My Heart is parched and my Soul runs low of strength,
rumblings from within in hunger for Love.

I must ration myself as I journey alone,
keeping reserves of what I have to offer.

I carry seeds of love and devotion close to me,
  so they are not grown in haste.

I  store in carefulness of what is tucked away,
so not as to lose for what may be ahead.  



Does that me beggarly? A poor soul to pity? Soured by bitter drink?
No, for I am wiser in knowing of my travels,

To wait for the feast, of The Harvest of Love, when it is time.

Copyright ©  Jose Gonzalez 2015

You inspired me to write, not a muse but a thought
You remind me of a comfort that cannot be taught
A warmth and safety that only you can hold
Your protective embrace never gets old

But for once this warmth is all but forgotten
We may not speak, the bridge may be rotten
This doesn’t mean it’s not loved or burnt
It just means we lost what we learnt

Coming back to the bridge we see what once was
But cannot cross over only because
The bridge and protection has been lost so long
Neither one can see this was where they belonged.

Your mouth was always cave of secrets
making me wonder about all the things you said
making me wonder about all the things you never said.

And I hate the way you left me wondering
three years later
with no answers
to my silent questions.

The freckles on your skin
leaving me jealous
because they will always with you.

Your gentle touch
was my dead end
except it left me dead
and it doesn't feel like it's an end.

Your brown eyes burning holes in my heart
making me lose myself
except all I lost was you

The smell of daisies
The smell of rain
The feeling of your touch
The tear stains
Seems like all I have
after you left
and never came back.

Once I thought I was enough,
then you destroyed me.

And I found myself crying,
all over again
in my room
trying to catch my breath
but it's hard to calm your soul
when you are broken into pieces.

I miss you,
but I am strong.

Not for me,
but just for you.

Nobody deserves to deal with the mess inside me,
and I don't want you to be ******* like me.