You thawed the ice around my heart
but you set my insides on fire.
Today, I'm only ashes and smoke.

I met a girl

whose pretty blue eyes

have more depth than the sea.

I'm drowning and I don't know how to swim.

i haven't let
a blade
dance upon my wrist
in months

but now it aches
and it feels like
i'm coming home

sleeping with self destruction

large mobs,

listening from the outside,
poking and prodding at our lives,

upholding our monkey brains 
while manipulating our emotions;

everyone tries to fix things for us

he actually thought he did

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body.  i like what it does,
i like its hows.  i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones,and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the,shocking fuzz
of your electric furr,and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh….And eyes big love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you so quite new