Like a mad man thoughts go through my head like swarming wasps. Every single emotion stinging worse than the one before.
You're not mine,but in my head you are.
So everything you do is vital, everything you are is exactly who I try to be.
Just so you'll notice me, so you'll want me..
To you it's obession,
To you it's jealousy,
But at what point does love turn into toxicity..
This is all I have to offer; this is all I know how to give.
This love is too much for the both of us.
Will you ever let me love you the way I envision every night?
Or will you keep me in this ****** zone of "what ifs","maybe", and uncertainty...
You're killing me and yet you make me feel truly loved...

“I can’t  b  r  e  a  t  h  e.  You’re trying to sheathe me from the world. But I just want  to scream and flee. I want to leave, I want to escape. I don’t want to be bounded, I don’t want to be caged. But your muscles are possessive, hands like shackles and ribs encasing and engaging. Your scent clings to my finger and your embracement breaks my bones. Your words make decisions for me, exerting boundaries onto me. You’re stifling my breath and suffocating me. You want my blood to move at your accord. But I am drowning, choking and gasping. You’re pushing me away by entitling me. Your possessiveness knows no limits as you become invasive. You say it’s just because you love me, that you would go beyond any limit; but it’s obsessive. I feel like I am on a leash. I am no longer my own person, but a puppet to my master. A land to your dominian.”

I don't hate you
I love you, more than anything
And you know that
             But
I do Hate each and every person
In your life
             Who made you so Vulnerable
That you can't accept
My Love for you

©SmitFairytale

His smile is on my mind,
Makes me think of our time,
We spent wasting away,
In our forbidden hours at the bay.

But those were moons ago,
As time went on our hearts got old.
We forgot the spark,
That captured our hearts.

We used to spend hours
In fields of sweet flowers,
But we were so caught up
we forgot the world around us
and slowly the flowers began to rot.

Taking our love with them as they withered
And our once warm hearts were frozen over by a blizzard.
So we bid our goodbyes,
But were we being wise?

My heart is sore aching for him,
Worrying whether this is the end.
Did I waste that time of life
For it to only end with strife?

I think not!
I'll capture his heart,
chain him to me
and throw away the key.

He'll never look twice at another
For I'll put him in a slumber
Where his dreams will be plagued by me
And sweet dreams they'll be.

It's hard to see your friend
distance herself away
just for a boy who may
forget her name in a few months.
The hours we had
now belong to him,
and he tugs her away
from us and keeps her in his hold.
She's now friends with new people
and I understand people grow apart,
but I never knew how people
could leave long term friendships
for a relationship
that could end
any moment.