The baby goat's mother was shot.
And I was forced to listen to it cry.
Forever forlorn and distraught
And i stood there- hands covering ears
Traveling back in time
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Your mothers heart stopped
And I was forced to listen to you cry.
Lost in a huge world, more alone
And i stood there- hands covering ears

I heard you through the vents
"My mom is dead! My mom is dead"
Falling to the floor I wished I still dreamt
But she had called me before her bed

I heard her voice message months later
You still cried yourself to sleep at night
Sleeping with earplugs....I wish I didn't bake
Because I thought I killed her that night

Peanut butter cookies:
She taught me the recipe.
And two days before she vanished,
I brought her a dozen.
Autopsy reports showed an hour before death;
She took two bites of my cookies-
Went upstairs and her heart stopped.

Coincidentally exactly four years later,
I finally made peanut butter cookies again
And the smell of sweet peanut butter roasting
Stopped my heart

Squeaky, creaky rocking chair
Grandma shyly shaking there
Wears a bun of silver hair

Knits a patterned dress to wear
Faded flowers everywhere
Wither 'way and thither there

I miss you so ******* much
Its been 6 months without
You didn't understand me but you tried so hard to
And now you're gone,
You've vanished
And I know you're with Him now but I'm jealous
He gets to see you every day
Grandma I miss you,
And I don't know what to do anymore
Grandma I love you so **** much

Why did she leave at a time like this?
Why does her house feel so empty?
Because it is.
How will I ever heal from this pain?
When will I -- what is that?
Is that a leaf? It's probably a leaf.
That green thing. Is that -- ?

A woman
Promenading through the trees,
With a scarf hanging down to her knees,
A handiworker's pleasant surprise,
It's one shade deeper than her eyes.
She's clutching her tote
As I try to stay afloat;
I'm drowning in this beauty.
She's gathering blackberries
And singing our tune,
The one with no words that oft' ends too soon.

I'm lying in the weeds,
Her green scarf clutched in my palms,
And it's getting easier to breathe.

In the sky,
Up pretty high.
Awaits A star,
Looking like my grandpa.
why'd you go and leave me behind,
now your a star that's on my mind.
I didn't forget grandma too,
whose a star just like you.
one day ill join you two,
mom and dad and lil sis lu,
then we can be together again,
for when stars stick together their brightness never ends..

trying to hold it together
but i'm ultimately falling apart
how do you hold back your tears?
when something is breaking your heart?

Grandma.
musical aromas,
beads and prayers.
Grandma.

I woke up from a dream of love
Found my tiny fingers held by her
She wrapped me in umbrella of love
My little eyes awestruck by her
She narrated her stories in nights
I heard her hum the songs divine
Beside her chest that swelled with care
I slept in darkness to have no fear
Her arms so warm kept me tied
Away from the ***** world around
Bountiful beauty defines her
Her face shines with love for all
A heart of gold she possesses
An enigma, an angel, she is mine!

I cried for you when I had no one else to cry to.
I cried to you when I felt like the world was giving up on me.
I cried to you when the deepest part of my heart started to dissolve.
And some how you always seem to be there.
Like you were some kind of hero who could make my world so much better and you did.
So when you cry for me when you have no one else to cry to,
When you feel the world is giving up on you,
When the deepest part of your hearts starts to dissolve...Just Know I'll be there to make your world happy and I'll be your hero.