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Jan 2020 yogirlturkey

lies

Jan 2020 yogirlturkey

Anna Bell

lies

“i love you”
those words
                      d
                         r
                           i
                             p
                               p
                                 e
                                   d
                                      from his lips
i believed his deceitful manner
his charisma, it was alluring

I think most people take this as an s.o. but it could be anyone who stopped loving you a friend, a parent to just deceive you to get what they want from you. I also thought of the devil as I wrote this, he deceives you and feeds you with lies to follow him.

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

The Anniversary of What Started Everything

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Her

The Anniversary of What Started Everything

My name is Erin
and i was *****
at the age of 7

it has taken me
14 years of my life
for those 13 words to escape
my hollow mouth

the only questions i come to now
is why
why lock me in that room
why take everything from me
my innocence
my purity
my childhood

in that room
where my family trusted you
where i trusted you
the night terrors i have to this day
still haunt my mind

like a never ending
drive in movie that plays
over
and
over
only the moon in the night sky
isnt made to be found here
there is no light in these terrors

i cant sleep this time of year
because every time i do
its you
in that room
locking the door
shutting the windows
******* me
yelling at me
every single night
i close my eyes

it has taken me 14 years
to accept the fact that i was taken by you
i have been numb ever since
left in the dust
rotting away at the core
thinking i was nothing
thinking i deserved nothing
because you took everything

but not anymore
i will recover from this
i am strong enough
i believe in myself
i believe in my own happiness
and i promsie
that when i have children one day
i will never ever let them rot at the core
i will find happiness
the darkness will not take over this time

#**** #abuse #adult #child #hurt #emotional

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Brown eyes

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Levi Johnson

Brown eyes

I just have to look
at you
to feel it.

To know it
I have to look
away.

Like the pages
of a book
mid-tornado,

Fragments of
information, the pieces
all out of place.

Still,

I believe you
beg to be
read.

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Depressed Again

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Nicole

Depressed Again

Waking up to a heavy chest
My body begging me to sleep again
And my anxiety begins the second I realize I'm alive
I'm trying to learn to function
With all of this negative energy inside me
I know it'll pass and
I know it'll get better
But right now it hurts
I feel unloved
Unloveable
I feel lost inside myself
A place I can't stay too long
Before I lose my mind
I can tell myself I'm worth it and
That my worth isn't defined by others
And it works for a bit
Until something else comes up and
My heart loses its energy
And I either feel like giving up
Or ready to fight everyone

#depression #sad #hurt #pain #love #empty

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Seven Years

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Simoné

Seven Years

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived

#truth #pain #acceptance #forever #heart

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Someone like her

Oct 2019 yogirlturkey

Aaron Michael Brown

Someone like her

I should’ve
waited
for someone
like
her to
come
into my
life.

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

With You

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

Susan Nishimoto

With You

Imagine my arms wrapped around you, holding you tight.
My lips kissing your forehead, and my hand gently touching the side
of your face.

You feel my touch and the warmth it gives you.
You smile when I say the words,"I love you."

I'll comfort you and stay by your side forever.
I'll never leave you, so please stay with me forever.

When you think of me, remember all the times that we shared
together.
When you look at me, remember that we were always meant to be
together.

#imagine #feel #stay #forever #think #together

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

someday

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

jojo

someday

i love you

but we are not right for today

so i will let you go

and wave at tomorrow to walk closer

for someday

we will be right

i just know it

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

a short ride

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

Another Bad Poem

a short ride

i look at you
and suddenly
i'm overcome with the urge
to do something
to make your smile even brighter
to make you happier
to make your heart flutter
and your cheeks warm

i look at you,
and for a moment
i'm also
overcome with the ability
to not fear
what comes after

and i lean forward,
my lips pressing against you,
our fingers intertwining,
my eyes looking into yours
and i smile
for in this moment,
to me,
you matter
and nothing else

though i wish i could've placed my lips elsewhere
i'll settle for here
i wish i could do more
but i can't
not yet

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

fucking stupid

Sep 2019 yogirlturkey

Another Bad Poem

******* stupid

that's what i am, really
just ******* stupid
stupid to hope
stupid to dream
stupid to think that
if i fought, things would change
but no
things are not going to change
things won't change
no matter how hard i fight
it is no
always no
                  no no
            no no no no no no
     no no no no no no no no no no no
                  no no no no no no no no no no no no
no no no no no no no no no no
no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
                                                no no no no no no no no no no no
         no no no no no no no no no no no
                  no no no
    no no no no no no no
no no no no no no no no no no no no
                   no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
             no no no no no no no no no no
                         no no no no no no no
          no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
  no no no no no no

i read books
about youth
who go against everything
and find love
and ask if i can have
what they have
the answer is:
no

i see movies
about kids
kids my age!
and ask
can i feel
what he's feeling?
the answer is:
no

i look around me
in school
see people who do
half the **** that i do
people who don't
have plans, hopes, dreams
who haven't worked hard
who don't deserve it
and i ask
can i have that?
the answer is:
no

with them
it's always
no

can i please be happy?
no

can you help me not hate myself?
no

can you try to understand where i'm coming from?
no

can you let me enjoy my last moments here?
no

well
remember those no's
because that's all you're going to have to hold on to
that
and the memories of you making me feel ******* stupid for hoping that you cared
hoping that you want to change things
that you want to help me be better
no
no you ******* don't