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Mary Stanworth Jun 2012
Why do things go pear shaped?
Feeling in the depth of the stomach
Dread and feeling sick.
Just as you think you turn a corner
Your tripped up before getting so near.
Why do we let our walls down?
Caus we think things are going so well
You think from past experiences
You’d see the signs, but oh no !
Not even when they are smacking us in the face
Do we notice that things just arent right.
Why do people say they love you?
Caus they do in thier own strange way
Its just not the love they think we really need
Laughing at yourself, crying by yourself
The frustration and waiting for something real.
Why do things go pear shaped?
Caus we dont really want to see!
Why do we let our walls down?
Caus were are suckers for love!
Why do people say they love us?
Caus they know thats what we want to hear !!
Sarah-Jane Platt May 2010
With the sky turning orange
You load up your syringe
And shoot up,  right into the heart
Lying back in surrender
That face, once so tender
Was doomed in this game right from the start

And you'll steal and you'll lie
And you'd **** to get by
And it ain't that much fun anymore
But you're in far too deep
'Caus this game plays for keeps
And you're fighting your own private war

What do I have to do to make you listen?
What do I have to do to make you learn?
What do I have to say to make you realise
That you're just taking your turn
And despite that special buzz
You're not special anymore
'Caus you're dying from the inside
Like so many before
And it still goes on....

When you think Life's a downer
Take an upper to counter
Till you don't know what you really feel
And you're starting to fear it
But Want just won't hear it
Won't admit that your world isn't real

And you've stolen; you've lied
Guess you'd **** to get by
And you've just lost the will to say "No"
How'd it start, one small pill?
Now you're in for the ****
Did you think it would let you let go?

What do I have to do to make you listen?
What do I have to do to make you learn?
What do I have to say to make you realise
That you're just taking your turn
And despite that special buzz
You're not special anymore
'Caus you're dying from the inside
Like so many before
And it still goes on....

And it still goes on
Day after day it still goes on
Nobody can say
How it will end
How will you die?
Alone, without friends?
Have you the strength
To do what it takes?
I know the answer
And my heart breaks
For you

With the sky blue and sunny
The warm scent of honey
Finally bright colour floods your world
Red as strawberries, as roses
Your mind finally closes
You find peace as the death colour pearls

And you've stolen, you've lied
And you've killed to get by
Did you realise you'd died long ago?
Yes, we all tried to save you
Didn't need us, oh brave you
You just turned away, just said "No"

Couldn't do a thing to make you listen
Couldn't say a word to make you learn
Couldn't make the sense to make you realise
You were just taking your turn
And despite that special buzz
You're not special anymore
'Caus you're gone, dead and buried
Like so many before
And it still goes on.
BLACK MOON May 2015
I'm sitting in my office with wild imaginations
I sit on my chair and roll..

I hold my pen to write wild imaginations
but the pen don't touch the pad..

The thoughts run wild no less than a mad scientist
I wish I can go live crazy

but world with rules and regulations
close my feelings in my boots..

wild imaginations.. wild imaginations.. the wild imaginations are coming through
Don't dare to hold me.. don't dare to mold me 'caus I will blast out loud

I am gonna work on my wild stuff
but I  need to start

Start is not a problem, 'caus it has already started
but the problem is to finish the work..

I'm sitting in my office with wild imaginations
I m sitting on my chair and to work

but the work is not interesting 'caus the thoughts are wild
people will never understand my world...
BOOK I

     Deep in the shady sadness of a vale
Far sunken from the healthy breath of morn,
Far from the fiery noon, and eve's one star,
Sat gray-hair'd Saturn, quiet as a stone,
Still as the silence round about his lair;
Forest on forest hung above his head
Like cloud on cloud. No stir of air was there,
Not so much life as on a summer's day
Robs not one light seed from the feather'd grass,
But where the dead leaf fell, there did it rest.
A stream went voiceless by, still deadened more
By reason of his fallen divinity
Spreading a shade: the Naiad 'mid her reeds
Press'd her cold finger closer to her lips.

     Along the margin-sand large foot-marks went,
No further than to where his feet had stray'd,
And slept there since.  Upon the sodden ground
His old right hand lay nerveless, listless, dead,
Unsceptred; and his realmless eyes were closed;
While his bow'd head seem'd list'ning to the Earth,
His ancient mother, for some comfort yet.

     It seem'd no force could wake him from his place;
But there came one, who with a kindred hand
Touch'd his wide shoulders, after bending low
With reverence, though to one who knew it not.
She was a Goddess of the infant world;
By her in stature the tall Amazon
Had stood a pigmy's height: she would have ta'en
Achilles by the hair and bent his neck;
Or with a finger stay'd Ixion's wheel.
Her face was large as that of Memphian sphinx,
Pedestal'd haply in a palace court,
When sages look'd to Egypt for their lore.
But oh! how unlike marble was that face:
How beautiful, if sorrow had not made
Sorrow more beautiful than Beauty's self.
There was a listening fear in her regard,
As if calamity had but begun;
As if the vanward clouds of evil days
Had spent their malice, and the sullen rear
Was with its stored thunder labouring up.
One hand she press'd upon that aching spot
Where beats the human heart, as if just there,
Though an immortal, she felt cruel pain:
The other upon Saturn's bended neck
She laid, and to the level of his ear
Leaning with parted lips, some words she spake
In solemn tenor and deep ***** tone:
Some mourning words, which in our feeble tongue
Would come in these like accents; O how frail
To that large utterance of the early Gods!
"Saturn, look up!---though wherefore, poor old King?
I have no comfort for thee, no not one:
I cannot say, 'O wherefore sleepest thou?'
For heaven is parted from thee, and the earth
Knows thee not, thus afflicted, for a God;
And ocean too, with all its solemn noise,
Has from thy sceptre pass'd; and all the air
Is emptied of thine hoary majesty.
Thy thunder, conscious of the new command,
Rumbles reluctant o'er our fallen house;
And thy sharp lightning in unpractised hands
Scorches and burns our once serene domain.
O aching time! O moments big as years!
All as ye pass swell out the monstrous truth,
And press it so upon our weary griefs
That unbelief has not a space to breathe.
Saturn, sleep on:---O thoughtless, why did I
Thus violate thy slumbrous solitude?
Why should I ope thy melancholy eyes?
Saturn, sleep on! while at thy feet I weep."

     As when, upon a tranced summer-night,
Those green-rob'd senators of mighty woods,
Tall oaks, branch-charmed by the earnest stars,
Dream, and so dream all night without a stir,
Save from one gradual solitary gust
Which comes upon the silence, and dies off,
As if the ebbing air had but one wave;
So came these words and went; the while in tears
She touch'd her fair large forehead to the ground,
Just where her fallen hair might be outspread
A soft and silken mat for Saturn's feet.
One moon, with alteration slow, had shed
Her silver seasons four upon the night,
And still these two were postured motionless,
Like natural sculpture in cathedral cavern;
The frozen God still couchant on the earth,
And the sad Goddess weeping at his feet:
Until at length old Saturn lifted up
His faded eyes, and saw his kingdom gone,
And all the gloom and sorrow ofthe place,
And that fair kneeling Goddess; and then spake,
As with a palsied tongue, and while his beard
Shook horrid with such aspen-malady:
"O tender spouse of gold Hyperion,
Thea, I feel thee ere I see thy face;
Look up, and let me see our doom in it;
Look up, and tell me if this feeble shape
Is Saturn's; tell me, if thou hear'st the voice
Of Saturn; tell me, if this wrinkling brow,
Naked and bare of its great diadem,
Peers like the front of Saturn? Who had power
To make me desolate? Whence came the strength?
How was it nurtur'd to such bursting forth,
While Fate seem'd strangled in my nervous grasp?
But it is so; and I am smother'd up,
And buried from all godlike exercise
Of influence benign on planets pale,
Of admonitions to the winds and seas,
Of peaceful sway above man's harvesting,
And all those acts which Deity supreme
Doth ease its heart of love in.---I am gone
Away from my own *****: I have left
My strong identity, my real self,
Somewhere between the throne, and where I sit
Here on this spot of earth. Search, Thea, search!
Open thine eyes eterne, and sphere them round
Upon all space: space starr'd, and lorn of light;
Space region'd with life-air; and barren void;
Spaces of fire, and all the yawn of hell.---
Search, Thea, search! and tell me, if thou seest
A certain shape or shadow, making way
With wings or chariot fierce to repossess
A heaven he lost erewhile: it must---it must
Be of ripe progress---Saturn must be King.
Yes, there must be a golden victory;
There must be Gods thrown down, and trumpets blown
Of triumph calm, and hymns of festival
Upon the gold clouds metropolitan,
Voices of soft proclaim, and silver stir
Of strings in hollow shells; and there shall be
Beautiful things made new, for the surprise
Of the sky-children; I will give command:
Thea! Thea! Thea! where is Saturn?"
This passion lifted him upon his feet,
And made his hands to struggle in the air,
His Druid locks to shake and ooze with sweat,
His eyes to fever out, his voice to cease.
He stood, and heard not Thea's sobbing deep;
A little time, and then again he ******'d
Utterance thus.---"But cannot I create?
Cannot I form? Cannot I fashion forth
Another world, another universe,
To overbear and crumble this to nought?
Where is another Chaos? Where?"---That word
Found way unto Olympus, and made quake
The rebel three.---Thea was startled up,
And in her bearing was a sort of hope,
As thus she quick-voic'd spake, yet full of awe.

     "This cheers our fallen house: come to our friends,
O Saturn! come away, and give them heart;
I know the covert, for thence came I hither."
Thus brief; then with beseeching eyes she went
With backward footing through the shade a space:
He follow'd, and she turn'd to lead the way
Through aged boughs, that yielded like the mist
Which eagles cleave upmounting from their nest.

     Meanwhile in other realms big tears were shed,
More sorrow like to this, and such like woe,
Too huge for mortal tongue or pen of scribe:
The Titans fierce, self-hid, or prison-bound,
Groan'd for the old allegiance once more,
And listen'd in sharp pain for Saturn's voice.
But one of the whole mammoth-brood still kept
His sov'reigny, and rule, and majesy;---
Blazing Hyperion on his orbed fire
Still sat, still *****'d the incense, teeming up
From man to the sun's God: yet unsecure:
For as among us mortals omens drear
Fright and perplex, so also shuddered he---
Not at dog's howl, or gloom-bird's hated screech,
Or the familiar visiting of one
Upon the first toll of his passing-bell,
Or prophesyings of the midnight lamp;
But horrors, portion'd to a giant nerve,
Oft made Hyperion ache.  His palace bright,
Bastion'd with pyramids of glowing gold,
And touch'd with shade of bronzed obelisks,
Glar'd a blood-red through all its thousand courts,
Arches, and domes, and fiery galleries;
And all its curtains of Aurorian clouds
Flush'd angerly: while sometimes eagles' wings,
Unseen before by Gods or wondering men,
Darken'd the place; and neighing steeds were heard
Not heard before by Gods or wondering men.
Also, when he would taste the spicy wreaths
Of incense, breath'd aloft from sacred hills,
Instead of sweets, his ample palate took
Savor of poisonous brass and metal sick:
And so, when harbor'd in the sleepy west,
After the full completion of fair day,---
For rest divine upon exalted couch,
And slumber in the arms of melody,
He pac'd away the pleasant hours of ease
With stride colossal, on from hall to hall;
While far within each aisle and deep recess,
His winged minions in close clusters stood,
Amaz'd and full offear; like anxious men
Who on wide plains gather in panting troops,
When earthquakes jar their battlements and towers.
Even now, while Saturn, rous'd from icy trance,
Went step for step with Thea through the woods,
Hyperion, leaving twilight in the rear,
Came ***** upon the threshold of the west;
Then, as was wont, his palace-door flew ope
In smoothest silence, save what solemn tubes,
Blown by the serious Zephyrs, gave of sweet
And wandering sounds, slow-breathed melodies;
And like a rose in vermeil tint and shape,
In fragrance soft, and coolness to the eye,
That inlet to severe magnificence
Stood full blown, for the God to enter in.

     He enter'd, but he enter'd full of wrath;
His flaming robes stream'd out beyond his heels,
And gave a roar, as if of earthly fire,
That scar'd away the meek ethereal Hours
And made their dove-wings tremble. On he flared
From stately nave to nave, from vault to vault,
Through bowers of fragrant and enwreathed light,
And diamond-paved lustrous long arcades,
Until he reach'd the great main cupola;
There standing fierce beneath, he stampt his foot,
And from the basements deep to the high towers
Jarr'd his own golden region; and before
The quavering thunder thereupon had ceas'd,
His voice leapt out, despite of godlike curb,
To this result: "O dreams of day and night!
O monstrous forms! O effigies of pain!
O spectres busy in a cold, cold gloom!
O lank-eared phantoms of black-weeded pools!
Why do I know ye? why have I seen ye? why
Is my eternal essence thus distraught
To see and to behold these horrors new?
Saturn is fallen, am I too to fall?
Am I to leave this haven of my rest,
This cradle of my glory, this soft clime,
This calm luxuriance of blissful light,
These crystalline pavilions, and pure fanes,
Of all my lucent empire?  It is left
Deserted, void, nor any haunt of mine.
The blaze, the splendor, and the symmetry,
I cannot see but darkness, death, and darkness.
Even here, into my centre of repose,
The shady visions come to domineer,
Insult, and blind, and stifle up my pomp.---
Fall!---No, by Tellus and her briny robes!
Over the fiery frontier of my realms
I will advance a terrible right arm
Shall scare that infant thunderer, rebel Jove,
And bid old Saturn take his throne again."---
He spake, and ceas'd, the while a heavier threat
Held struggle with his throat but came not forth;
For as in theatres of crowded men
Hubbub increases more they call out "Hush!"
So at Hyperion's words the phantoms pale
Bestirr'd themselves, thrice horrible and cold;
And from the mirror'd level where he stood
A mist arose, as from a scummy marsh.
At this, through all his bulk an agony
Crept gradual, from the feet unto the crown,
Like a lithe serpent vast and muscular
Making slow way, with head and neck convuls'd
From over-strained might.  Releas'd, he fled
To the eastern gates, and full six dewy hours
Before the dawn in season due should blush,
He breath'd fierce breath against the sleepy portals,
Clear'd them of heavy vapours, burst them wide
Suddenly on the ocean's chilly streams.
The planet orb of fire, whereon he rode
Each day from east to west the heavens through,
Spun round in sable curtaining of clouds;
Not therefore veiled quite, blindfold, and hid,
But ever and anon the glancing spheres,
Circles, and arcs, and broad-belting colure,
Glow'd through, and wrought upon the muffling dark
Sweet-shaped lightnings from the nadir deep
Up to the zenith,---hieroglyphics old,
Which sages and keen-eyed astrologers
Then living on the earth, with laboring thought
Won from the gaze of many centuries:
Now lost, save what we find on remnants huge
Of stone, or rnarble swart; their import gone,
Their wisdom long since fled.---Two wings this orb
Possess'd for glory, two fair argent wings,
Ever exalted at the God's approach:
And now, from forth the gloom their plumes immense
Rose, one by one, till all outspreaded were;
While still the dazzling globe maintain'd eclipse,
Awaiting for Hyperion's command.
Fain would he have commanded, fain took throne
And bid the day begin, if but for change.
He might not:---No, though a primeval God:
The sacred seasons might not be disturb'd.
Therefore the operations of the dawn
Stay'd in their birth, even as here 'tis told.
Those silver wings expanded sisterly,
Eager to sail their orb; the porches wide
Open'd upon the dusk demesnes of night
And the bright Titan, phrenzied with new woes,
Unus'd to bend, by hard compulsion bent
His spirit to the sorrow of the time;
And all along a dismal rack of clouds,
Upon the boundaries of day and night,
He stretch'd himself in grief and radiance faint.
There as he lay, the Heaven with its stars
Look'd down on him with pity, and the voice
Of Coelus, from the universal space,
Thus whisper'd low and solemn in his ear:
"O brightest of my children dear, earth-born
And sky-engendered, son of mysteries
All unrevealed even to the powers
Which met at thy creating; at whose joys
And palpitations sweet, and pleasures soft,
I, Coelus, wonder, how they came and whence;
And at the fruits thereof what shapes they be,
Distinct, and visible; symbols divine,
Manifestations of that beauteous life
Diffus'd unseen throughout eternal space:
Of these new-form'd art thou, O brightest child!
Of these, thy brethren and the Goddesses!
There is sad feud among ye, and rebellion
Of son against his sire.  I saw him fall,
I saw my first-born tumbled from his throne!
To me his arms were spread, to me his voice
Found way from forth the thunders round his head!
Pale wox I, and in vapours hid my face.
Art thou, too, near such doom? vague fear there is:
For I have seen my sons most unlike Gods.
Divine ye were created, and divine
In sad demeanour, solemn, undisturb'd,
Unruffled, like high Gods, ye liv'd and ruled:
Now I behold in you fear, hope, and wrath;
Actions of rage and passion; even as
I see them, on the mortal world beneath,
In men who die.---This is the grief, O son!
Sad sign of ruin, sudden dismay, and fall!
Yet do thou strive; as thou art capable,
As thou canst move about, an evident God;
And canst oppose to each malignant hour
Ethereal presence:---I am but a voice;
My life is but the life of winds and tides,
No more than winds and tides can I avail:---
But thou canst.---Be thou therefore in the van
Of circumstance; yea, seize the arrow's barb
Before the tense string murmur.---To the earth!
For there thou wilt find Saturn, and his woes.
Meantime I will keep watch on thy bright sun,
And of thy seasons be a careful nurse."---
Ere half this region-whisper had come down,
Hyperion arose, and on the stars
Lifted his curved lids, and kept them wide
Until it ceas'd; and still he kept them wide:
And still they were the same bright, patient stars.
Then with a slow incline of his broad breast,
Like to a diver in the pearly seas,
Forward he stoop'd over the airy shore,
And plung'd all noiseless into the deep night.

BOOK II

Just at the self-same beat of Time's wide wings
Hyperion slid into the rustled air,
And Saturn gain'd with Thea that sad place
Where Cybele and the bruised Titans mourn'd.
It was a den where no insulting light
Could glimmer on their tears; where their own groans
They felt, but heard not, for the solid roar
Of thunderous waterfalls and torrents hoarse,
Pouring a constant bulk, uncertain where.
Crag jutting forth to crag, and rocks that seem'd
Ever as if just rising from a sleep,
Forehead to forehead held their monstrous horns;
And thus in thousand hugest phantasies
Made a fit roofing to this nest of woe.
Instead of thrones, hard flint they sat upon,
Couches of rugged stone, and slaty ridge
Stubborn'd with iron.  All were not assembled:
Some chain'd in torture, and some wandering.
Caus, and Gyges, and Briareus,
Ty
Mary Stanworth May 2012
I know I have to say goodbye
I know that you went
Because you needed to go
But I don’t want to say farewell forever
Caus I’m not ready

If I say goodbye who do I go to
Where do I go to when I need you.
You always knew just what to do
I don’t want to say farewell forever
Caus I’m not ready

When I say goodbye will you leave
And will you return in my time of need
To set me on the straight and narrow
I don’t want to say farewell forever
Caus I’m not ready

I know I have to say goodbye
My heart breaks to know its time
I know we still have that connection
Me in this world you in yours
I don’t want to say farewell forever
Deep breathe….i’m nearly ready.
Mary Stanworth May 2012
I carry a suitcase just like everyone else
Collection of baggage from times long past
But today I decide to unpack
To throw all the unhappiness out
And gently fold the good memories up
That my life so seemed to lack.
All the memories set me up to be armed.
To battle through unhappy times
To realise that these came my way
To build a character that stands here today.
I am afraid of what the future holds?
No not me…anticipation of times yet to come
Caus with my little suitcase I know I will find a way
To gently pack more happy memories away
An throw away the bad
Leave them behind
To keep building my character and strength
People always knew I had .
It’s time for me to shine and smile
Caus the loads a lot lighter in this suitcase of mine.
Mary Stanworth May 2012
Don’t make promises that you can’t keep
Don’t smile caus you think we need it
Don’t hold just for the sake of it
You know we deserve better

Just be honest that’s all I ask
Smile caus your happy
Hold someone caus you love them
You know we deserve better

Look with truth in your eyes
Use words with meaning
Embrace what makes you smile
You know we deserve better

Life is hard being on your own
Even harder being with a partner
Both pulling in different directions
You know we deserve better

We were always meant for different roads
Shouldn’t be bitter about our time
We learnt that we weren’t matched
It’ time to move on, and find something better.
Mary Stanworth Apr 2012
I try to figure out what love is all about
Sit and ponder, walk and wonder
And still no answer comes to me.

What I thought was love, was it really
What I thought was good, was it really
Caus  im left feeling empty and alone.

Was it something I said
Was it something I did
Caus  im left feeling low and confused.

Surely the answer is out there
Surely these questions should be answered
Caus no one should be left not knowing.

I try to figure out what love is all about
Sit and ponder, walk and wonder
And still no answer comes to me.........
Mary Stanworth Jan 2013
Just a girl
Elbows on the window sill
Head in her hands
Watching the rain splash on the window
Distorting the view
Making shapes and colours
As the rain drops fall.
A shiver
She wraps her arms around her
Wishing its was someone else’s strong arms
Takes a jumper
Caus she knows it’s the only fluffy warm feeling
She will feel in a while.
Just a girl
Looking through the window
Wondering who is out there
Is there someone out there for me
Pulling the jumper tighter
Head back in her hands
Watching the rain
Distorting the view ……….
Unknown Jul 2018
i feel my life fading in front of my eyes..
i try to catch it but it just keeps moving further away...

it feels like im not real, im not alive in this cycle of life.
and i dont want to keep fighting this monster inside.

i need healing, im so far behind.
but i know no one can fix me so... why even try?

im full of emotions and i just cant explain them...
its like am i alive, am i even in control of my own ******* mind??

caus right now... its dark and there is no light to follow..
im just praying that i can make it to tommorrow...

but if i am to die today, i just want to say
thank you society, for ruining my life.....


© Copyright Tyler Atherton
Pushing Daisies Jan 2015
Rain won't always
make the flowers grow,
Yet I insist on watching,
From behind,
A glass widow.

Condensation,
Stems from beating hearts,
A hot rush of air,
Cannot mask,
My harsh remarks.

No stretch of time can,
Caus the present to pass,
And reveal newly,
Bloomed petals,
From the brown and brittle grass.

Rain won't always,
Make the flowers grow,
Yet I smother,
All the seeds,
We have to sow.
Mary Stanworth Jun 2012
Why do people stay silent
When they have so much to say?
Why do people assume
That they know what you’re thinking?
When you haven’t the foggiest idea yourself!
But then I stop and catch myself
Caus I do the same……
Words hurt, truth hurts better left unsaid
Thoughts flying around the brain,
Which one do I catch first?
What the hell am I thinking?
But then I stop and catch myself
Caus I’m not going to do the same
I’m not going to stay silent
I’m going to speak my mind
I have so much to say
No more assumptions
From you or me
      Its about time we let our thoughts fly free……
BLACK MOON May 2015
It was the first time, when I saw her
It was not the First time, when I saw her
She was my college Junior
For more than 3 years

but the day has come when I saw her first time.

It was on an occasion
the occasion was my college fest
She was anchor and I was with my friend
We met and spoke many things
and it was all special to me

I was committed to a girl
The girl whom I thought was a world to me
But this world was just an imagination
As I loved her
and she never bothered

So when I met her
All I could see, was her beautiful eyes
Eyes, which are so magical
and that magic was already done on me

Slowly
I recovered
I understood my Life

Slowly
I realized
I found my real world

As she came into my Life
She showed my the Truth
Truth and meaning of Life
Life is so precious
As she had become a part of it.

Today I am Happy and Glad
'caus everyday is like the first day
First day of our Love
and its just been 3 years.....

God Bless Us :)
The wires sprouting from my chest
they protect my heart
like it's covered by a kevlar vest
and they run
from my core
all the way down to my feet
and back up again
to wrap me in a subtle need
for solitude and solidarity
it's all over
there's nothing left to see
I self-destructed
and pulled myself together
one too many times it seems
because something is missing
something is not as it should be

So let's not focus on the past
when we've got this bright future
spitting in our faces
and what's left to love?
I find nothing worth speaking of
until we learn to restore our trust
we speak only lies
and we breathe only dust
and we're weakened by time
until our figures disgust ourselves
can we escape this hell?
can we ever help?
I'm trying to forget
everything that I've felt
and just start clean
but we fiend for that opposition
we all wanna see their rendition of us
to peek at their position
in this race to turn to rust

But the sun will rise again
and someday we'll all be free from ourselves
I just hope we're here
to find out if it happens
I just hope we're here
to find out if it works
caus'e that's when we'll build our plan of action
constructed from our blood, sweat, tears
the dirt from our hands over the years
I hope one day
we forget to feed our fears
**** Editing.
Amber Ily Lee Jun 2010
I cant help but still
love you with all my will
so come here and stay
I say this is a dream
no its not its reality

I will be reliving this moment
for the rest of my life
with you sometimes me might,
we might fight and be mad at each other
but we'll still like one another

I cant help but say and be
loving cause cupid got me
he got me with the first glance at you
the arrow i didnt need it to love you
but lets be together cause cupid got me

Lets stick on one log in the river
we stop to stay to float in the river
away our love is together saved

were the team that comes alive
we can kiss and survive
she is dumb for giving you up
thats not me i feel cupped
and pressured to love and I do

I keep gettin nervous
oh no sweatin
your my light
you knock out my fright

You are there
holding me when I'm scared
I'm not just liking
but I'm loving
is rarely done
I hold you preciously
caus guess what cupid got me!
Mary Stanworth Mar 2012
I look in the mirror
And what do I see
My face looking right back at me
I shake my head and hope to see
The real person staring back at me

Behind the eyes confusion and stress
But a smile that looks so fresh
No signs of unhappiness can be seen
In the face looking back at me.

Contradictions too many to list
Are hidden within the face I see
Torment ,happiness, anger, love
Should I really show them
In the face looking back at me.

Caus really who wants to see
All these things happening to me
Not even I acknowledge the facts
And hide them so no one can see
In the face looking back at me

I need to find the inner strength
That everyone else can see inside of me
Once these things are all aligned
There be no more hiding the real me
In the face looking back at me .
Mary Stanworth May 2012
I want….is a demand
I need ….is a desire
I want to talk
I need to talk
I want you to listen
I need you to listen
I want to be held
I need to be held
I want you to touch me
I need you to touch me
I want a kiss
I need a kiss
I think I have what I need, a desire
And I don’t want what I wanted
I’m working through the differences
Caus the need comes freely
The demand has a too high a cost  ……..
droppin off of the face of the earth
so ******* and ******* betta make a wide birth
im destroyin cities
grabbin *******
causin ****** choas
YOU ******* WANNA GET CROSSED??
my brains gone n busted
YOU THINK I CAN BE TRUSTED?
give me your babies and keys
or dont ill just ****** rob these
houses and homes and GARDEN GNOMES
And WE'LL SEE WHOS REALLY CRAZY
im tellin ya it obviously aint me!
im as psychologically stable as can be!
ya see my doctor says i should lays in bed
pretend for all the world to be dead
he said eat fat foods and shoot up them noobs
no eating your greens
no ******* sweet dreams
and make sure from the sun you hide
just remember ya lil **** dont ******* go outside
well now ive been
so here comes sin
put away your fragile psychi
caus this ******* gotta psych-plee
i was born for one reason
to commit massive human treason
to be the human A explosion
giving way to the long awaited erosion
of you
ya stinky piece a poo
Sarah-Jane Platt May 2010
Go into the city to hide from the crowds
Escape from the silence; its much much too loud.
Bury your soul in a graveyard of cares
Try not to flinch from the hate in their stares.
You feel you could die, and no-one would know
'Caus you're just an outcast with no place to go.
It's right that you hate that small voice in your brain,
See, that's why you ******* up again and again.
You've ruined your future; what would Mummy say?
It's your mind which they'll judge when it's Judgement Day
Don't wait till then; it's time to die now
Do you think you'll be missed?
You doubt it somehow.
BLACK MOON May 2015
Its been a month, when I last saw you
There was a strom, when I last held you

There were big drops, hitting our faces
There was no one, still we kept walking

Dragging your laguage, taking u to bus stand
I was sad, all deep inside

We had a querel, when the rain started
You didn't speak, You didn't look at me

I did everything, what ever I can do
I cheered and laughed and pleaded but nothing worked

Then I was sad and cried and I dont know what was left
I left and came back caus I cant leave you

Every bus passed by, was striking me deep inside
like a pin, poking in my heart

she came and calmed me down
but the buses kept string my heart

Finally she left and I stayed behind
as she came to visit me.

I was happy and sad and wish to see her soon..!!!
Dawn King Jan 2015
Uno
single as a pringle and i like it that way
been a one gal show for years now, okay?
the best bed mate i ever had is my dog
she makes cute snores when she sleeps
and doesn't mess up my house
she only eats kibble, and listens to my beats

sure I get lonely, I get tired, life’s hard
but let me tell you something Mr. narrow minded louse
you think you have what it takes to get me in the sack?
caus you have a job, a ****, and truck with a gun rack?
you may be a tall drink of water on a sweat hot day
but open your mouth once and it’s a dead give away

I need kind and gentle and good conversation
to teach and learn with some motivation
on fire passion and serious connection

I've already lost you, it’s not worth the trouble
go home to your mama and pop your Bud Light
cry and whine about the utter ***** you met tonight
borrow twenty bucks and get a 12 pack
then go find a ditz to rub your back

check this out, I've got a plan
I’ll go home by myself yet again
without your number, don’t need another friend
I’m fine by myself, just me and my dog
I’ll wait until the next life just watch me
because honey, being alone trumps misery
Mary Stanworth Mar 2012
I carry a heavy heart
That seldom people see
I share the brave face
Stiff upper lip
Cause no one likes a misery .

Do you carry a heavy heart
That seldom people see
Do you share the brave face
The stiff upper lip
And told no one likes a misery

I question you, caus I can see
The heavy heart same as me
We share the same face
The same stiff upper lip
As we can’t show misery…as it tells too much.
Mary Stanworth May 2012
Direct me …. I ask myself
My heart says yes
My brain says no
Oh why am I arguing with myself?
Weigh up the pros and cons
Think logically…..
But the heart cant do that
Ok think emotionally
That should solve it
But something doesn’t feel right
Oh why am I arguing with myself?
Why is making a decision so very hard
Caus my decision affects so many
Do I do selfish
Or do I do for the better good
My head is starting to hurt
Oh why oh why am I arguing with myself ?????
Mary Stanworth Jun 2012
I smiled today just caus I could
Strange feeling you know
This smiling malarky
It shook me a bit
A weight lifted

Smiled
For the sad times and the good
Realised that im ok
Weird isnt it
When you think you wont make it
And you do,in one piece

Smiled
To know that not everything has to make sense
That there wont every be answers to everything
That in life you have to have
The wonder ,the tease and the anticipation
I smiled today just because I knew I could :)
Mary Stanworth May 2012
Why did you
No answer…….
I wait
Still no answer!
Can you hear me ?
No answer…..
I wait
Still no answer!
Why don’t you respond?
No answer…..
I wait
Still no answer!
Oh I forgot
Your no longer here
I close my eyes
And there you are
Answers……..
Caus I had too
Yes I can hear you
I will when you need me
I will always be here
Just close your eyes
I never really left!
Dwayne Dewar May 2014
Why is life always so emotional,,sometimes I swear my heart feels sore,
,pleeease help me through the the night
turn my nightmares into streams of lightttttttttt

Why do I feel the world's so cold could it be caus I'm alll alone
Please help me to do what's rightttt
turn my dark days into streams of lightttt

As I sit and reflect as I write these words
I feel confused and consumed by nerves
Please  help me through this life....
Give me the faith that I lost when my father died...
Mary Stanworth Nov 2012
Written this before.....
But you’re still not listening
You’re not hearing what I say
Are you looking at me ?
Caus if you are turn around
Look in the mirror and see what I see.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
So open your eyes and behold.
A strong soul
A beautiful smile
A twinkle in the eye
A glow in the cheeks.
Look behind the anger
The tears you have wiped away
The fears you still hold
Breathe.......
I need you to look in the mirror and see what we all see
A beautiful YOU !
Lb Jun 2014
***
I war with you daily

I war with you when I go to eat because of what that might do to me.

I war with you when I get ready in the mornings , you control how much of myself I want to hide behind a china doll facade , a face etched in make up

I war with you evry time I look in a mirror and you make me take multiple spare items of clothing "just in case"

I war with you every time I have to be somewhere at a certain time. you have me setting clocks forward, So I'll never be late.

I war with you every time I enter a space full of people , you make my heart pound and race. you make me sit there with headphones blasting to avoid  any form of social interaction

I war with you every time I meet new people and make me socially inept and incapable of communicating. you make me nod and squeak my opinions. You make me quiet and agree

I war with you every time something goes wrong and you send me into a deep panic followed by a melancholy pit.

You scare me because you shut me out and now I don't have any one left to run to, you are my own fault, caus I let you win by caring about each battle I have with you

I war with you and you will forever win
My anxiety just continues
Mary Stanworth Jul 2012
Why do people leave and take so much
Just wondering how many pieces I’ve got left.
Can handle the objects leaving my life
Have the memories of those all in my head.
Just the tearing of the heart strings that hurt so much
Looking for something to fill this void
Hate the emptiness that’s been left in my life
Caus people have left and taken so much
Sat wondering how many pieces I have left !!!
Lb Oct 2016
eject eject
there's no backspace
where is delete

whats done has been done
now hes crying at her feet

lifeless they lay
only he is to blame

if only she listened
but instead her eyes  glisten
to the sound of only his name
but witjout knowing he was insane

an easy fix
itll just take some time

you chose his company over mine


and now look what youve done
yet its only begun

see i saw this  mum
i could see this coming
you stopped and stayed but i kept on running


we've been to a place not as bad as this before
yet its like we've just gone into a second round of war

we know what its like when they lay a hand
so why would you go back are you crazy or just sad

would you not rather be alone
then to die at his throne


today isnt the day but
tomrrow could be the one

have you not thought this through?
how this effecs me and you

and lets not forget bout my sister
she thnks shes being raised by a minister

but al i see is a wolf in sheepskin
his patenice with her is wewaing  rather thin

see its only a matter of time
mum you cant hit rewind

but can hit her and caus he already hits you

your a lost cause
we're all holding the applause

just let her go you know shell be safer
becuase   she is destined for a life  so much greater
Lb Sep 2014
I think it's my fault, it always is.

I get too attached.

I'm just too needy

Sometimes I just enter a melancholic state of fear that ill **** it all up, caus that's what I always do.

I care too much and I strangle the life out of it

I'm that scared in going to lose you and I couldn't handle that, and yes I know how selfish I'm being but I just can't help it .
You're the only person I want to talk to.
You're the only person I would do anything for.

I'm sorry I care too much.

I'm sorry the way I show I care just comes off as clingy and needy.
Rudra Sharma Apr 2016
An undying bond to guide us free

Loneliness blocking the day

Our Love lighting the way.

My gentle touch

Your smiling face

There is no corner

No dark place

Your wake up calls

Our roaming in malls

Your cute dimple

Making my life joyous from simple

I wish i could spend more time with u

So that i could know about your life better than u

When u get tensed

You make me nervous

And everything becomes a fuss

I cannot see you cry

Bcauz it makes my inner soul dry

So be happy and live your life

And dont worry

I ll be there with a knife

For every obstacle in your life

My days are going wonderful

Caus my day starts and ends with u

Our love, withstanding time

Diminishing doubt, in our mind

There is no place I rather be…

Than in your heart and in your dreams…
Badonko Jul 2016
Just started to write
Hope it rhymes

English is still cool thou
Caus yo get to write things like bruh


Step by step you get ahead
But there is no way
We are already perfect
No purpose to convey


The poets are different, peoms the same
How long the power to give them fame?
People read it and let it behind
For mortal is the mind

See a drunkard who dance
Has the blissfullest glance

So sing, dance and  give!
True religion is to live!
You were always there for me,
You held the key,
To my heart,
But somebody turned the card,
You somehow got lost in your tracks,
And you forgot the facts,
You were somehow not there anymore,
You walked out the door,
I couldn't see you and I felt so alone,
From that day on you were gone,
And I swear I don't know what went wrong,
But I'm missing you from that day on,
I cannot live without you,
Don't know what to do,
Everyday that passes by,
I cry,
Every tear that falls down here,
Is a memory of you wishing you could hear,
Me crying out for your love,
'Cause there's just nothing above,
I love you so much,
And I know you love me still, 'cause,
I feel you in my heart still,
Only if you would come back I could find the will,
To carry on again, I would be so glad,
If I would see you again, without you everything feels so bad,
My heart is bruised and broken,
A kind of loneliness has stroke,
And I can't breath without you,
And I can't see without you,
Every night you're on my mind,
By candlelight I pray for the will to fight,
Against the feeling of emptiness,
But it somehow infatuates me and I return trying to stop the crying until dust,
I can't take it anymore,
I can't sleep anymore,
I can't eat anymore,
I can't sleep anymore,
I can't dream anymore,
I can't love anyone anymore,
Only you, 'Caus you have a part of me,
Can't you see,
If you would come back to me,
How happy I would be,
I miss you, so much, I linger for you, Come back,
Somehow you are gone,
But I can still see you,
But it's just a memory,
Without you I only worry,
Why are you gone?
A part of me has left me alone,
I've missed you,
Why are you gone?

— The End —