i wanna be the one that got away,
i wanna be the one that leaves a scar in your heart,
i wanna be the one that you never see again

because i know,
you can miss me better than you can love me

you don't understand me anymore

any efforts i'm doing in trying to explain, you find defensive.
every tear i shed, you find weak.
all the anger i showed, wishing you could see it in my perspective, you find annoying.

i don't know what else to do, and,
you don't understand me anymore.

i'll never understand why i'm often collateral damage.
i'll never understand how you're okay when things are chaotic.
i'll never understand how you can leave, thinking it will be fine tomorrow.
i'll never understand how you sleep so sound.
i'll never understand how you can sacrifice me,
when u say i'm your future.

as if you think i'd never have the guts to leave.

i wonder how many times i forgave someone,
just because i didn't want to lose them

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