light and loose
bending and flowing and spreading
beautiful,
thoughtful,
meaningless,
my watercolor words.

What is the time
What is on your mind friend
Do you question when it all ends
Or simply why it began
Are scary things for our entertainment
Are they just distractions from the real scare.
The world is really really big ,and can only truly be seen by the blind cat

Yet the dog asks why he too can't go to outer space

Dogs need oxygen to breath btw
So do humans ...but nobody cares about either anymore
Okay goodnight moon

I welcome psychotic breakdowns
Ugly crying
Violent arguments
And overwhelming bad news

Don’t worry
Each disturbing moment
Is just a chapter in my story
A short clip
In the kaleidoscope montage
That is my reality

Capture a heart wrenching moment
In three second bursts
And repeat
Until there's an hour of footage
So when it's done
Twenty years will have passed
From the first moment
To the last

In a futures world
I'll be better off
In a successful career
Traveling the world
Not famous enough to be recognized
But known enough to be quoted
For a line of my solemn life
To be an everyday phrase
Recounting my memories to strangers
Creating inspiration for the broken

Freeze frame.
And rewind.
Because this isn't my movie.

I'm in someone else's tale
No matter how tragic my back story is
I'll stay locked in
As a background character
A bully?
A victim?
A destroyer?
A teacher?
An enemy?
A friend?
Will they know I'm their co-star?
Will they make room for me on screen?
Will they even notice my presence?

I'll be forgotten
Lost in a sea of miniscule roles
So these disturbing moments
Won't be reduced to three seconds
And there'll be no Twenty years later flash forward
I'll be stuck in every second
Forever pushed to the sidelines
Forever questioning
If the next person I meet
Will be the main character
In this movie I'm trapped in

Into all this absurdism
I find myself wondering
Why I´m trying to understand
The non-existence of everything?

Watching some clouds
Empty spaces
By the light of the moon
Writing nonsense words

Mindfuck mind
Wake up and make a peep
Drop words between the lines
Why am I still here?

Strange ideas in my head
Writing my blues
Nice ride above us
Still showing more clues

Taking a walk on my deep side
Enjoying this ride
Psychedelic intercessions
Still open my mind wide

Nothing is enough
I can´t decide
Feelings and lines rough
What I wanna write

Looking for the meaning of nothing
Tasting more wine
Am I losing my senses?
It is Braking my mind

Seeking for a spiritual meaning
Waiting for sign of divine
Seeing my mind shining
Lost and blind

Falling in the middle of words
Deeply vibrant sense
Meaning of nothing
Suspension without suspense

Height intense
Verses are meaningless
Looking for the meaning of nothing
Again it makes a little zero sense

We are gathered here in this sacred theatre to share our lust of life and poetry.. Here you can be anyone
A poet, A misfit, A lonesome warrior..
When I was young I was told.
Take your meal stupid child..
Don't you wanna grow up??
Don't you want to be big and powerful..
.
.
As a child we were told how beautiful and lovely this world is..
And you can be anything..
Through the depths of innocence
And our fragile eyes, we saw this world as a radiant, beautiful place..
And there were signs of total chaos that we choose to ignore
And buried our feelings like it didn't matter..
.
.
.
Don't grow up.. Don't ever grow up..
Be a child .. Fillied with hope ..be persistent..Wear a majestic smile that can ease pain in strangers eyes..
Be fearless ..
Just don't grow up, you know
It's the end my friend
Be a child forever..
Because the children are insane
No pride, no respect, no false promises...
Don't trade your vales to fit in..
Be crazy man..
Be unique
.
.Of all the things that you can be
Just don't ever be lonely..
We live and we die
And sometimes death not ends it..
I have seen the dead walking
Trapped in a clueless maze
No idea where to go
Or where they came from
.
..
Did you know freedom is a lie?
Are you free?
Are you free of your insecurities
Free form your responsibilities
Are you a slave of money ?
Can you live without your presious degree?
Do you really love you job?
Are you free from your own depressing thoughts???
So freedom is a lie..
And it only comes at a price..
.
.
We all wandering in this wilderness that we call life..
No matter how hard we try
We can't make evil into good
We can't turn the metal into gold
If we seek the absolute truth
Yess life can be so much painful
Like a rotting piece of fruit which can't be saved
But in the mist of hunger, violence and betrayal
.
.
There are moments, you know
Those small magical moments..
Which can revive the deceased
In those moments the flower of our happiness blooms till eternity
And those moments are worth the wait
In those tiny moments
Everything comes to life
Everything shines bright
Everything makes sense for a while
So live for those moments
And shine like a star my friend
Shine like a star.

some people make you seriously wonder
    about
what makes them tick so brazenly
    against
all values they supposedly hold high

     is it a tunnel vision
     of greedy individuality?

    a dangerous mix
    of arrogance, innocence, ignorance?

    or are they simply overwhelmed
    with unexpectedly gained power
    mistake the votes of people
    for a mandate to play god?

unknown may be the causes
but the results are clear

if you preach water but drink wine
throw precious pearls before swine
say things today that you deny tomorrow

folks may still listen to your words
but do no longer follow the meaning
of perma-hype that makes no sense

sooner or later
they‘ll simply stop listening