauty
i only think of you
toss the tome aside
and imagine all the ways
i can express
the things that capture and drag
the fingertips to their home
back to the place where i feel full
loved and laughed at
where i carouse and cherish
this was never about the "reads"
never about the ratio
of lit to likes
it was only ever about me writing
you love letters every day
ten max though
fact is, half of these ********
scrawlings these
are returned to sender
but crying alone
is far better than pretending
pretending you were never upset
and begging for something you need
begging doesnt only work if there is a listener
i cant read
i cant read our future
i cant give you house keys
a front or back yard
a cat box
a leash
i cant read
i write.
all 106 of them
garbage some think
but its garbage
i sealed with tears
and stamped with a kiss
spritzed with cologne
(if i wore it)
i cant read
star charts
memos
concert bills
calendars
no parking signs
or the expressions of cats
but i can write
pour out every guttural spasm
scribble every inspiration
leer and laugh toward
a glowing screen
mute and accepting
of the drivel banged out below it
i cant read
i can write things though
some things
good things
things
see what i mean??
i cant even write.
"things
good
things"
hay-seuss x-mas!
Apr 26, 2013
Apr 26, 2013 at 9:18 PM UTC
In a Bluebird toffee tin
Are a hundred letters –
Most of them doodle-stamped and
Delivered by hand.
Unlike the letters I sent to you
They do not smell of spritzed cologne,
(A trick that I learned from Grease)
They are not messy
Or tea stained,
But perfect powder blue
And allowing for small extravagances –
The Cursive of the Obsessive,
Cursed by neatness and perfect hearts.
I pick one out at random,
A casually cruel one sent from Rome –
I imagine you blinking on a balcony
With dazzles on your collarbone,
A teeny tiny sugarless coffee
At your side,
And a pen tapping your knee.
*“I’m not a **** at all –“* you wrote,
*It’s only that you are gregarious
In the most DISGUSTING way.
That’s your problem not mine -
Your optimism won’t catch you.
Cynicism won’t catch you either,
But it has the courtesy not to throw you.
I’m stopping now,
By the time you get this
I’ll be back home.
What pointlessness we endure for one other.
I miss you, as you say,
‘ever so’ –
Bedtime here is a source of misery.”*
And then you signed your name,
Tiny,
Small,
Impossibly graceful,
Just like yourself.
You were always nasty
When you missed me.
Oct 21, 2013
Oct 21, 2013 at 7:13 PM UTC
looking back and forth
from you
to her
to them
& the others
and i wonder...
who of you are sincere
which of you go home in complete & utter contentment?
you...
wearing plastic smiles
coifed hair
painted eyes
and lips
gelled
sprayed
sprinkled & spritzed
iron out
blown out
shaken & tousled
for what?
to add to the alcohol induced facade
of the similar?
no, i am not unique
i'm just better at showing what's real
than most.
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 12:40 PM UTC
i wrote you a letter,
spritzed it with pheromones,
dotted it in tears
every grim notion was far too pretty —
dressed in ballpoint ink
dancing a legato cursive
tracing everything i didn’t say;
my tongue was tangled up,
and your hearing was selective
but pain was bubbling out my pores,
and starting to burn
the only remedy was writing it out:
dear you,
i want to mold me into the
pedestal i put you on,
but you have to scooch a little
i want to go on a scavenger hunt
in your brain, but you didn’t
think to draft out clues
i want to use your heartbeat for 808s
and play them on repeat,
but you’d probably say that’s ludicrous
i want to find our favorite
frequency, i think it’s
somewhere close to middle c,
but you didn’t meet me there
never really cared to care,
and that’s fine, that’s fair
your debt to me is absent
same as mine to you
yet i’m still paying in time wasted
analyzing your words in my head
that don’t have double meanings
like i devised
you’re as literal as stem majors
uneager to decode the metaphors
i made for you
so i’ll stop writing them
at least
i’ll try
love,
me
(please)
folded up my fears of feeling
something more than my pulse
the impulse wasn’t strong enough
couldn’t muster the courage
to address it in your name
still i hoped you’d somehow see
so i let the wind take the reins
with fate in the passenger seat
clutching my precious card-stock cargo
will it find it’s way to you,
or dissolve amongst the mist?
i guess that i can only guess
Aug 10, 2019
Aug 10, 2019 at 9:37 PM UTC
I'll peer through the flaxen strand
of night
with your color that excites,
and think myself the blue pither of fire
or a flummoxed stone left unturned.
it's not the rapture of a knowledgeable
beast or the common grip
of the eye's gift for unsparing detail.
it's the way the queen moves to all
corners unclenching a fold of sidereal,
and then like a child with almond eyes
spruced up, spritzed this morning's
incandescent dye,
the lapping of strange tides revealing
fish with dreams of brine
or that one moment when you had
at first light, the hot flush of coming
into, recognizing insatiable appetite,
whistling its overdue intent and the detritus
we try to hide when we had that virginal moment of once and never looking back
at mirrors.
Feb 20, 2016
Feb 20, 2016 at 3:00 AM UTC
Spritzed me with rain, this morning.
Rooftops unravel inner coating like old scabs
to wounds. Quiescent mercy of the Sun
bleared behind curtains of cumulus. There is a far
more in-depth correlation between an insurmountable
ex-facto and the fruition of affront:
something a sutured lip unwraps, a sotto voce.
Murmuring murmurings,
tousled the leaves to a zither like salad on a depthless bowl:
a coarse susurrus unattainable through lip-reading: tongue’s the
scythe and the message that rummages athwart, something
that rushes in the blood, a scrape on the sinew
as I coil in pain like a thing in womb revealing its fetal nature.
something that speaks for another one – ventriloquism
in its keenest sense, speak for me, you, both of us lost
in frenzied translation.
Jan 27, 2016
Jan 27, 2016 at 1:44 AM UTC
A blank stare.
The soft rustle of long black hair
whipping in the wind.
Tear stained cheeks and red eyes,
a certain feeling of numbness that won't subside.
The sound of painful screams echoing in an empty mind
that is bustling inside all at the same time.
Distant memories come back to haunt
while the good times have already been forgotten
as if they were some wild dream.
Upon looking at the calm water and being spritzed in sea spray,
most don't realize that the same crystal waters they are gazing upon
is part of the body that swallows up unsuspecting victims
and sent many to their graves.
The sun reflecting upon the clear water burns her eyes.
She jumps as a soft hand rests upon her shoulder.
It is a young boy,
An unfamiliar face that seems so innocent and so pure
that she feels she has known him all her life.
Then she remembers that she no longer has one.
The person she was,
the person that would smile and say hello
was long gone.
She died in that same sea long ago.
The boy asked her name but she only replied,
"I don't have one. Not anymore."
Upon seeing the confused look that had washed over the boy's face
and the curious gleam in his eyes,
she said,
"Names are for people with purpose,
for those who have someone to love
and a life to live
and a home to arrive to at the end of each day.
They are not for the broken.
They are for the people who are blissfully oblivious.
They are not for me."
And so she walked away,
her frail body becoming smaller with each step she took into the distance.
And the boy tried calling out to her,
but he couldn't.
For she had no name.
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 8:33 AM UTC
today I watched meek flies die
at the center of a grapefruiting sun
and marveled as it's feathering wings
peeled and spritzed and clouded.
*funny how transparent life is. everything
that gives takes*
Mar 28, 2016
Mar 28, 2016 at 10:14 PM UTC
It is a porcelain battlefield
and I hear the
brown bodies drop
with a wet thwap.
I push and strain
against the pain
to purge this
unpleasant thang.
Prickly peanuts
thick and hard
tearing me up
as I yell
“Arrrrggggh.”
Hold on tight,
it’s one hell
of a fight.
A fearsome foe
falls once more.
Then I hear
civilians holler,
“God no
that’s so gross!”
“Oh no,
collateral damage!”
I think as
puffs of spray
are spritzed my way,
cause in the heat
of this hard-won battle,
I forgot to
shut the door.
Aug 31, 2018
Aug 31, 2018 at 8:42 AM UTC
Once popping crackling
flashing
now burning down
to an orange ember
soon to be spritzed
followed by hissing
then sputtering
what just happened
we had so much
promise
whit howland © 2021
Feb 24, 2021
Feb 24, 2021 at 9:02 PM UTC