Ilonka

Ilonka Apr 2019

when poetry will die
the apocalypse of the soul will erupt in each of us
my being made of lyrics
will get lost in contemporary illiteracy,
our daily food will be missing from the shelves in the libraries
and virtual pages will replace the smile of the sweet girl from my favorite bookstore,
I will no longer cuddle the book covers made with good taste
and I will no longer breathe stories that hide behind them,
thinking will become limited by a collective sentence
which will swallow me
and devour my last remaining metaphor,
then amnesia will make a nest in me
and I'll beg it never to leave me!

A world without poetry, a world without books would look like this.

#apocalypse #limited #illiteracy #amnesia

Ilonka Apr 2019

~ Bad girl at night ~

I am a good girl and I always have been
the perfect daughter, the faithful wife, the happy mother, the trusted friend,
something changed
I am tired of wearing these masks of a great fit,
I am tired to be what society taught me in decades of polished illusions
I wasted years in putting together a perfect puzzle that's not who I am
I want to be a jazz singer, a romantic poet, a badass dancer, a crazy lover...
One last mask I can try, that of a bad girl at night.

Do you agree?

#bad #girl #night #dancer #crazzy #mask

Ilonka Apr 2019

~ lead wings ~

I am struggling with so many unsuccessful attempts
my lungs are full of smoke and I forgot how to breathe
I have lifeless frozen fingers
and I can't play my favorite instrument
without music there is no longer life,
I'm trying to warm my voice
but nothing comes out of me
not even a sound
I'm paralyzed by pain
a terrible pain filled with longing
of a desire to fly...
but I can not fly
and how could I?
oh God!
I feel like I'm dying
I have lead wings and I can not fly.

When something that you really want, never becomes reality.

#wings #fly #pain

Ilonka Apr 2019

~ Green ~

Fog spreads over the wet plains
Flowers breathe hard
Leaves meet the sky,
Birds fly in search of something new,
I sit and watch with clear mind,
My eyes are filled with too much green,
Nature is close
I feel it, she's talking to me
I hear a desperate cry
H E L P ! ! !
There is a lost echo,
I feel useless,
What can I do to heal the bleeding wound of our planet,
I'm just a girl, what can I do?
I care for my garden from the backyard
I kiss all the flowers,
I love every inch of grass
Every dying petal
Every mourning rose,
I love what is left ...
I'm afraid to blink,
I'm afraid to lose
The green that's in my soul.

Nature will always be my biggest source of inspiration. I wish I could do more to protect it.

#green #nature #flowers #birds #petals

Apr 2019

Krystle OBrien

Footsteps

I hear your footsteps running
You are not far behind
I hear your footsteps further
We are running out of time

Did you hear me call your name
Did you feel the sorrow and all the pain
I hear your footsteps fading
Please don’t turn away

Your footsteps just a memory
I hear them in my dreams
Even though your footsteps have stopped
You will forever be running to me

#footsteps #love #pain #heart #death

Ilonka Apr 2019

~ Sadness has its beauty ~

I like to lay in the bed that smells of us
where I'm losing my sadness in idle days
when spring means nothing,
when the walk in the endless garden is no longer a purpose,
cherry blossoms distract my empty eyes,
instead of sketching a smile my eyes hit the ground
the green grass screams at me and wants to chase away the gray,
then I talk to heaven,
I look for the sun that seems hidden for an eternity,
the singing of the birds, a tortuous composition is bothering me now,
but sadness has its beauty
I feel it in a subtle silence
and I search where there is nothing left, for healing...

I see beauty in silence and sadness

#silence #sadness #gray

Ilonka Apr 2019

~ N O T H I N G ~

Sometimes I feel nothing

Nothing to give, nothing to take

Nothing to love, nothing to hate

N O T H I N G

Nothing, can be big and ugly

And it makes you feel small

It never talks, just stares

It fills the quiet air with dullness

Nothing, can paint the sky gray

And hide the sun forever,

Nothing is the same

when it shows up at your doorstep,

Always comes uninvited

And stays as long as it wants,

I want to have the power to kick it out

But nothing comes out of my mouth

Nothing stays

I feel nothing,

Then suddenly something opens my window

The sun is tiptoeing in my room

S O M E T H I N G

is here!

And nothing is gone:)

I love to play with words:)

#nothing #small #ugly #gray #something