Reflections with pain staking recollections
Watch your old self with memories of where youve been
How far youve come and whats left to be seen
A feeling of emptiness thats getting too deep
Why look to the past when we try to live in the present
Because the future is too foregone for us to reference
Every mistake we made a reminder to forget
And every forgotten mistake one waiting for redemption
That never arrives
If you shone a light in the darkest room
Would you be enlightning or just a nuisance
Disrupting the current order is something only the brave do
And maybe the foolish too
Cause death is all they brew
What do we have to lose but our lives
And why is yours so valuable when theres 7 billion others on the line
Maybe cause we have only one as opposed to 9
But if we live it in vain then we're better off dying
And if we live it too proudly then it changes before our eyes
Family turns to strangers and friends to foes
And true solace only comes when youre alone
For you hate other people and all that they represent
That one cant be  strong in their own presence
That one cant surive without someone to rely on
That one cant stand out and be profound
But only one person can ever wear the crown

Ive seen love like i seen hurt
They coexist together in your heart
Feeding off each other til one grows stronger
Setting you off on a road of pain and sombre
The light always beats the dark i heard them say
So whys my light so dim need someone to reignite my flame?
If i get another gust of wind i might blow over
And then give up on something we all long for
Live alone in love with my life
With my money and my voice, my lyrics and my pipe
Hoping even one of those things could replace a wife
Only saving grace is that i realised
That the person you are is not a sum of parts
You are not a brain and heart apart
When you love someone and its unrequited
The heart beats faster while the brain is your critic
Telling you to shape up circle round find middle ground
Stop dwelling over something you cant control its out of bounds
Understand your worth from your own perspective
Surround yourself with walls that block out introspection
Look outside and see happiness around you
Look inside and see the anger that binds you
Escape from its clutches before it engulfs your soul
Being hateful is only the result
Of hurt beating love now watch the chaos unfold

Peace is something that starts with me
Unfold the layers letting out what i could be
Cudi telling me to just be free
Now im so vulnerable i might be seen
I  might be heard i might intervene
Or i might sit back and explore the scene
Feel my way through waters with sharks intrigued
Seeing what im made of when i convene
My thoughts together and paint my stream
Let the colours flow like a masterpiece
And let you understand hurt like it pains you deep
So you can perservere and close in on dreams
Instead of folding up and getting rid of all belief
Self loathing til you find a piece
And let it scream in your ear til youre at peace

I talk about a purpose that needs to be unearthed
We talk about equality why is that subject so disturbing
Why do the racists and mysoginists defend their kin
Has ethics been so foregone they find power in their skin
Have standards fallen so low we have power in the *** organs given
I cant take it much less can i explain it
Two wrongs dont make a right so where are they trying to take this
Im deciphering a code thats they cant spell out to themselves
Doing the worst cause its programmed in their brain cells
What happens when they take a bite from the poisoned tree
Does it change their perspective or make them flee
We live in society that takes pride in our ideals
Whichever side it falls on opinions are revered
And i cant stand it how can we be so naive
We cant respect what has no right to exist
Much less can we respect the argument they profess
We need to stop riding the wave and go against the tide
Before we drift back to a more evil time
A time where ****** moved millions
A time where women only cared for their children
Why cant we open our minds and our hearts
Escape a past that has potential to be forgot
But lives on in society mistakes never taught
We must take mankind forward before the future is fraught
With the injustices we shouldve left dying in drought

Do we really say time brings change
Can we say it heals wounds
Can we say it breaks chains
Can we see us moving forward
Or do we only see the pain
Is there an answer to these questions
Or do we just lie and wait
As the weight of our burdens bear down on our claims
Do we even have a voice when they aint listen to the tapes
Do we even have a story if they just flip past the page
Can we even share secrets when the ground full of snakes
Do we chase every leak til were flooded with disdain
Does justice mean extortion why did snowden run away
Is corruption the focus when minorities are slayed
Are elections even fair if the poor man getting paid
To give his votes to the bigot that put him there in the first place
Is the seed that were planting ever sprouting something great
Or are we giving them a melting world and telling them to skate
Is realness an illusion cause being woke is just a trend
Do i sound like a fool
Spouting words without end
Cause just like sway im clueless
Im just speeding round the bend
Hoping i dont end up like schuma
confined to his bed
But if i do
itll be the only rest i ever get
You get the rest.

Whats pain
Comes and goes like rain
Leaving a scar that remains
Wishing you could get it off like a stain
But it never fades
Just becomes your shadow
Follows you around
Youll never win that battle
So you embrace it let it out let it guide your pen
Let it give you meaning to the feelings you express Let it bring to life the pictures you paint
Let it bring to life the person you aint
The person that struggles to jot down a word Becomes the person that writes you verse after verse Person that brings you happiness and love
Is now the person who always looks at the worst Thats pain
Dont let it haunt you
Keep the past in the past
Dont let it shine through
Learn from your mistakes
May they make you better
Dont live by them tho
Cause every pill is bitter
And you try to forget
But even you cant forgive
Hurting the ones you love
So you try to relive
Wishing you can go back in time
Do your life over
Never write another rhyme
Cause every one is filled with blood and tears
And is it really worth it to ink down your fears
We all fear our pain
We all hide our faces were all ashamed
We all just wanna be free
But then we wouldnt be able to feel
We wouldnt be able to ****
We wouldnt know whats real
Pain keeps us going
Like happiness or rage
Its like a dagger through the heart
But makes it bigger in exchange
Just know that you can get through
Anything you sustain
And you shouldnt really complain
Kids are dying on the streets back home
Mums hear their screams knowing theyre all alone And no amount of tears is ever enough
They wonder why those killers werent in cuffs Thats real pain ill never face
I can only imagine myself in their place
Losing my loved ones to cowards who were too weak to escape And the devil used them as puppets sealing their fate
This doesnt even make any sense
I just need a little space to vent
Let out my frustrations the world is corrupt
And i wish my death was abrupt
Maybe thats a little too much
Maybe my thoughts are a little to rough
I guess i can be a little too tough
But i dont wanna see my ownn homies turn to dust

Got a lot of stuff to get off my chest
Feelings I have don't really need to be expressed
So I put them down in words lock em up in a vault then throw away the key down to the depths of the earth
It hurts but you gon see a smile up on my face
You probably think I'm a clown
You probably know its fake
And youre gonna keep asking and imma keep masking
Pain is for the weak and as I die please don't resuscitate
And I blame it on fate
That I'm where I needed to be
Not cause I'm lazy cause I can't write to a beat
Cause I don't have the lyrical abilities
Not cause I fall short spiritually
And I dare you to try to be me
Nobody tries to look beneath what they see
Nobody sees the part of me that bleeds
Nobody sees that it's hard for me to breathe
And that's the way I like it, transparency