They say that I deserve a love that comes back
   Like waves, both strong and calm
     it always return to where it belongs
     it’s first love, the shore
   Like raindrops that hits the ground
     that flows back to oceans
     then soon returns to sea of clouds
   Like the seasons that change
     from spring to summer, autumn to winter
     consistent yet seasonal

They say that I deserve a love that comes back
It’s beautiful, promising, but I don’t want it

I want a love that stays
Not the waves who leaves
Not the raindrops that evaporates
Not the flowers that withers
Not the one that falls
Not the sunny then rainy
Not the cold then warm

I want a love that stays
A kind of love that doesn’t go anywhere
A kind of love that lasts
A kind of love that we all deserve

You not only exist  in my memories
But in pages of my diaries
In bouts of my anxieties
In sleepless nights
In hopeless dreams
In random musings
In too good to be true fantasies
I am trying really hard to forget you
To move on as they would like to call it out
But it is not making me happy
I don’t want to lose these small snippets I have of you
But what should I do
You won't come back
And I won't let those go
Maybe time will answer my question
As it always does
I have to just wait
To let it turn magical wand.
And give me peace

Broken within,
The pain, still I feel.
I may or may not let you in,
Firstly let my heart heal!

Another rejection,
I have this doubt!
Trust is my expectation,
Love is what all about!

Finger burns again
If another rekindle!
Another pain,
Can my heart handle?


What you promise,
I can't trust.
My gut feelings say,
It's just lust!

Tell me one thing!
where were you?
When my heart
was crying for you.

Now I've learnt
to survive in the dark.
Now I'm my own light,
Don't need your spark!

Thanks for storming out,
making the pain to ooze out.
And thanks for comeback,
you proved my worth back!

The heart yearning,
But the wounds burning.
Fingers burnt,
Lessons learnt.

Not again!
No more pain!
My resolution!
No regression!

Now i don't need
your support,
Let's have just
friendly rapport!!

The city lights and the people in the street
Here am I passing by expecting that you and I will meet
It's crowded here again, and I can only see my shadow
Oh wait! There you are, in the crowd watching a show


“Excuse me.” I uttered in every people who's passing by
But the show is over and they already said goodbye
You're running away again from me
Shall I chase after thee?


“Lady! You might get tripped!" shouted by a child
“Watch over!” he added, and I only smiled
I can't lose the guy whom am I chasing after
I shouted in the middle “HEY STILL REMEMBER--”


You ignored me and people are laughing
My love, am I really annoying?
You said you'll comeback to me
But I was left alone under the tree


I asked myself “Am I existing?”
Or to your memory I'm slowly disappearing?
Before I forgot I am only your shadow
Who's always chasing you after the show