I wait for me,
the way I used to wait for him
But this time I shall be received
what makes you think I owe you my presence,
time, or energy?
I am not a fountain made to quench your lethargy.
So please. Move.
I owe you nothing
He feeds me words so appetizing but he leaves me so feeble and starved
Why awaken something you can not satiate?
My heart aches
But I can't tell if it aches cause it misses you
or because it misses me.
I've tried every remedy
When the luminous parts of me shed light on the darkest parts of you; that scares you doesn't it?
So will you run? Or will you bask?
You put a spout on your love and you decisively let it drip,
I am a waterfall of never ending flow to quench thy lips.
You and I are not the same
why am I more afraid of losing you than I am of losing myself?
your loss, my gain
I have been hurting her by forcing her to love in moderation
and accepting love in moderation
How could I have done that knowing that everything about her was intense
I'll take every piece of your heart into my hands; and I'll carry it no matter how heavy.
I'll remind you that all your pain and heartache makes you so very mighty.
my love, you are so very mighty and I'll always be ready
I know i'm little but
can you hold all of me?
you know what I mean?
you used to make me float and fly
now your dose don't even hit
and somehow I don't even get high
what happened, ****?
smog all over your head
you're hanging on just by a thread.
I'm worried about you. I worry about you,
but then you flash me a smile that tells me
your gleam of interest to live burns deeply,
and I've never met anyone so radiantly alive yet somber.
the most beautiful paradox I've ever laid eyes on
It was love; I got the impression
I'm in love but is it obsession
they said fall in love
he said fall for me
but no one ever told me it came with a fee
you're a salty and sweet dream
praline and cream
I can't have you in this life time
so I shall bound you with a spell
and find you in the next
my emotions do not rule me,
they are simply just a part of me.
my coffee grows cold
as did my love
How silly the notion that he could ever hold and mend the cracks that chipped so deeply they created craters and voids as deep as black holes.
how silly indeed.
hold me, or don't . What difference would it make?
In this moment I have all your love, and I know it may be fleeting
Nonetheless, I shall bask and bathe, till the days preceding
love me today; forget me tomorrow
planting my blooming thoughts of you,
as deep as I hope you will root in me,
seeds I hope you will put in me,
for the flowers I will grow for you.
lets grow together
dip your fingers into the richness of my soul
dip yourself into the depths of my love
dip your body into the thickness of my thighs
wanderlust in my love
pick the shallow girls to feel deep again
mimic the motions
but it'll never the right emotions.
shatter me to specks and flecks
i'd give my heart to you yet again
it was worth it
i pray you never reappear
Afraid of drowning, you polluted my waters
in hopes of dampening my devine super powers
Yanked me from my roots as if I were a ****,
he never did know he spilled all my seeds
For I was a flower
and he was a plucker,
I fell to the ground, and into the earth
I shed my former self, this is rebirth.
I grew in unexpected places, in ways you thought I never could.
I grew in unexpected places, in ways I always knew I would.
Wreck my sanity
but you'll never wreck me.
i don't sleep
but i dream.
I'm not unbreakable--
patch me up anyway
i promise it will be better
i promise to understand
i promise to fill in the gaps
there shall be no more mishaps
i promise i promise i promise,
things will change can't you see
its meant to be
i promise today i promise
i promised you yesterday
I promised you a better tomorrow
but heres the thing you see;
tomorrow never comes
and i never did lie.
tomorrow is related to today, but it never is today.
He wont save you.
You've always known he wouldn't maybe even couldn't save you.
He never has, never will.
He's not coming.
So what are you waiting for?
always save yourself
I wana be like poetry
but you don't even like to read
His sorrow was so inexplicably radiant
timing is truly as fickle as they say
you can't turn back the clock
you can't take back what you forgot to do,
or take back what you did do.
often when you're ready, the opportunity has passed,
and the window has closed
and the time that was so fickle, is no longer in your favour.
shouldn't be soft
but couldn't be anything more than soft
perhaps couldn't be anything less than soft
not as soft
couldn't be strong without being soft.
so be soft, as soft as a moon in cancer
I mourn for your lips
So much that I feel aches that send speckles of darkness sinking into the pit of my stomach
and your smile alludes the impression that you are satisfied by this
and I discern the notion of my lips having been touched but never really kissed
yet still, I mourn for your lips
lips that I have kissed, that never kissed me.
If only my scars were on the surface of my body. Then maybe you’d understand the burden of pain I have held.
the walls are transparent, yet so thick.
Let. me .
I am muted,
Let me be
I was red,
now I am grey
its as easy as pretending it never happened,
very well feeling as though its all thats happened.
I ached to feel the comfort of someone turning my pages
eager to read, cover to cover
agreeing in contentment
because I was enough
maybe even more than enough.
Leave me with nothing;
nothing but nostalgia that'll hurt so good
it'll pinch my chest
and send whirl winds through my stomach
yet I'll love it,
just like I loved you.
love is habituating
as are broken hearts
Fell slowly out of love with he
and gently into love with me
We wreck havoc on one another in the name of love. We leave inoperable scars upon each others souls and leave one another strangled for air, plundered of all vitals. We call this love, and we recycle these events, these feelings onto the next person without realizing that we are generating and regenerating feeble souls, stripped of their ability to love. What a tragedy love has become.
You must have kissed me a million times before , I thought to myself
but today you kissed me and it was as if our lips did not recognize each other,
and I couldn't even recall the last time you had kissed me.
as I moved my lips and swirled my tongue,
I realized our love was no longer young
and we had grown apart without saying a word
I was angry at my father for abandoning me
I was angry at my brother for not guiding me
I was angry at my mother for not protecting me
I was angry at him for not loving all the pieces of me
Every moment of every dayI was enraged
I wept and wept in the name love
but truly I was brimmed with grief
the grief I felt
from the love I did not give myself.
Repeatedly she dies, all just in one life time;
it seems she dies religiously
she hopes each time, death would lead her to nirvana
but instead she wakes up
just to realize she is exhausted and still stuck, alive.
love & anxiety;
they might as well be synonymous .