It happened again
I let someone in
I felt like we were close
but we floated apart
I'll try to distract myself with art,
I feel so alone,
but can't tell anyone
is this how it starts?
My montage?
I see it in TV shows,
movies and music videos
People evolve and change
but I seem to stay the same
But I'll wait for my beginning
The part where I press play
and see myself at the end
I wonder, will I be grinning?
I feel full of regret,
but I cannot reach out again
to these people I copied
whether it was a mistake or not
I have realized I don't have identity.
This is why I'm lonely.
I don't know who I am
I know who I like but drive them away
I'm a mirror for others to use as display.
I feel so sad and bitter today.