Our blood is close,
Yet mine is so cold
Against the warmth from the mother's *****.

I'm confused with your language.
I don't wanna overthink
because I'm just looking for ways
to believe another reason.

My rationality tugging me-
as I'm standing in the borderline of
doing all the work.
I wish I know what you're feeling.

A poker face is safer
When you have no idea of this particular person
Who makes you to insensible to your  common sense.

You didn't turn on the headlights
Because you didn't want to see me.
I've been giving myself false hopes
That you would eventually turn around and notice me.

All the significant things and people
are big
because we treasure them.

Don't push your loved ones;
instead, pull them close up to your heart
and let them know your love.

I try to fall in love with myself
before I love another.
I want to know the feeling of love
so I know what I'm giving to you.
Love can turn inside out
because it's fake:
because I haven't take care of my heart for a long time.

Just To see and to know,
and to know everything,
ignore everything else around me
and
I 'm off the track.

A spark of this curiosity
flames up after so many trials
and errors.

One moment, after one,
in a never-ending  cycle of hard,
I admit:
I ain't have reason.

I don't want to go to the finish line
Can I just curl up in a corner
with my favourite book?
And I'm lazy.

For 19 years
I've followed you like a puppy.
For nineteen days, you have kept me at arm's length
even though you know my feelings.
In just nine days, I'll be  the witness
of your vow for her.

I scribble
thousands of words
in your diary.
You read them when you have no choice  to accept,
You read them when you're without them,
otherwise, I'm just a scar in your memory.

A mutual exchange of affection
is so hard for us
when we know we have a diary for fantasy.
A thousand of unspoken thoughts of yours,
change the way I see the light.

I'm at your mercy
when you call out my name.
And I pray
these words of yours
is 'I love you'
one day.

Chestnuts shoot out of seeds fire,
begging my attention for a while.
I have to embrace
the change, for its better.
Being a volcano, wouldn't help a lot either.
Unlikely I will accept
when I have it in my mind.

Stars brightly shinning, against your past.
Blushing of the thoughts
you think more of me
than the other exes,
who left you in the grim light.

Will you walk in the woods with me?
You said you ‘re leaving everything behind for me
You said I’m a beacon for you
In your darkness.

I see my soul dying
In the anguish, flaming , painful fire of death.
I’m triumphed over
But you should know
You can never, ever have me.

I look up the ceiling
My body wouldn't get up
I feel scared and mortified to the core
I feel so wrong.

What could I have been done
If I made another choice:
My, younger self would have been surprised
If I 'm unhappy .

Being an imperfect human,
It hurts when I fall
I am joyful when I experience sweet.

I cover these  unkindness words
That have been told to me
I pretend strong until I have been ripped in the inside, thoroughly and repeatedly.

It was raining so hard.
Clouds were no visible
My tummy protesting
And "wanna be home ,hurry up " mantra,
In a state of being impatience,
It got  rainning harder;
An My bubbles thoughts was like,
I should have brought an umbrella,
Out of nowwhere
As if you know what i wished,
Formed a canopy of tree with you
Your  protective arm and the umbrella,
Rain is the cupid of our  new beginning

You stole my heart
Just from across the room.
Cliche is the love
Its the reason i live.

I FEEL LIKE ****
THE FEELING COMES AND GOES
ONLY SOME ‘’Things ‘’ CAN **** THIS MADDESS.

I don’t know who I am.
I lose my  very tiny self-esteem everyday
my dignity is trampled and it runs along with my blood.
I lay in the bathroom,
Transfixed by the symphony written just ‘only for me’.
Wow, I’m so special.

You said you love me so much.
But your action proves otherwise.
You said you know me the best;
How ironic is that you still took me to see ugly scenes.
I don’t think I am strong enough:
I’m a tired donkey after a long-haul of your nonsense.

I know one day i 'm not going to see you anymore.
I know i will miss you so much
The thought of losing you made me crazy.
I have lost you already
I know I have to let you go soon
Because my heart hurts everytime our eyes met.
I know you will never accept me
And I know I will get hurt
But I couldn't control myself.

I grow up sad and weak;
Didn't expect to break the expection i had set years ago.
Not only i became like this,
It's heart breaking  to see my loved ones too.


I remember a saying by heart,
Loved ones support you in the hard times.
I fell lower and I cried harder,
When i know i can't run to them anymore.

When i look out the window
Hoping to see answers written on the road.
Hit by my own stupidity and naive mind
All the answers evaporated into the air along with my tears
I don't know if i am on right track
I feel stuck on one pole
Many poles to walk on
Many signposts in alien languages
Hope doesn't shine in my life.

Talented people out there
Make this world bright and colourful.
I see people every day
At the alleys,
At the market,
And in my home.
They have always been a part of life.
Their anger,
Agony,
Happiness,
Worry.
Express the world with sincerity.
To me,
People make the world very bright and happy,
To me,
Everyone is talented.

Looking back to my old days
Everything was in an endless loop.
From my birth land to my new home
I climbed so many mountains and walked.
Exhausting indeed but i didn't stop on a midway.
Looking back to my 12 years old self
Life became luxurious and better.
Since then  I started to know what is life really about.
Looking back at last year
I learned about  myself and others
Hardship stabbed me multiple times
But when the sun aries,
It heals my problems and dry my tears.

If i knew who i am
I would not have cracked my knuckles
Nor gritted my teeth and bit my tongue.
If i knew what i will be
I would have been lounging all day,
Waiting the God and men to feed and clothe me.
It's better if i don't know myself.
I don't wanna be a bad princess at the end;
But i can't guarantee i will not be.

I close my eyes
I wring my shirt
My head lowers down.
Evil, defeat again.

I laugh out very loud;
Earsplitting loud.
I make sound when i drink soup;
Disgusting and loud.
I talk with enthusiam;
Secrects become publicly announced.
Elephants' walks shake the ground and home;
I am sorry i can't walk like cats.
I  am just loud
I am not lonely, don't you worry?

Days and night pass by
Your smile couldnt switch on my bedroom light.
I gulp down my inner voices;
Burning my throat and body.
I can just say," i like you"
Needing not to beat around the bush.
But it's so hard,
To move my tongue and say it bravely.
My words are not smoke
Dont put out with your cold heart.
On my happy moments,
I wanna share my joy.
On my sad moments
I just want to lie on your chest.
It is just a sick fantasy!
I hurt myself
With these fantasy.
I neglect my family and friends.
I hurt them.

By my side
I have nobody.
In front of me
I have big obstacles.
I walk two steps backward
And I bumped to my past.
I have nowwhere to go
I don't want to go back to my past
Nor stays in the present.
I wish I'm dead.

Wow,  i just know what u are
I was blind.
I  was too stubborn to read warning signs on your body.
I regret it so much.
I wish my dear sisters
Are not ignornat like me.

Numbing feet
Aching fingers
Smelly shirt
Sweat beads on my face
I feel myself dying
I feel myself falling asleep while  standing
I feel everyone is bad
I just cannot stop thinking
Handsome guys
Cold  jelly lemon drink
Support from my co workers
Save me from nearly dying.

Classic theme
Romantic songs to listen
Taiwan hot soup to savour
Take pictures of you and your spouse
Make this  saturday
Really beautiful and never ending.

A life in Silica is promising
Bread and Wine is plenty.
Everyone lives in a square box with four windows.
Men work at mines and markets.
A life in Silica is truly blessing.
Those who know the blessed Silica,
Leave their nests and fly,
In hope to settle down on a new blessed land.
Silica is really new and interesting.
The country is always sparkling
The buildings are so tall that a man broke his neck when he looks up.
Lips pushed out when they speak.
Silica must be really interesting as it said.
I know the Silica
My friends know the Silica
Everyone knows the the Silica
But God sends only a few there.
Everynight we pray fervently
Everyday we listen in awe as we listen to their story.
Everyday we dream that we are also there.
I want my family to have a full meal.
I want my family to live peacefully.
I want my sick father to be recovered
So he can write poems with me.
Once we are in Silica
My family will be fine.
Their future
Will be really promising.

Life is harder as i grow up
My goal  become diminshed.
I just realised.
The moon and the stars are just above in the sky
But in reality
They are not in my world.

My mind is poly
but i'm only.

Mount Everest
you are too high for me.
People worship thee like God.
Thee never flinch
Thee never crack when the earth is shook.
Thee never cry
but why peopl cry when they climb on you?
Thee has a strong back like a dinasour but they can't grip on you.
I know you are friends with the wind and the Sun.
I know you are like one of the Greek gods.
But u aren't kind.
I lost my brother
who was so overzealous
you should have let him win!
you killed him with your power!
you should have let him win!
He loves his country so much
He risked his life
so he can prove to everyone.
I wonder why people love you
you are so cold
no wonder ice stays with you
watch out!
i will be coming with an army
and we will be standing
on your head with pride.