Lonely little leaf
Flying alone in an autumn breeze 

Amber where it was once green
Its changed in ways that can't be seen

Will it be let to lay 
Or fly away

I hope it will be with the stars one day
But most likely it will just fade away

Just like everything else
We all decay

Under the shelter of the bewitching midnight sky
I lie in bed and wait
No colour is here
Only the light from the moon
It seeps through the blinds and the curtains in my room
Sleep waits for my guard to let down
Only problem is I never want to let anyone down
So, instead I let my thoughts consume

Over the ocean
Miles away
By the stiff jagged rocks
Where the wind never stays
Stands a beautiful woman
Who looks out by the sea
With bright gleaming eyes
I wonder what beauty she see's

Over the ocean
Miles away
I will be with you shortly
To share a wonderful day

Those perilous gleaming eyes
Left me stranded staring back
As if I were soon to drift away
In a dream where we lay hand in hand

Sometimes I find it hard to speak
As if the words had left my mind
Lost in a gaze
While our eyes meet
All I want is to hold your hand
And kiss you on your cheek
Sometimes this world is cruel and mean
It makes it hard to dream
But when I see you from afar
I remember what life means

Walking through these gates of hell
I wonder what my mind will tell
An endless encore of thoughts today
Only time will tell when they will go away
The music is endless if you aren't feeling sane
If my mind was a puddle
I would be washed out in the rain

I wonder tonight what the sandman will give
Maybe I'll dream of the beautiful sea
The waves breaking calmly on a white sandy beach
Or maybe I will have a nightmare with no escape to be seen

The more I study history
The more I resent the future
But the more I respect the present

Luminous she was
My glance met her eyes
An intensity so strong
I could not smile
Even if I tried
So still was the world
when your lips met my skin
It could be the end
Or just the beginning
But for now, let's just kiss

Hollow was his empty heart
Something missing
Where did it go
Nobody seems to know

Somber was her broken smile
She lay immersed in the coldness that she creates
A shadow in the darkness left alone
Left to fade
Into the abyss
What would it feel like to cease to exist?

Recently I've been failing to see the colour
Like an old movie something seemed to be missing
The lucsious greens no longer appeared
The vibrant pink petals left my vision
All I could see was the harshness of the grey winter skies
But as the seasons changed
So did my mind
I could see the colour once again
On a day like this
Everything makes sense
There is not one doubt in my mind
Happiness is bliss

Sometimes I do not want to sleep
Because then the dreams will come
Then maybe in those dreams, I could get lost
And never escape...

The shadows have long departed
Clouds obscure the night sky
There is not one star in sight
What a great night it is
To be daydreaming inside
I can only imagine what I could be
I could be beautiful
Or I could be nothing
These words may let me see
If only I could write me back to life
I could write forever
No distractions or illusions
I can finally be me

My eyes wandered onto a lonely highway
Only a few headlights remained
They dawdled like fireflies in a midnight sky
Moments like these are few and far between
But when these occur, I feel alive
I can dream

I see you hurting
I can hear the worry when you talk
I can feel the coldness when your sad
I can see the pain when you sleep
The stress of waking up means rest will never come
Those black rings are so willing to consume
They circle your eyes
And hold on until you let go

I have trouble letting go too
But it will never stop the love I have for you
Without you, my mind would be a mess
Because of you, I worry less

The mind wanders
Towards the empty blue
Even in winter
Some flowers bloom
Soft pinks and oranges show not all life is lost
A few remaining cicadas buzz while tuis sing their songs
The grass is still green
Sometimes it rains for days
Leaving puddles to glisten when night becomes day
The sun beckons
Not yet too harsh
The mind wanders on this type of day
It is moments like these when the pain fades away

This cold is so numbing
It makes the pain go away
My mind feels it endlessly
Makes me wonder what it all means
Everything feels empty without the touch of your lips
Is life worth living if I'm a walking abyss
It gets better
I tell myself
It will get better day by day
But sometimes I wonder
What If I make it all go away

Six like-minded people
All in one room
A revolver on the table
What will we do

Into the nighttime
Away with my friend
It only follows when the sun warms my skin
This night feels lonely
No stars can be seen
The air is so still that
I could forget how to breathe
This night is so empty
But it feels so nice
With these thoughts in my mind
It must be time to write
...

Nighttime has come
The sun long succumb
A pale resemblance took its place
Looking down upon us
While most of us sleep
And the rest stay up thinking
If I do not document these thoughts
The night will not leave me

Why does being so close to death
Make you feel so alive?
Sometimes I think to myself why I spend all my time inside
The cold has never felt so numb
The stars have never seemed so far apart
I wonder if things will change
Some flowers take years to bloom
Others wilt away in days
The terrifying thought I have
Is that maybe these thoughts will never go away

All these faces come and go

There is a stillness in the atmosphere
It is unsettling
But I will not fear
I will find comfort in the lonesome air
And dance around it as if the end was near
The rain will fall soon
What will you hear?
I will hear a lovely sound
A pitter-patter to put my mind to rest
There could be no better way to cease to exist

Words mean nothing when they are hidden away
They are just thoughts on paper left to decay

Mirror mirror
On the wall
Who will watch me when I fall

What will I hear
Once the music leaves
As my last drumming heartbeat ceases to be

What will I feel
As the light leaves my skin
Will a hollow numbness fill within?

Mellow like the falling rain
My eyes have become shallow and lost their ways
You see beauty and I see pain
You can find the beauty in my pain
Without you
a tear would mean not a thing
It would just fall like the rain
And imprint on my skin

The tragedy of overthinking is once you stop
You never want to think again

So much pain and sadness
Enveloped in ink
We have so much time to write
While others have no time to think
There is no time for pain
When missiles light up the sky
There is no time for sadness when it is your turn to die

In these eyes I see
What cannot be unseen
If I did not feel anything
What would I dream
If I knew nothing at all
What would life mean?
If I was lost in infinity
How could I breathe?
Sometimes I wonder
What separates us from being lost in infinity?
Is it that we can see the beauty and the horrors
Or that we can dream
Is it the fact that we don't have to think to breathe?
The longer my mind contemplates
The closer I come
To consider the idea that
Maybe we are lost too
I can only hope that life is finite

My brain feels leaky
I can not think straight
How many thoughts will leave before I can escape?

So many equations in my brain
I can not equate
If this is all real
Then why does it feel so fake

I write about sadness
They ask me what for?
I see the madness
They tell me my flaws
I fell into infinity
My mind can only explore
I feel insanity
They can only ignore

Leave me alone
Let me expire
Paint the sky red
Hang me with wires
I will find enlightenment
No matter the hour

Lonely
That word should be left alone

Sometimes my heart shutters
Butterflies fly out of my stomach with quiet flutters

If some questions can not be answered
Why do we choose to ask them?

His eyes never lie
That's why he always looks at the sky

With absence in his mind
A ghost was stuck in time
Raindrops were his tears
The empty mirror was his fear
He was not dead
Nor alive
He had not lived
Nor had he died

Decaying and forgotten
The daffodils have turned rotten

His hollow mind
Too young to be left unseen
He sees the twisted horrors
That no one else seems to see
They exist where no one wants to look
In the corners of our smiles
And the coldness of our breath
The twisted horrors drive him insane
They push him to the edge


Decaying and forgotten
The daffodils have turned rotten
Neglected
They lay
No life to display
One time they stood tall
And now they are one with their shadow
Maybe he will fall too
Becoming one with his shadow
Or maybe he just needs to dream..

Words unlock the gateway
To the deepest thoughts of our mind

Fervent with every breath
I adorn the heart from which it led
Your sticky lipstick
A dream come true
I adore your fervent love
And I love you

Remember to breathe
There will be plenty of time to not breathe when you are dead

Sometimes all I have is thoughts
As if my soul had dissipated
And my body ceased to exist
No words can explain this feeling
This feeling of feeling nothing
But there must be something right?
It is just waiting to be found

For, I was found
By a smile bright as day
My nighttime eyes had to adjust
To realise love had come my way
The thoughts never used to leave
Recently things seemed to have changed
Not just the seasons
Or the tides
But the way that I express pain

Flowers for eyes
Cold cerulean skies
My hollow body
An empty vibe

Alone I walk
Along endless streams
A lovely lullaby
Reaches my daydream
Night has come
Stars have followed
Bliss has arrived
What shall follow?