You're dead to me,
But still very much alive,
I care carelessly,
It hurts me every single time.

My love for you,
Is a contradiction.
I love and hate you at the same time.

You wished I were dead,
But already I am, inside.

Even with problems
Not once have I felt less than
Happy around you

It's not that I can't live without you,
It's just that I don't even want to try
Since the first day, my words have rung true
I never could utter a lie

Baby, if I only knew the words to say
To make this right between us
If I can sweep this feeling of doubt away
And find a way to rebuild the trust

If I don’t run, you’ll work on the rebuild
If I run, you won’t beg me to stay
So, I stand still
Willing the tears to go away

You say you’ll turn back time
To find a way back to my heart
Truth is you were never mine
And I was never yours to play this part

Instead, I fall to my knees
I beg and plead
Wishing you hadn’t lied to me
Causing my heart to bleed.

Do I stay?
Do I turn my back?
Or let this love decay?
Or give this love a chance to get out of black?

"you're quieter than usual lately."
"there's nothing to say."