usagi: Poems

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usagi Sep 2020

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I wana be like poetry
but you don't even like to read

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usagi Apr 2021

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My heart aches
But I can't tell if it aches cause it misses you
or because it misses me.

I've tried every remedy

addict

usagi Oct 2021

addict

I know kissing you is bad for my health
but I rather be high as a kite

you see, thats the dilemma

addicted

usagi Jan 2018

addicted

addicted to the madness
addicted to the sadness

arms never reached

usagi Jan 2023

arms never reached

uncertainty sets me ablaze.
I combust and I implode.

Life revises itself and I lose my balance
I am a child again, feeling unsafe, feeling the floor cave in from under me. My arms outstretched, I reach at everyone and everything just to grasp anything. But everything disintegrates from my grip and I slip through the cracks. Broken bones and bruised, but you tell me heal every time.
How?

lend me your arms

Awareness

usagi Dec 2015

Awareness

Reevaluating the character of people you are bound to is a good way to clear the clutter of your mind

#awareness #clearmind #cleartheclutter

Beautiful Masks

usagi May 2016

Beautiful Masks

Such beautiful masks may conceal the most rancid souls,
but in due time, those masks fall off.
Remember, the use-to-be's, they no longer count,
And in due time, time does heals all.

bitter sweet yu

usagi Feb 2021

bitter sweet yu

you're a salty and sweet dream
praline and cream

Black and white

usagi May 2022

Black and white

Sunny days are what I preferred
I soaked up the lustrous light on my skin
I awoke in hopes for a new day
As I lived for the sun.

Rainy days are now what I prefer,
I unravel my ample and variegated leaves to soak up every drop
The skys gloomy but so familiar
because now I die for the rain.

where is the balance?

blind-eyes

usagi Mar 25

blind-eyes

His gaze told me
he saw me.
and it told me I had never been seen before

Blossoms

usagi Jun 2016

Blossoms

Delicate blossoms, they wither away,
with each passing night she withstands her days.
Her branches are barren, her beauty forgotten,
now down to her core, she looks weak and unwanted.

Despair not, for she will bloom again
despite the anguish and despite any pain.
Resilient by nature, her season will come,
Heavy hearted but rooted, she'll never forget where she is from.

break me more

usagi Jan 2021

break me more

shatter me to specks and flecks
i'd give my heart to you yet again

it was worth it

bumps and bruises

usagi Feb 2016

bumps and bruises

You forgot to love me in the places I am broken
Like the cracks of a frozen lake,
Inevitably I fell through to the cold water
you, out of my reach.

come down

usagi Feb 2021

come down

you used to make me float and fly
now your dose don't even hit
and somehow I don't even get high

what happened, ****?

Comfortable lips

usagi Mar 2018

Comfortable lips

Your lips are so foreign,

I'd like to kiss them until they become home.

#kiss #home #comfort #love

comfort zone

usagi Feb 2018

comfort zone

so comfortable in pain
that I'm uncomfortable in its absence.

#pain #content

constant

usagi Dec 2020

constant

Wreck my sanity
but you'll never wreck me.

cycles

usagi Nov 2020

cycles

I'm not unbreakable--
patch me up anyway

Dark Vial

usagi Mar 2016

Dark Vial

Trying to be with you is like drinking poison.
Continually drinking the vial and then wondering why I’m slowly dying.

Death by Ego

usagi Feb 2018

Death by Ego

i know you want to let go but you don't have to,
i know you been letting go, so now I have to.

deeper

usagi Jan 2021

deeper

pick the shallow girls to feel deep again

Defeated

usagi Feb 2016

Defeated

You claimed to be my knight
       delivering me from demons
             But it was you, I needed saving from
                             It was you all along.

#defeated

dribble

usagi Mar 2021

dribble

You put a spout on your love and you decisively let it drip,
I am a waterfall of never ending flow to quench thy lips.

You and I are not the same

elementary

usagi Feb 2022

elementary

Your simplicity soothes my heart's anxieties.

#calm #simple #love

elevate

usagi Feb 2018

elevate

Mend your soul through weeping
I will preserve your soul, for safe keeping.

Embrace

usagi Jun 2016

Embrace

The curse of the empath?
or the gift of empathy.

empty are your promises

usagi Oct 2020

empty are your promises

i promise it will be better
i promise to understand
i promise to fill in the gaps
there shall be no more mishaps

i promise i promise i promise,
things will change can't you see
its meant to be
i promise today i promise

i promised you yesterday
I promised you a better tomorrow
but heres the thing you see;
tomorrow never comes
and i never did lie.

tomorrow is related to today, but it never is today.

Entitlement

usagi Jun 2021

Entitlement

what makes you think I owe you my presence,
time, or energy?
I am not a fountain made to quench your lethargy.
So please. Move.

I owe you nothing

fond absence

usagi Jul 2018

fond absence

You must have kissed me a million times before , I thought to myself
but today you kissed me and it was as if our lips did not recognize each other,
and I couldn't even recall the last time you had kissed me.
as I moved my lips and swirled my tongue,
I realized our love was no longer young
and we had grown apart without saying a word

#kiss #fond #absence

friend not foe

usagi May 2018

friend not foe

my muse is my sorrow,
if it did not exist i would not find beauty in the rain nor solace in my pain.
it'll always find different ways to manifest,
but at least it is safe to say
it is no longer my unwelcome guest.

#friend #guest #muse #sorrow #strength #beauty #life

Full moon

usagi Dec 2016

Full moon

I am the moon,
no perception or projection of shine or shadow
can change me,
discern me or not, it does not change that I am full no matter.

Fury

usagi Jul 2018

Fury

I was angry at my father for abandoning me
I was angry at my brother for not guiding me
I was angry at my mother for not protecting me
I was angry at him for not loving all the pieces of me
Every moment of every dayI was enraged
I wept and wept in the name love
but truly I was brimmed with grief
the grief I felt
from the love I did not give myself.

#fury #anger

Futile

usagi Oct 2015

Futile

I have written a hundreds of letters
uttered a million words
All with the sea of hope
that you may understand
But my pen is still bleeding words that never seem adequate
to make you understand the contention, which is my sense.

G

usagi May 2022

G

We dying
We crying
but we trying

glo

usagi Sep 2020

glo

His sorrow was so inexplicably radiant

Growth

usagi Jun 2016

Growth

If I dare hear you
I will feel you like the sun
A sound so ever profound
In your direction then, shall I grow forth?

habituating habits

usagi Dec 2018

habituating habits

love is habituating
as are broken hearts

Haps

usagi Feb 2020

Haps

its as easy as pretending it never happened,
and
very well feeling as though its all thats happened.

heart on your sleeve

usagi Mar 2021

heart on your sleeve

I'll take every piece of your heart into my hands; and I'll carry it no matter how heavy.
I'll remind you that all your pain and heartache makes you so very mighty.
I'm ready.

my love, you are so very mighty and I'll always be ready

hold me close

usagi Feb 2021

hold me close

How silly the notion that he could ever hold and mend the cracks that chipped so deeply they created craters and voids as deep as black holes.

how silly indeed.

hold me, or don't . What difference would it make?

#sad #mend #break #crack #love

hold on

usagi Mar 2021

hold on

I know i'm little but
can you hold all of me?

you know what I mean?

If I were enough

usagi Jul 2019

If I were enough

I ached to feel the comfort of someone turning my pages
eager to read, cover to cover
agreeing in contentment
because I was enough
maybe even more than enough.

Illusions

usagi Dec 2016

Illusions

My moonlight knight, was just an intangible, empty projection.
Thats the thing about poets, their words drip of rich nectar, but it only alludes the sweetness of honey

imitations have limitations

usagi Jan 2021

imitations have limitations

mimic the motions
but it'll never be the right emotions.

Inside me

usagi Feb 2018

Inside me

I want you to forget about the pain when you're inside me
euphoria will pass and it'll be temporary,
But at least I'll forget about the pain when you're inside me

I was the sun

usagi Mar 2023

I was the sun

You have felt the rays of my immense love;
now shade will feel especially cold.

brrr

km

usagi Oct 2021

km

I find comfort in chaos

chaos is my comfort

la fleur

usagi Dec 2020

la fleur

Yanked me from my roots as if I were a ****,
he never did know he spilled all my seeds
For I was a flower
and he was a plucker,
I fell to the ground, and into the earth
I shed my former self, this is rebirth.

I grew in unexpected places, in ways you thought I never could.
I grew in unexpected places, in ways I always knew I would.

#rebirth #growth

Leaves

usagi Jan 2018

Leaves

Turning over new leaves,
in the wind of fall