I can be found in Port Woods
Where her pond is revealed in -
the burning fog
Where miracles are witnessed with-
each artistic rendition
Engulfed in the truest religion ..

for all that you stole.

My happiness  is an illusion
Even if I stand in a crowd
I feel like I'm alone... in seclusion
The demons in my head
keep yelling and chanting
I want to crawl into bed
My life is an illusion
I am what everyone want me to be
I live in their delusion
I learned not to fight it
I put on my happy mask
Remind myself its just for a little bit
I have reached a conclusion
I am not the author of my story
I am just the main character
Having control is an illusion

Once upon a time there was a happy little girl...
Then she grew up

There once was a confident teen...
Then her heart was crushed

Once there lived a wounded woman...
But no one cared to help

Once upon a time there was a lonely broken old lady...
but she died

on a quantum level
the act of observing
changes that which is observed

i felt it work
on macro scale
seen through your eyes i have wings

I'm afraid I won't feel you
I'm afraid  I won't  touch you
I'm afraid I wont  look at myself
through your  eyes ,
in your eyes
clear blue peaceful mirrors
I'm afraid I won't be there no more
I'm afraid us is no more
Deep inside no more
Wondering eyes no more
Just pain indescribable pain...
Your eyes will turn to memory
I will be just a memory
And this life will be no more

So many years went by
I wanted to forget you
I even really made it!
but God being infinitely  playful
First took you away
Then created the occasion,
That moment of weakness
for you to step back
 Dear God  why do you play with me?
What was it so hard for you to stop teasing me? I feel confused  
I took a path....
now I can not choose
Is it possible to follow two paths?
Will they get intertwined ?
Oh God I know you laugh in front of my predicament!!
It does only amuse you
Why even you laugh at me? I suppose it's funny so so funny I even smile
It's you but they call it my destiny!