Anastasiya Antropova

Anastasiya Antropova Dec 2020

scream

Taking my leave, I'll never return
Laugh if you wish, despair or mourn
Either if fine and either is moot
I've broken the rules and dug out my roots
My life was determined in absentee
I'm trashing your world now, so that you see
How dangerous it was to mishandle the Fire
My abused wild mind is like a live wire
Planning a ****** of everything known
Lost seeds of patience you'd carefully sown
Hijacking the towers of social abuse
It went on for centuries as a delayed fuse
I'm taking my leave now,
I've nowhere to go –
But anywhere's better
Than this line toe to toe

you can't escape society. nice to try sometimes tho

#teen #struggle #rejection #social #independence

Anastasiya Antropova Dec 2020

Starting again

Careful dance
Under the rain
Only for once
Hiding the pain
Shoes on the damp
Innocent road
Glowing street lamps
It's sleeting and cold
Dust settled down
They've survived
Lucky to 've found
Each other's lives
Starting anew
Hoping for more –
They are the few
Who made it through war

Even if memories of people dying haunt them forever, at least they have each other to fight off nightmares... and this relative approximation of peace and happiness, so rare and such a fragile treasure

#war #pain #love #finding #anew

Anastasiya Antropova Dec 2020

A shadow

...I put so much of me at stake
And loved as fondly as I could;
You never thought of answering back -
I hoped you would, I hoped you would.

You'll love her always, me – when drunk,
Kind, only when it comes to mind.
I'll keep you off my heart and lungs -
But you're in spine, you're in my spine...

All night along we've been alert,
Aware of movements fond and strong.
Stay close to me, it will not hurt
And won't be long, it won't be long.

Before the dawn, under full moon,
I touched your hand down cotton sleeve.
I know - it all will finish soon,
So let me grieve, so let me grieve.

#love #desire #unrequited

Dec 2020

Samara

human

is this what it feels like
to feel like you are capable
of being human?

to wake up sweating & shivering
terrified & your lips quivering
about what may be
and what you may see

to love so deeply that
loss weighs heavily on
your mind

to pray so piously to
be the one for you
but failure keeps
you close by

is this what it feels like
to feel like you are capable
of being human--

'cause i think
i'd rather die.

Anastasiya Antropova Dec 2020

nasty business

Be careful!
It's raining kids
From the rooftop:
One, two, three, four...

It's raining hard,
Another one slips
And it's a long fall,

Dead bodies lying on the pavement,
No one wanted to be saved and
No one is safe!

Horror shrinks me to a whimpering whelp;
They seemed happy and they didn't ask for help.
"God save us",
I hear whispering from all around
Four and one
for nothing, with no reason to be found
God save us all, indeed...

#suicide #death #fear #horror #why

Anastasiya Antropova Dec 2020

Humanity

Determination
Destination in mind
Dignity in movements
Diligence and Pride
Perfectionism, Creation
by everyone World-Wide
Digging, Craving Wisdom,
the Humanity
Walks
Onward,
Persists
and Wins
Award
of Peace
and Happiness.

There's just so many of us. Infinite, limitless opportunities, resources, possibilities... Isn't everything possible when the humanity is one?
(Also, the shape of the poem is kind of like one of the glass. I assure you, it's purely accidental. But since it happened - in vino veritas...)

#humanity #pride #alotofnouns

Anastasiya Antropova Dec 2020

"connect your charger"

the powerbank's empty
bankrupt soul
heart bleeding red

corrosive feelings
dug deepest holes
filled them with lead

THEY AREN'T HEALING
why no one told me
it would be that bad?

#strong #feelings #turmoil #depth #tired #soul