I remember being 10 days clean
Finally off of methamphetamine
My daughter she was 9 days new
We were living in my hospital room.
Then someone told me my kids dad
Had smoke just one last time, I was mad.
See his teeth were killing him that day
And **** is best at taking  the pain away.
The addict inside me saw its chance to use.
It said I want one last time too!
They took her from me three months after that,
I swore up and down though that I'd get her back.
Weeks and months came and passed
Turned into years now,
I wish I knew how.
If I could go back I would make the right choice
I'd silence that evil addicts voice
What I said on that day was
"I can use just one more time"
I really thought it would be fine.
But it's 6 years later now as I write
At 4:33 am been awake all night
Because one last time never stays like that
If I hadn't tried it I'd have gotten her back.

his ethereal eyes
gazed into mine
those spherical chasms jittered
'i won't leave' he said
as his hand stretched out for mine
my demons peeked into my mind
as the whirlpool of memories arised in my mind
fear gnawed at my insides
yet
i took his hand
as he pressed his forehead against mine
our souls intertwined

By Arcassin Burnham

Pick ya head up boy it's okay now , the eternal struggle is over so be proud,
What you ask for is what you get in life, to climb off the mountain,
gotta find your way down,
Looking for new purposes to fill your voids,
Knowing that in each time it comes with toys,
Life ain't about getting , its about giving but the generations lost in the chaos,
Got the kids in the school in the books on the way to college , But you so worried about
a wrist watch  and material things that don't mean anything at all,
Now Let me say this,

listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was...


i know what you're feeling, i've been there before,
there is no way to cure this,the pain just grows much larger,
if you feel like people don't want you around,
grow to learn more things,
i know it could get much harder....



listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was...

Pay attention in school and do everything you have to do just so you could get out,
You'll have problems along the way and everything that you do , people will doubt,
but don't mind them,
Follow your dreams,
And free think along the way in any age,
i'm not just speaking to kids ,
But i'm also speaking to the human race.

I ****** up the best thing that I've ever had.
Don't take this as me seeking pity.
I just need to shout abit.
I ****** it up and I know that you're glad.

I had the girl of my dreams by the hand.
You took my sadness and replaced it with joy
Yeah I wasn't the best but I did try
My words came out of love not demand.

If I could start again believe me I would
I wanted you and that was all
I didn't want no other just you
I wish I could start again, I wish I could

Let me try to draw you
One last time.
At least this paper and pen will get to have a glimpse of you
One last time.

Wait don't walk away
                                        Come back around
                        One last time
                                Try to hold your ground
I don't wanna ask any more than you can offer
                    I can't take anymore anyways
                                       You're not even trying

            And I've seen you trying
         I've seen you determined
                          It lights up your eyes
Like the celestial beings binge on brilliance
      Makes your aura shine a little brighter
                                         But now You're not even trying
       Should I even be devastated ?
            Should I even feel damaged and broken ?
                         Cry you a river perhaps
         You probably wouldn't even care
It kills me to say this but
                                 I wish You were trying.