Even though life seems to be teaching me
sometimes I wonder if ever
I will truly and without doubt
feel like I am really free...
(for you see, sometimes
the fears, the nightmares
come back in the dark of night
and I lay there shivering with absolute fright!)
and then I think if I close my eyes tight
they (the monsters in my head)
will not be able to see
just how much they're frightening me--
but still, the darkness lurks
at the end of every single day
and I have to manage somehow
to keep the fears/monsters/my pain at bay...
So, even though life seems to be teaching me
sometimes I wonder if ever
I will truly and without doubt
feel like I am really free...
I'm getting better about shoving it out of my head, but still have my rough nights... :(