Driving,
reaching the stoplight,
but not knowing whether to stop,
slow down,
or just keep moving forward
because ****...
What happens when theres no rules?
Love happens when theres no rules.
Green
Yellow
Red
All at once.
THATS MY HEART RIGHT NOW.

give me a quill
give me a parchment
cos i cant let it sound
i cant let it slip my mouth
how i feel
i cant contain
give me a quill
give me a parchment
let me write instead
cos i cant let you hear
i'll make you read
i'll make you wonder
look up meanings of foreign words
give me a quill
give me a parchment
i want to mail
i want to stamp
i want to deliver
in front of your house
give me a quill
give me a parchment
read my letter
with my messy writing
two letter signature
and a "P.S. ♡"
give me a quill
give me a parchment
COS I AM A COWARD
BUT DARLING I KNOW TRUTH
YOU CANNOT READ
AND
THIS
IS
A
WASTE OF TIME
SO JUST
FORGET THE QUILL
FORGET THE PARCHMENT

BUT FORGET ME NOT...

I AM SLEEPLESS
MY EYES ARE BLOODSHOT
I AM TIRED
MY BONES' EMOTIONS ARE UNSTABLE
I AM ANXIOUS
MY TIME IS RUNNING OUT
BUT I AM NOT DEAD
AND I AM ASKING HOW
WHEN I AM FEELING MISERABLE
AND BREATHLESS
I AM ASKING
HOW
AM
I
NOT
DEAD
WITH A QUESTION MARK BIGGER THAN THAT OF "WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ME?"
I AM DEAD BUT NOT REALLY
I AM CONFUSED MOST OF ALL

you will fall in love with "him" and he will die

it will not be funny

you will dream about "him" and you will cry

it will not be funny

(the next day)

you will see "him" in the man you hate the most and you will fall in love the second time around

it will not be funny

but you will just laugh it off because he will love you too

it will not be the funniest love story
but it will be loved by many

it will not be your first love
but it will be true

it will be out of love-hate
but it will be infinite

****
it will be
trust me