"caus" poems
Just a girl
Elbows on the window sill
Head in her hands
Watching the rain splash on the window
Distorting the view
Making shapes and colours
As the rain drops fall.
A shiver
She wraps her arms around her
Wishing its was someone else’s strong arms
Takes a jumper
Caus she knows it’s the only fluffy warm feeling
She will feel in a while.
Just a girl
Looking through the window
Wondering who is out there
Is there someone out there for me
Pulling the jumper tighter
Head back in her hands
Watching the rain
Distorting the view ……….
Jan 8, 2013
Jan 8, 2013 at 3:59 AM UTC
I carry a suitcase just like everyone else
Collection of baggage from times long past
But today I decide to unpack
To throw all the unhappiness out
And gently fold the good memories up
That my life so seemed to lack.
All the memories set me up to be armed.
To battle through unhappy times
To realise that these came my way
To build a character that stands here today.
I am afraid of what the future holds?
No not me…anticipation of times yet to come
Caus with my little suitcase I know I will find a way
To gently pack more happy memories away
An throw away the bad
Leave them behind
To keep building my character and strength
People always knew I had .
It’s time for me to shine and smile
Caus the loads a lot lighter in this suitcase of mine.
May 16, 2012
May 16, 2012 at 1:10 PM UTC
i feel my life fading in front of my eyes..
i try to catch it but it just keeps moving further away...
it feels like im not real, im not alive in this cycle of life.
and i dont want to keep fighting this monster inside.
i need healing, im so far behind.
but i know no one can fix me so... why even try?
im full of emotions and i just cant explain them...
its like am i alive, am i even in control of my own ******* mind??
caus right now... its dark and there is no light to follow..
im just praying that i can make it to tommorrow...
but if i am to die today, i just want to say
thank you society, for ruining my life.....
© Copyright Tyler Atherton
Jul 11, 2018
Jul 11, 2018 at 2:19 AM UTC
I'm sitting in my office with wild imaginations
I sit on my chair and roll..
I hold my pen to write wild imaginations
but the pen don't touch the pad..
The thoughts run wild no less than a mad scientist
I wish I can go live crazy
but world with rules and regulations
close my feelings in my boots..
wild imaginations.. wild imaginations.. the wild imaginations are coming through
Don't dare to hold me.. don't dare to mold me 'caus I will blast out loud
I am gonna work on my wild stuff
but I need to start
Start is not a problem, 'caus it has already started
but the problem is to finish the work..
I'm sitting in my office with wild imaginations
I m sitting on my chair and to work
but the work is not interesting 'caus the thoughts are wild
people will never understand my world...
May 2, 2015
May 2, 2015 at 1:17 AM UTC
Rain won't always
make the flowers grow,
Yet I insist on watching,
From behind,
A glass widow.
Condensation,
Stems from beating hearts,
A hot rush of air,
Cannot mask,
My harsh remarks.
No stretch of time can,
Caus the present to pass,
And reveal newly,
Bloomed petals,
From the brown and brittle grass.
Rain won't always,
Make the flowers grow,
Yet I smother,
All the seeds,
We have to sow.
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 12:45 PM UTC
It was the first time, when I saw her
It was not the First time, when I saw her
She was my college Junior
For more than 3 years
but the day has come when I saw her first time.
It was on an occasion
the occasion was my college fest
She was anchor and I was with my friend
We met and spoke many things
and it was all special to me
I was committed to a girl
The girl whom I thought was a world to me
But this world was just an imagination
As I loved her
and she never bothered
So when I met her
All I could see, was her beautiful eyes
Eyes, which are so magical
and that magic was already done on me
Slowly
I recovered
I understood my Life
Slowly
I realized
I found my real world
As she came into my Life
She showed my the Truth
Truth and meaning of Life
Life is so precious
As she had become a part of it.
Today I am Happy and Glad
'caus everyday is like the first day
First day of our Love
and its just been 3 years.....
God Bless Us :)
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 12:32 AM UTC
With the sky turning orange
You load up your syringe
And shoot up, right into the heart
Lying back in surrender
That face, once so tender
Was doomed in this game right from the start
And you'll steal and you'll lie
And you'd **** to get by
And it ain't that much fun anymore
But you're in far too deep
'Caus this game plays for keeps
And you're fighting your own private war
What do I have to do to make you listen?
What do I have to do to make you learn?
What do I have to say to make you realise
That you're just taking your turn
And despite that special buzz
You're not special anymore
'Caus you're dying from the inside
Like so many before
And it still goes on....
When you think Life's a downer
Take an upper to counter
Till you don't know what you really feel
And you're starting to fear it
But Want just won't hear it
Won't admit that your world isn't real
And you've stolen; you've lied
Guess you'd **** to get by
And you've just lost the will to say "No"
How'd it start, one small pill?
Now you're in for the ****
Did you think it would let you let go?
What do I have to do to make you listen?
What do I have to do to make you learn?
What do I have to say to make you realise
That you're just taking your turn
And despite that special buzz
You're not special anymore
'Caus you're dying from the inside
Like so many before
And it still goes on....
And it still goes on
Day after day it still goes on
Nobody can say
How it will end
How will you die?
Alone, without friends?
Have you the strength
To do what it takes?
I know the answer
And my heart breaks
For you
With the sky blue and sunny
The warm scent of honey
Finally bright colour floods your world
Red as strawberries, as roses
Your mind finally closes
You find peace as the death colour pearls
And you've stolen, you've lied
And you've killed to get by
Did you realise you'd died long ago?
Yes, we all tried to save you
Didn't need us, oh brave you
You just turned away, just said "No"
Couldn't do a thing to make you listen
Couldn't say a word to make you learn
Couldn't make the sense to make you realise
You were just taking your turn
And despite that special buzz
You're not special anymore
'Caus you're gone, dead and buried
Like so many before
And it still goes on.
May 12, 2010
May 12, 2010 at 5:56 AM UTC
The wires sprouting from my chest
they protect my heart
like it's covered by a kevlar vest
and they run
from my core
all the way down to my feet
and back up again
to wrap me in a subtle need
for solitude and solidarity
it's all over
there's nothing left to see
I self-destructed
and pulled myself together
one too many times it seems
because something is missing
something is not as it should be
So let's not focus on the past
when we've got this bright future
spitting in our faces
and what's left to love?
I find nothing worth speaking of
until we learn to restore our trust
we speak only lies
and we breathe only dust
and we're weakened by time
until our figures disgust ourselves
can we escape this hell?
can we ever help?
I'm trying to forget
everything that I've felt
and just start clean
but we fiend for that opposition
we all wanna see their rendition of us
to peek at their position
in this race to turn to rust
But the sun will rise again
and someday we'll all be free from ourselves
I just hope we're here
to find out if it happens
I just hope we're here
to find out if it works
caus'e that's when we'll build our plan of action
constructed from our blood, sweat, tears
the dirt from our hands over the years
I hope one day
we forget to feed our fears
Dec 29, 2010
Dec 29, 2010 at 6:29 PM UTC
I know I have to say goodbye
I know that you went
Because you needed to go
But I don’t want to say farewell forever
Caus I’m not ready
If I say goodbye who do I go to
Where do I go to when I need you.
You always knew just what to do
I don’t want to say farewell forever
Caus I’m not ready
When I say goodbye will you leave
And will you return in my time of need
To set me on the straight and narrow
I don’t want to say farewell forever
Caus I’m not ready
I know I have to say goodbye
My heart breaks to know its time
I know we still have that connection
Me in this world you in yours
I don’t want to say farewell forever
Deep breathe….i’m nearly ready.
May 20, 2012
May 20, 2012 at 11:47 AM UTC
I cant help but still
love you with all my will
so come here and stay
I say this is a dream
no its not its reality
I will be reliving this moment
for the rest of my life
with you sometimes me might,
we might fight and be mad at each other
but we'll still like one another
I cant help but say and be
loving cause cupid got me
he got me with the first glance at you
the arrow i didnt need it to love you
but lets be together cause cupid got me
Lets stick on one log in the river
we stop to stay to float in the river
away our love is together saved
were the team that comes alive
we can kiss and survive
she is dumb for giving you up
thats not me i feel cupped
and pressured to love and I do
I keep gettin nervous
oh no sweatin
your my light
you knock out my fright
You are there
holding me when I'm scared
I'm not just liking
but I'm loving
is rarely done
I hold you preciously
caus guess what cupid got me!
Jun 19, 2010
Jun 19, 2010 at 4:34 PM UTC
I look in the mirror
And what do I see
My face looking right back at me
I shake my head and hope to see
The real person staring back at me
Behind the eyes confusion and stress
But a smile that looks so fresh
No signs of unhappiness can be seen
In the face looking back at me.
Contradictions too many to list
Are hidden within the face I see
Torment ,happiness, anger, love
Should I really show them
In the face looking back at me.
Caus really who wants to see
All these things happening to me
Not even I acknowledge the facts
And hide them so no one can see
In the face looking back at me
I need to find the inner strength
That everyone else can see inside of me
Once these things are all aligned
There be no more hiding the real me
In the face looking back at me .
Mar 31, 2012
Mar 31, 2012 at 9:51 AM UTC
droppin off of the face of the earth
so ******* and ******** betta make a wide birth
im destroyin cities
grabbin *******
causin ****** choas
YOU ******* WANNA GET CROSSED??
my brains gone n busted
YOU THINK I CAN BE TRUSTED?
give me your babies and keys
or dont ill just ****** rob these
houses and homes and GARDEN GNOMES
And WE'LL SEE WHOS REALLY CRAZY
im tellin ya it obviously aint me!
im as psychologically stable as can be!
ya see my doctor says i should lays in bed
pretend for all the world to be dead
he said eat fat foods and shoot up them noobs
no eating your greens
no god **** sweet dreams
and make sure from the sun you hide
just remember ya lil **** dont ******* go outside
well now ive been
so here comes sin
put away your fragile psychi
caus this ******* gotta psych-plee
i was born for one reason
to commit massive human treason
to be the human A explosion
giving way to the long awaited erosion
of you
ya stinky piece a poo
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 3:16 PM UTC
Don’t make promises that you can’t keep
Don’t smile caus you think we need it
Don’t hold just for the sake of it
You know we deserve better
Just be honest that’s all I ask
Smile caus your happy
Hold someone caus you love them
You know we deserve better
Look with truth in your eyes
Use words with meaning
Embrace what makes you smile
You know we deserve better
Life is hard being on your own
Even harder being with a partner
Both pulling in different directions
You know we deserve better
We were always meant for different roads
Shouldn’t be bitter about our time
We learnt that we weren’t matched
It’ time to move on, and find something better.
May 27, 2012
May 27, 2012 at 1:01 PM UTC
Why do things go pear shaped?
Feeling in the depth of the stomach
Dread and feeling sick.
Just as you think you turn a corner
Your tripped up before getting so near.
Why do we let our walls down?
Caus we think things are going so well
You think from past experiences
You’d see the signs, but oh no !
Not even when they are smacking us in the face
Do we notice that things just arent right.
Why do people say they love you?
Caus they do in thier own strange way
Its just not the love they think we really need
Laughing at yourself, crying by yourself
The frustration and waiting for something real.
Why do things go pear shaped?
Caus we dont really want to see!
Why do we let our walls down?
Caus were are suckers for love!
Why do people say they love us?
Caus they know thats what we want to hear !!
Jun 17, 2012
Jun 17, 2012 at 11:03 AM UTC
Go into the city to hide from the crowds
Escape from the silence; its much much too loud.
Bury your soul in a graveyard of cares
Try not to flinch from the hate in their stares.
You feel you could die, and no-one would know
'Caus you're just an outcast with no place to go.
It's right that you hate that small voice in your brain,
See, that's why you ******* up again and again.
You've ruined your future; what would Mummy say?
It's your mind which they'll judge when it's Judgement Day
Don't wait till then; it's time to die now
Do you think you'll be missed?
You doubt it somehow.
May 12, 2010
May 12, 2010 at 5:32 AM UTC
Its been a month, when I last saw you
There was a strom, when I last held you
There were big drops, hitting our faces
There was no one, still we kept walking
Dragging your laguage, taking u to bus stand
I was sad, all deep inside
We had a querel, when the rain started
You didn't speak, You didn't look at me
I did everything, what ever I can do
I cheered and laughed and pleaded but nothing worked
Then I was sad and cried and I dont know what was left
I left and came back caus I cant leave you
Every bus passed by, was striking me deep inside
like a pin, poking in my heart
she came and calmed me down
but the buses kept string my heart
Finally she left and I stayed behind
as she came to visit me.
I was happy and sad and wish to see her soon..!!!
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 2:28 AM UTC
I want….is a demand
I need ….is a desire
I want to talk
I need to talk
I want you to listen
I need you to listen
I want to be held
I need to be held
I want you to touch me
I need you to touch me
I want a kiss
I need a kiss
I think I have what I need, a desire
And I don’t want what I wanted
I’m working through the differences
Caus the need comes freely
The demand has a too high a cost ……..
May 9, 2012
May 9, 2012 at 12:43 PM UTC
Why do people stay silent
When they have so much to say?
Why do people assume
That they know what you’re thinking?
When you haven’t the foggiest idea yourself!
But then I stop and catch myself
Caus I do the same……
Words hurt, truth hurts better left unsaid
Thoughts flying around the brain,
Which one do I catch first?
What the hell am I thinking?
But then I stop and catch myself
Caus I’m not going to do the same
I’m not going to stay silent
I’m going to speak my mind
I have so much to say
No more assumptions
From you or me
Its about time we let our thoughts fly free……
Jun 11, 2012
Jun 11, 2012 at 3:47 PM UTC
I carry a heavy heart
That seldom people see
I share the brave face
Stiff upper lip
Cause no one likes a misery .
Do you carry a heavy heart
That seldom people see
Do you share the brave face
The stiff upper lip
And told no one likes a misery
I question you, caus I can see
The heavy heart same as me
We share the same face
The same stiff upper lip
As we can’t show misery…as it tells too much.
Mar 29, 2012
Mar 29, 2012 at 3:17 PM UTC
Direct me …. I ask myself
My heart says yes
My brain says no
Oh why am I arguing with myself?
Weigh up the pros and cons
Think logically…..
But the heart cant do that
Ok think emotionally
That should solve it
But something doesn’t feel right
Oh why am I arguing with myself?
Why is making a decision so very hard
Caus my decision affects so many
Do I do selfish
Or do I do for the better good
My head is starting to hurt
Oh why oh why am I arguing with myself ?????
May 13, 2012
May 13, 2012 at 9:24 AM UTC
Why is life always so emotional,,sometimes I swear my heart feels sore,
,pleeease help me through the the night
turn my nightmares into streams of lightttttttttt
Why do I feel the world's so cold could it be caus I'm alll alone
Please help me to do what's rightttt
turn my dark days into streams of lightttt
As I sit and reflect as I write these words
I feel confused and consumed by nerves
Please help me through this life....
Give me the faith that I lost when my father died...
May 1, 2014
May 1, 2014 at 4:02 PM UTC
I smiled today just caus I could
Strange feeling you know
This smiling malarky
It shook me a bit
A weight lifted
Smiled
For the sad times and the good
Realised that im ok
Weird isnt it
When you think you wont make it
And you do,in one piece
Smiled
To know that not everything has to make sense
That there wont every be answers to everything
That in life you have to have
The wonder ,the tease and the anticipation
I smiled today just because I knew I could :)
Jun 24, 2012
Jun 24, 2012 at 3:52 PM UTC
I try to figure out what love is all about
Sit and ponder, walk and wonder
And still no answer comes to me.
What I thought was love, was it really
What I thought was good, was it really
Caus im left feeling empty and alone.
Was it something I said
Was it something I did
Caus im left feeling low and confused.
Surely the answer is out there
Surely these questions should be answered
Caus no one should be left not knowing.
I try to figure out what love is all about
Sit and ponder, walk and wonder
And still no answer comes to me.........
Apr 1, 2012
Apr 1, 2012 at 5:02 PM UTC
Written this before.....
But you’re still not listening
You’re not hearing what I say
Are you looking at me ?
Caus if you are turn around
Look in the mirror and see what I see.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
So open your eyes and behold.
A strong soul
A beautiful smile
A twinkle in the eye
A glow in the cheeks.
Look behind the anger
The tears you have wiped away
The fears you still hold
Breathe.......
I need you to look in the mirror and see what we all see
A beautiful YOU !
Nov 24, 2012
Nov 24, 2012 at 3:05 PM UTC
Why did you
No answer…….
I wait
Still no answer!
Can you hear me ?
No answer…..
I wait
Still no answer!
Why don’t you respond?
No answer…..
I wait
Still no answer!
Oh I forgot
Your no longer here
I close my eyes
And there you are
Answers……..
Caus I had too
Yes I can hear you
I will when you need me
I will always be here
Just close your eyes
I never really left!
May 23, 2012
May 23, 2012 at 4:40 PM UTC