There’s a party Friday night-
All the cool kids will be there!
I somehow rated an invite (?)
Time for a new outfit and new hair!
Time to think of witty things to say
And practice looking approachable.
This time in the corner I won’t stay
Avoiding eyes and being unsociable.
Time to brush up on my smile
And try to not get lost in thought.
Time to not be a lonely isle
And be charming and whatnot.
I can do this thing I know I can!
Why am I always so so worried?
The kids will be tuckered out -
(At least that’s the plan!)
And worst case I’m home by 7:30!
Trying to socialize with other moms at kids’ parties regresses me back to invisible high school shy girl mode. I can be super confident in so many situations but those moms even if they aren’t trying to can make me feel so uncool!
I wish I could be cool about things
But I can't.
When I feel something
I feel it 100%
There's nothing mysterious about me
I'm a book wide open
No translation necessary.
So, due to a deep depression, I literally haven't written a single poem in over FOUR years. Last night I got a bit drunk and wrote a Facebook status that sounded pretty poetic, so I finished it and turned it into this. I couldn't be more thrilled to be writing again. I just hope I don't have to get drunk every time I want to write! Lol
I'm not like those superficial teens
pretending that they're kings and queens
I'm the one living on dreams
and pretending to be unseen
I just wrote this out of a spur of the moment need, not that good buuut yeah.
The Comeback snapped the ball
and looked desperately for somebody open--
I stood in the endzone
HEY! I'M OPEN!!!
With an eye-roll hardly concealed
within a muddy helmet,
he begrudgingly tossed me the ball--
The buzzer sounded
and the fourth quarter ended
just as the ball was in my sweaty clutch--
But the visiting team had already clapped
each other on the backs and
my team waited for me in the
smelly and defeated.
Alas, I was the most distressed,
standing on the field alone
with the winning boon
Sometimes when you feel uncool
You got to put the Freezer on.
— The End —