i feel blue..

blue because he came to me
but i belong to somebody already,
blue because i should be ignoring him
but instead i'm missing him like crazy,
blue because he doesn't deserve me
but all i want is him

this isn't right,
he doesn't even care
so why do i still care?

Trust me.
You don’t want to be with me.
You say behind my mask
I’m a human who wants to love
And be loved.
It’s not who I am underneath,
But what I do that defines me.

You want me to be Superman.
Your Superman.
But I am no super-man.
I don’t wear glasses and a suit
like I’m doing 9 to 5.
Then change into my gear
to save the world from the bad guy,
get the girl
and live happily ever after.

That’s fiction, baby.

I’ve seen death
take everything and everyone close to me.
I’ve been disappointed
by two-faced people who flip the coin
on the trust I gave them.
I’ve been broken
by many who I opened up my heart to.

I promised
Myself
I would never let it happen again.
I built my cave
to live in alone
where it’s safe
and no one to bother me.

The only time I go out to have fun
is in the darkness.
I get into fights
with any joker who ****** me off.
I party till the break of dawn
I drink til my eyes are bloodshot red
I smoke my lungs out
And **** a bunch of girls
who can help me forget everything.

But you though
You do things to me
like kryptonite
that make me feel weak.
And it scares me shitless.
That’s why I need you to stop.

You’re beautiful.
You’re brave.
You’re good.

But I can’t be with you.
I’ll hurt you
maybe you’ll hurt me.
Either way things will be ****** up.

I can’t be your white knight.
But I can be your dark knight.
If anyone ***** with you,
I’ll be your vengeance.
And if you’re looking for a good time,
I’ll give you the best night of your life.
Just flash the signal on my cell.

Just wanting to reside,
a life with no complications,
Not a life with free rides,
or without death and frustrations,

Just a life with reason,
Deserved rewards without rupture,
Just something worth keeping,
I just want guidance and structure...

here we are
in this night
and in the next
- if we're lucky -
and we are alone
as always
wishing to be
something
that we are not
complicated
complicate
complications
and then the new
day
starts


around the world
we kiss
we give
we live
can we please
swear
that this is more
because
for me
this means more


complicated, i swear

Body to body I breath him in
Tasting like home I can't begin
Hands in my hair his lips against mine
Dancing to the music of the divine.

I just wanted him to hold me for a second more
His arms around me like armour I'm shielded
Wrapped in his scent for a moment more
Before reality sets in and this wild idea has yielded.

I remember the first touch as clearly as our last time
Lips bruised eachother when we touched it was sublime
But the vehemence behind the passion was nothing short of wanting
I just wanted him forever now my memories are taunting.

Have we been entangled since the start of time
Spirit to spirit making a soul with two spines
Theres something about you it's like déjà vu
Compliment we complicate in everything we do.

Body to body I breath him in
Tasting like home I can't begin
Hands in my hair his lips against mine
Dancing to the music of the divine.

I couldn't bear to see it sink and fade into the black
Thinking back to brighter things but nothing seems to distract
I love you like I loath you and I can't get over that.

I left my cares on the counter when I picked up my keys
Slammed the door shut because I couldn't believe
People portray purity when their minds are diseased
Just expect to get not a thanks or a please.

Disenchanted by the dirt
Emboldened by the lies
Should this **** still hurt
When I want to say goodbye.

It's the personality leaving bodies like casualties you hurt all you touch and cause fatalities
Reared on a downward ***** so you can't help the decline
Calamity feels safer then balance when structure is maligned.

I left my feelings in a box weighed down with rocks by our spot on the docks
I couldn't chuck it in but I wouldn't take it back
I couldn't bear to see it sink and fade into the black
Thinking back to brighter things but nothing seems to distract.

I love you like I loath you and I can't get over that.