Getting so lost again in my thoughts
Thought for a while I could find a way
Talk it out, sing it loud, nullify the pain
But the nerves are here, never to fade
Every time that I find myself awake
When I should be unaware
These thoughts keep me in chains
Talking past fringe friends I've never known
Regretting yet again the fact I've staked my claims all on my own
And I need to share
The half of me still self aware
All I want you to see
Is the part of me I'll never be
It all looks so ideal
Staring in a mirror
With a picture of you next to me
A pedestal for all to see
To keep me in a frame
Colored just a tad deranged
From laughing in the pain
Pretending I've been bleeding just the same
But I've got to say
I'm sad, but it is all a stage
A sliver screen, my own display
Bonds are forged out of a flame
And living has only found me cold
Frictionless and meaningless
Or so I've been told
Somehow, life finds me here, alone
But It won't be long now, and it won't matter so much
