"delusioned" poems
It's been a while and I haven't slept
I'm too cold now and I haven't wept
The numbness gave way to madness
And now I'm feeling fine
Now I smile once in a day Isn't it a good sign
But the urge to take a hit makes me weak and dissipated
It never let go of me even though I truly waited
And I'm slowly walking towards the edge of my story
Ready to fly for a while before I take a fall
Life is scattered In a nightmare
But I don't have the strength to burn it all
And I'm slowly losing sanity
Yesterday I saw a cow fly
It hissed at me like a snake
It hurts that it didn't even say goodbye
Before it took off for the meadows
Where I hope it gets beaten by the troll and dies
Enough of my sweet dreams
I'm not delusioned enough to believe 'em to be real
But I'm getting cold and old now
There is just no way that I can heal
And I fade away like the dinosaurs
But not as cool 'cause there's no super-volcano or a meteorite
And cobain told me I should burn away
Something about burning and showing them light
It's better to burn than to fade away
He wrote on his suicide note
Gun-shot or a nuclear holocaust
I seriously need some votes
I can't make my mind about how this stupidity might end
And to go out as decently as I can
Those religious folks I don't Want to offend
Or they'll waste everyone's time preaching about a god thats just too bored to even care
If he's there somewhere maybe of earths existence he's not even Aware
We're so tiny, I wonder if he can even see ourselves
Tell 'em apple guys to gift him an iPhone , so he can google himself
And see for himself that 'porn' is more googled than him
That he has lost his crown
All of the religious folks reading This ****
Please , don't frown
But still, in-spite of my pleas if you still want to
Fine , go ahead
Just letting you all know I'm 'gonna sin again
There's a girl on my bed
and I think you can make it out where it'll lead
I know I know , I'm going to hell and I'm never 'gonna be freed
But who cares
its not like they're 'gonna give em girls to me in heaven
There's no point to refuse now
And On the other hand someone said we can do whatever we Want to
Than hey , why is this **** even going down ?
I told you I'm deranged but you didn't believe
It was nice letting it all out and now I can sleep
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 4:39 AM UTC
There really is something magical,
Whimsical even,
About driving through the trees.
A forrest even.
Something wild even though
Humanity has tamed it
Enough to drive through.
We clear the trees
Flatten the land
Pour the concrete
And make sure
There's a destination
At the end.
Everyone wants to rush
Humanity has trained themselves
To go as fast as possible
To get things done.
Yet everyone says
"Its the journey,
Not the destination".
Liars.
They've delusioned themselves
Into not believing what they say.
Hypocrites, I say.
Liars.
This is nature's true beauty.
Feb 22, 2013
Feb 22, 2013 at 10:44 PM UTC
Her eyes look past,
past my postured figure,
past the drunkard who’s ****** himself,
who sulks in his **** soaked pants,
sulking in drowned regrets and fog,
past the high heeled woman,
who steps over the drunkard’s liquid lines,
which flow across soot stained concrete,
upon this boulevard on this street in Budapest,
we could have been anywhere.
She’s in a bad mood,
doesn’t want to talk,
doesn’t want to listen,
probably doesn’t want to even live,
I understand her,
better than I care to admit,
she’s battling a lung affection,
she’s battling the delusioned stares of countless lustful men,
I tell her she doesn’t have to talk,
I tell her she doesn’t have to listen,
I tell her she’s welcome to come in,
to my sanctuary and simply exist there,
she refuses all my offers,
and I wonder,
what she sees,
when she stares past everything she sees,
I tell her I’m going to write a poem about her,
she asks why,
I tell her I’m a poet and that’s what I do,
I write about moments just like this one,
even though I know words are only words.
I know the frustration,
of trying to explain the unexplainable,
I know the frustration,
of trying to put all this in prose that’s easily digestible,
and herein,
lies the paradox,
if ignorance is bliss,
then genius is torture,
and we are both tortured,
and we are both in denial,
and we both know,
we may never see each other again.
Her eyes look past,
past my postured figure,
past the drunkard who’s ****** himself,
who sulks in his **** soaked pants,
sulking in drowned regrets and fog,
past the high heeled woman,
who steps over the drunkard’s liquid lines,
which flow across soot stained concrete,
upon this boulevard on this street in Budapest,
we could have been anywhere…
∆ Aaron LA Lux ∆
07/09/16
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 1:15 AM UTC
I was delusioned
When I thought
Hate and Love
Were two different emotions.
I have you to thank
For setting me straight.
Your actions have confirmed
That these once opposites
Are now one and the same.
Your actions conjured in me first,
This smouldering Love, and now
A burning Hate.
Why couldn't I have been enough for you?
Why couldn't you tell me the truth?
Why couldn't you love me for me?
Why couldn't I let you go?
Why did I go through what I did for you?
Because I will always love you.
Nov 18, 2010
Nov 18, 2010 at 9:33 PM UTC
& I think maybe that’s what’s fked me up the most
The people that have hurt me the most were those that were close
& those that didn’t care
Smiled, acted polite & shared
Their fake, crowd pleasing personas
with me
Smile to my face, then vanish into black
Only to text back
Months later
Oh sorry, it’s been hectic
I’ve been soo busy
Finding myself
Far away from you
But would you like to come out for a brew
Perhaps
Meanwhile the people that tell me they love me
The people that tell me they’ve always had MY best interests in mind while they themselves made decisions that affected me
Without me
Leaving me for my own good
Staying away from me for my own good
Telling me that I’m too good
For them
& which one is better
Really
Which one is worse
Or more real
Is anything real..
Anymore?
All I know is that I’m tired of the ****
This technological abyss
Where people can come & go as they please
Eternally
IT’S NOT OKAY
I will not come out to play
I will not twirl & dance for you
Every time you want to wind me up
For old times sake
So you can recreate
A distant memory of former bliss
What is this?
But utter confusion
You’re delusioned
If you think I’ll ever spin near your orbit again
& no we can’t “stay friends”
For fks sake
Just leave me be
Jun 7, 2019
Jun 7, 2019 at 9:51 PM UTC
The morning sky faintly blue
A gust of wind rustling leaves
I don't know why you laugh
At the boats bobbing in the harbor
Your little feet don't reach the ground
As you sit on the bench next to me
I can't believe you belong to me
Your eyes the same grey blue
Standing two feet from the ground
You disappear into a pile of leaves
Already forgetting you don't want to leave the harbor
Your innocence makes me laugh
You reminded me how to laugh
Unknowingly you saved me
From the dark thoughts I harbor
That once made me so blue
I had become someone who always leaves
But you brought me back to the ground
I couldn't watch them lower you into the ground
All I could hear was your laugh
And the rustle of dead winter leaves
The naked trees mourned with me
Their tears made of sap & mine so blue
And salty as the frozen harbor
Why'd you have to go to the harbor?
Is it so hard to stay on dry ground?
It's enticing waters gleaming blue
Swallowed you with a menacing laugh
Taking you away from me
A reminder that everyone leaves
Everyone's child eventually leaves
Sailing across the promising harbor
But not in the way that you left me
Unable to pick myself off the ground
In a delusioned fit I hysterically laugh
At a bird in the window with feathers so blue
I hope the harbor in heaven is just as blue
And while you wait for me I pray that you laugh
That same silly way you did in the leaves on the ground.
May 27, 2015
May 27, 2015 at 8:40 PM UTC
i wish you’d look me in the eyes
don't even try to hide your lies
i see a storm brewing in our darkening sky
and out of your mouth
spews nothing but hate
if only we'd changed
but now it’s too late
am i delusioned?
am i losing you?
you were faking all along
i know that you knew
quit blaming me when you’re just as guilty too
you rear your head, the thunder claps
time to strike a pose, you've won the match
Apr 14, 2018
Apr 14, 2018 at 8:45 PM UTC
I am what I have always been.
I am just clearer now.
I am still the adjective you love to say,
Just better defined somehow.
Knowing everything will complete you and destroy you all at once,
You are not crazy
You are not alone
You are not delusioned
You are not ego
You are not person
You are not son
you
are
the
results
of
illusions
undone
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 4, 2014 at 11:09 AM UTC
I know I'll never be wealthy
I never wanted paper
Kind of wanted that cape
Or the privilege behind a cape
Tame I wasn't
But I am now
So i'm not me
But who was I anyway?
I was a fool.
Thought I could be charming
But charming doesn't
Put the rock on the band
Just put's a band on the finger
With nothing to follow
And you know
That's a road most travel alone.
Jun 20, 2017
Jun 20, 2017 at 7:26 PM UTC
(c) Kathleen L. Hicks
The well of wisdom runs deep,
Filled with knowledge for all who will seek.
As down through the ages, man added pages
Of truths to store up and keep.
The mountain of myths is steep;
Many climb there delusioned and weep.
Built on promises grand but too far a leap,
With theories none can repeat.
The wide well of wisdom awaits
For those who dare to dive in,
You may surf there for a lifetime;
All you need do is begin.
Many who have gone before us
Have pooled many facts to show
Truth through thoughtful thinking
Reveals what we need to know.
Feb 25, 2017
Feb 25, 2017 at 6:43 PM UTC
Engravings of trampled sands
Irrepressibly brutally invidious
When motioned irresistibly
Through crystal delusioned prism
Array of brandishing invocationing
Spectrum gleaming grapple
Cure, perseverance, persistence,
Pledge, pros, plums
The lazarus ray shone legacy..
Jun 20, 2018
Jun 20, 2018 at 4:46 AM UTC
Snake in my head my brain twists round a flick
Attacking front and back delusioned took in sheep
Fearing wolves teeth accepting
Eyes of a dandelion for
Sharks teeth describing insanity
Amid humanity and toiling still
Maskless rabid tongue savages
Mangling the sabbath
Crosses slung as martyrs in devils disguise a rabbit
Looks up surprise
A crowd of proposed Jesuit boards
Who's knives hidden
In lying tongues
Stab out all the sudden
Taking ***** and Gomorrah
Wrath and horror in God's name
Came dressed as saviors a blithe name and a traitor so slay him make this day done take no prisoners it needs
Done
Jan 12, 2021
Jan 12, 2021 at 10:43 PM UTC