I made something-look
but it's no good

You gave the critic first
before I got to them...
Was it a shield,
or would I reach the dreamers field

I heard your message
and it struck

sticks to me  
like sandpapered honey

The bitter truth

Or a perspective
from you

I'm sick and ******* tired
of scraping my pride
down to the bone,
asking for helping,
and hearing nothing.
my life has fallen apart
in three months
after years of beating back
against my tears and indecision.
those that want to, can't.
those that can don't want to.
the fire in my throat isn't half
as searing as the hatred i feel
for the South African tech genius,
searching for waste,
and the ones that failed us.
i carry this molten stress in me,
and i want the worst to happen
to those living their lives everyday
without worry about rent
or food or their car's
impending repossession.


this isn't even a poem anymore,
it's a cry for help.

You got just what you want,
And that's what makes it wrong.
Who am I? Someone that you just barely know,
Believe me you will never ever know.
Oh, I loved and hated at the same time,
You and I were the cracks that matched, but even us shattered with time.
Fell in love, broken into the pieces we will never know.

Without you,
Neither night nor day, no moon nor a single star.
Can guide me to your heart.
I'm lost in the dark.
Missing you every night.
If I got you right,
You will be mine only when we're far apart.

Sometimes it feels off,
Wasn't supposed to end us both.
Getting cold in your shadow
Letting myself cool off.
Angry to us both,
But there's no need for more.

With the best version of you,
In another universe.

i miss the comfort of her warmth
i hate how avoidant she is
i miss her kisses on my skin
i hate how she lies to me
i miss how loved she made me feel
i hate the secrets she keeps from me
i miss how she looked at me with her beautiful eyes
i hate how she avoids eye contact now
i miss her laugh
i hate how i believed her even though i knew she lost feelings
i miss her affection
i hate how she doesnt try to keep me in her life
i miss the time we spent together talking about our future
i hate how easily she replaced me
i miss her touch
i hate her attitude towards me
i miss how perfect she was
i hate how she gave up on us
i miss her love
i hate her how cold she is towards me
i miss her love poems
i hate the was she makes me feel now
i miss how we cried together
i hate how she doesnt understand me
i miss the promises she made
i hate how she didnt keep them
i miss her scent
i hate how she doesnt love me anymore
i miss how excited she was to see me
i hate how sick i feel without her
i miss when she told me about her day
i hate how stupid i feel for believing we were going to last forever
i miss how special she made our love feel
i hate how much i trusted her
i miss how i felt like i was made for her
i hate that she made me believe that
i miss how much i smiled because of her
i hate seeing her frowny smile at me
i miss our spark
i hate how easily it disappeared

So your sitting there talking on the phone
but in your statement your standing all alone

You can’t play the game of a one time mistake
you’ve done it before, so we know it’s all fake

A defense against an attack never made
you were the one who started the charade

To pin the blame on those that you hurt
put all those around on heightened alert

A stalker, a hater, a bully and the like
the names you called, putting a friendship on strike

But it never seems to be that you think it through
cuz every single one only applied to you